So-ocd,please answer

Can hocd create mental feelings or things that resemble inclinations Without a physical response?, but such as arousal and mental attraction, for example, I have so ocd and I'm afraid that I might like women.So, in the last period, when I look at photos of girls, especially beautiful ones, I feel something strange or attracted,sometimes their bodies.And I'm confused as to what that might mean, it's like sexual orientation, is this from me or OCD produced by it?'The feeling is like the feeling of discovering new inclinations and this breaks me, I just want to reconcile with myself in any sexual orientation or identity, but I just can't feel comfortable and reconcile with the fact that I may like women or it may happen in the future.And I have these feelings that telling me messing around the girls would be fun, and I feel something like desire, but I never come to terms with this.. I'm going to be 15 years old, I know, I'm not supposed to think like that, I don't have the right to determine who I am now because im young, and I shouldn't continue to dream of marrying a man..My mind keeps reminding me of the fact that I'm a teenager and the likelihood that everything will change is high, but right now, I'm not asking for anything but rest.I want to love myself and reconcile with her.

Sexual Orientation OCD

Anonymous

Date posted: 23d

Hocd can make you feel like you want to do all your thoughts, that you are your thoughts, that you have been lying to yourself all your life. It makes you lose attraction, and completely gaslights you. At times you are fully convinced of one this and then another. It’s okay to admit that women are pretty and nice that doesn’t mean you want to be with one. It’s simply apart of life. Just take it all one step at a time and try to generalize your thoughts. Don’t get too specific. If you say oh she’s pretty and you start spiraling, just say to yourself ya I think she’s pretty and that’s okay

Ifeelguilty

Date posted: 23d

Everything is going to be just, just fine 🫂🩷 OCD can create false memories, feelings, sensations, whatever! For a long long time I’ve had, still do sometimes, these weird intrusive and romantic feelings for people; it got so bad I tried taking my life several times from guilt and stress because I am dating. Now, you are going to be just fine! Don’t try figuring out what is or what isn’t OCD, sit with the discomfort, even if it feels like it is IMPOSSIBLE, sit with it, you’re NOT an exception, so SO many people with SO-OCD feel the exact same way as you do right now- OCD knows how to keep you trapped. Don’t give it what it wants to hear<3

Mimo116

Date posted: 23d

Omg,thank you🥹💜,i hope you a happy life with your partner,with all my heart,its really hard sitting with feelings that I cant deal with but thank you 💜💜

Ifeelguilty

Date posted: 23d

@Mimo116 Thank YOU for being so brave to share your feelings!<3

What is happ...

Date posted: 23d

Absolutely agree with the amazing people who have replied to this. You are definitely not alone. I had HOCD 14 years ago which was just thoughts and loss of attraction to opposite gender. Then I was hit hard with it again in Feb and still managing it now. I had sudden loss off attraction to opposite gender (females) and ‘false’ attraction to same gender (male). It was any age male, cartoons and even voices. I couldn’t watch tv, listen to music, play football. I am back doing most things now but not who I was in January. I lost so much weight , thought of ending my life multiple times because it just wasn’t me. I’m married over 5 years to an amazing woman who we share two beautiful children. It’s harder said than done (believe me, I’m still going through this) but you’ve got to accept uncertainty. Agree and disagree, right now you do t know and that’s ok. Doing this my attraction the females has come back, not as strong as before but it’s there. Sometimes disappears but is there. False attraction is also there and most of the time now I know it’s not me but the OCD in me. I wish you all the best, you’re not alone and we are here to support.

Anonymous

Date posted: 22d

@What is happening to me Great response! I second this and hearing your story resonates so much. Choosing to keep trying and getting back up when you feel defeated and feel like you don’t know yourself anymore is one of the hardest and scariest things to do. It takes real courage. Stay strong!!

vaiiolyn

Date posted: 16w

Lesbian with Sexual Orientation OCD

I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?

vaiiolyn

Date posted: 16w

feeling helpless

As a lesbian with SO-OCD, I feel so helpless. It's truly exhausting because no one I know understands what I'm going through. The first response is always, "You're just confused" or "You don't have to know yet." But that's not the issue, I do know. I just never see any lesbians with SO-OCD so I feel so invalidated. These thoughts flood my brain constantly, forcing me to analyze my reactions to every man I see. I feel trapped in an endless cycle of "testing" myself, trying to prove that I don't like them. But my brain fights back, telling me I do want to love a man, making it feel real even though don't want it. It's terrifying. At this point, it's hard to even hold onto my identity as a lesbian because I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know if this is what real attraction is supposed to feel like, and that fear eats away at me. The truth is, when I think about being with a man, all I feel is disgust and fear-but my brain twists that into doubt. I hate it. I'm at the point where I'm scared I'm going to have to accept something I don't want because I don't know if this will ever go away. I miss who I was before all this.

Mags2002

Date posted: 13w

Soocd: need some response , is this even ocd?

I really dont know if it is ocd anymore I dont want certain sexual things with my bf anymore that i used to like When i envision it with a girl it is so easy to envision and it feels like i want that , that will give me the satisfaction This feeling is making me really question if i am still into men , desire men sexually Is this still ocd , i really dont know anymore , as it is a feeling it is too real

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