itsmehi17
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- 18w
Cancer
It’s all I think about everyday. I just stare at statistics and wonder and hope and pray that I live. I don’t know how to stop the research. Plastic has become a huge trigger. I just feel terrified.
jisoosluvjisoosluv
- Date posted
- 18w
thats real though, i have this bump on the side of my head and i went through a whole spiral on Google about cancer. Please know, you’re most likely okay🩷 You arent alone !!
itsmehi17itsmehi17
- Date posted
- 18w
@jisoosluv Thank you! It’s been like two weeks and I’m just tired
ccweddellccweddell
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- 18w
I've really spiraled with health concerns lately too. Googling every little thing, convincing myself I have cancer. Its exhausting! I totally understand
itsmehi17itsmehi17
- Date posted
- 18w
@ccweddell It’s so exhausting!! I’m just scared all the time
ccweddellccweddell
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- 18w
@itsmehi17 I know how you feel! I had some health issues recently and convinced myself it was cancer. I expected to have full blown cancer and to be dying. I spent the entire month googling every little symptom. Looking at statistics. Over and over again. Lost so much sleep. And it turned out to only be kidney stones! I was relieved, but any time I have any little symptom I immediately revert back to thinking I have cancer. Exhausting is the only word I can think of to describe it! Youre not alone. We just have to remind ourselves that these thoughts are because of our OCD. I hope you can find some relief soon ❤️❤️❤️
itsmehi17itsmehi17
- Date posted
- 18w
@ccweddell You too! This really sucks the life out of you. I just googled every thing I could like it would help me but I know it won’t
itsmehi17itsmehi17
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- 18w
@ladymeni That’s smart! I should try it. It’s just so easy to know everything and feel “safe” even if it costs your sanity
Magnumb1Magnumb1
- Date posted
- 18w
literally me too. i wish it would stop. it’s eating me alive
itsmehi17itsmehi17
- Date posted
- 18w
@Magnumb1 Oh my gosh really? When did yours start? What are your compulsions? I’ve felt super alone in this!
HeartMamaHeartMama
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- 18w
Just a thought, what if you had someone block Google on your phone or computer with parental controls. It would be super hard for you, but google is the worst, you could type in I enjoy long walks on the beach and its going to say it could be cancer. If you can have someone help you and get away from google, it should slowly come down in level. Are you doing ERP? There has to be some good exposures you could do to bring that level down from absolute panic. My contamination fear is not cancer, but I have struggled in the past with googling anything and everything with my son's heart. I called the nurse line all the time, as I was able to resist googling things, I started to get better. I have also tried a lot of other things like hypnosis (both app based and in person with a PHD therapist who specialized in it), cortisol reducing frequencies to listen to, binaural beats, and now ERP and TMS therapy. It can feel so real, and the anticipation is the worst.
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