Doubting, feeling numb & blasphemous thoughts

I know what you are talking about. It is actually VERY common for religious OCD. The blasphemous thoughts are actually common. I used to have those thoughts running through my head every single second of the day. The biggest thing to learn is that the intrusive thoughts HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD. When you can accept that truth, you can start to really recover. In fact, the biggest hurdle I see in the OCD community is the lack of knowledge about how to handle the thoughts. The truth is that we should do NOTHING about that thoughts. We have to stop trying to fight them off. We have to stop trying to fix them. We have to stop trying to figure them out. I remember when I first started doing this when my blasphemous thoughts. It was a little scary at first, but I had to trust that I would still be safe even if I did that. That was years ago. And God has shown big time in my life so many times since then. He has never rejected me because I let the blasphemous thoughts " run " freely through my head. Why is that? It is because the thoughts don't mean anything!!! You have to come to the point where you realize that the thoughts are meaningless! They are not dangerous because they don't mean anything. You don't have to be afraid of them. Remember, the thoughts have nothing to do with your relationship with God. You are still saved. You are just fine!!! You can get a lot better!!!! But you need the right information on how to treat the OCD to help you. You are not alone!!! Your symptoms are VERY common. Many people have felt exactly the same way with religious OCD. In fact, what you are describing is exactly how OCD works and operates. Your description is textbook. You can become a strong Christian, despite the OCD. You are not lost. You are just on a journey to learn to exercise a faith that trusts God --even though the intrusive thoughts are there. It are okay!!! We can talk more!!! Message me anytime!!! I love to talk on here

Look up Alan watts letting go of control on YouTube. Alan Watts has been an amazing anchor for me while traveling across the country. I hope it helps as much as it has me.

I’m not Christian, but I don’t think they’ll reject you for thoughts that aren’t yours but are OCD’s.

I feel stuck also and feel like I’m being lazy in my faith even though I don’t want to either. I feel you

I went through this really badly too. Ultimately medicine and therapy and a period of deconstructing helped me regain a healthy faith. Remember Nothing can separate you from the love of God. That includes OCD. Also many famous Christians had these kind of thoughts. Martin Luther. John Bunyan. St Ignatius.