I am a Christian and I went through religious OCD and I felt like I blasphemy the Holy Spirit

so my dad is Jewish and my mom is Christian. I used to go to Hebrew school when I was younger, but recently I started going to church and becoming a Christian and turning to Jesus and when I recently got diagnosed with OCD a couple months ago I had really really bad religious OCD. I had very disrespectful thoughts about Jesusand God, but mainly Jesus. and I had very disturbing thoughts about Jesus that made me avoid a lot of things, but I know that’s making the OCD worse. I’m doing erp currently my religious OCD has honestly gone away. I’ve dealt with it. I am managing it but ever since I’ve had religious OCD and had disturbing and disrespectful thoughts about God in Jesus mainly Jesus, I’ve felt a awkward distance between me, God and Jesus and it just feels like I’m going to hell and they don’t love me anymore and I haven’t felt the same presence from God ever since I’ve had religious OCD and I’ve had some situations that I felt like I blasphemy the Holy Spirit and I committed blasphemy and I just feel like God really doesn’t love me anymore and I’m done for i’ve kind of been numb to it so it’s not really bothering me, but I want a better relationship with God and Jesus it just feels like they don’t love me anymore. Has anyone else gone through this? and I’ve had situations where I felt like I was very disrespectful and mocked God and Jesus, but mainly Jesus. And i freaked out for days didn’t feel like myself repented multiple times pretty sure this is just religious OCD but seriously I have not felt the same with my relationship with God and Jesus. OCD has really really affected my life and it sucks. I’m going through Harm OCD right now. So religious OCD has kinda gone away but I just want a better relationship with God and Jesus sorry this text is so long. Has anyone else gone through this?

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ana 🤍

Date posted: 24d

I have been dealing with this so much recently too; youre not alone!! but I just try to remember that we’re not always going to feel Gods presence or love, but that doesn’t mean hes not there. and remember that he loves you sooooo so much! he saw all the times u would mess up and make mistakes but he still chose the cross. he is not mad at you, I promiseeeeee, he’s waiting patiently for you to come back to him with open arms. just come to him and be honest about what you’re dealing with, bc he understands, and he misses you! Romans 8:38–39 - “nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Psalm 103:8 - “The Lord is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love.” 2 Peter 3:9 - “The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise… Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.”

berrybrynn

Date posted: 24d

@ana 🤍 you are an angel ily thank you for this, Ocd is so draining, but the Lord is with us through the thick and thin of it. you are the sweetest i am gonna start going back to youth group and maybe sunday services! Thessalonians 5:11. “So encourage each other and build each other up, just as you are already doing.”

ana 🤍

Date posted: 24d

@berrybrynn awww you’re so welcome queennnn!! I’m so glad I could help 💗

berrybrynn

Date posted: 24d

@ana 🤍 yess if you need anything reach out girll💘

Anonymous

Date posted: 24d

I have had something similar to this, though I am not sure that it was as sever, I remember about this time last year, I was going through the worst OCD I have ever had, basically could not do anything but compulsions and worry for 24/7. But after a couple of weeks it started to get better, it's like my mind and body could not handle anymore, I mean I was still spending lots of time doing compulsions, but I was doing better, and as soon as I started doing better, I started to feel less connected with Jesus, looking back on the really hard weeks, it seemed that Jesus had been really close, and now not so much. What is really funny, or maybe hard, is now a year later, looking back on that time, I feel that Jesus was close to me during those weeks after I started get better, even though at the time I clearly remember feeling less of a connection and wanted to go back to the 2 weeks that were really bad. Its perspective, in the moment things often look worse than they do later. That is why I say you can't rely on your feelings, you have to rely on God's promises, a true friend still loves you and will still keep their promise to you even if you don't feel like they will or even if you don't feel like you know them. This Bible verse really helped me a few months ago: "For we walk by faith, not by sight." 2 Corinthians 5:7.

berrybrynn

Date posted: 24d

@Anonymous i love this thank you sm yea my religious ocd and the disrespectful thoughts have definitely slowed down and I’ve definitely not been focusing on them and they haven’t been bothering me because I’ve done ERP and it’s helped so much. I hope you’re doing OK and yeah just try not to do any compulsions because it’ll make it worse, but it’s just like now that I don’t have those thoughts anymore I just feel so disconnected with God and I just truly feel so lost. I feel like I’m not even a Christian anymore which kind of scares me but at the same time like it doesn’t bother me cause I’m so numb to everything ever since OCD or ever since it got severe it’s just really confusing

DaniDaze

Date posted: 25d

I believe I have religious OCD as well. I just have these bad thoughts while I’m praying and such.

berrybrynn

Date posted: 24d

@DaniDaze aw i’m sorry you will get better

Brandon

Date posted: 25d

You are not alone, I’ve been going through this as well

berrybrynn

Date posted: 24d

@Brandon it’s just like i feel so lost with my walk with God, i hope your doing okay though

Anonymous

Date posted: 19w

Religious OCD

Hi everyone. I'm wondering if anyone has any tips for dealing with religious OCD. I'm a Christian and I struggle with Harm OCD but then somehow, my religious beliefs got mixed into this where I am suddenly asking all these questions on whether God/Jesus is even good. And as a result, I feel so distant from my faith which makes dealing with my harm OCD so much harder 😢 Any advice would be appreciated.

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sanshine

Date posted: 16w

Religious OCD

I used to have religious OCD. Still kinda do. Accidentally thought something bad about God once, panicked thought something bad about the Holy Spirit. Fell into doom. This was recently after recomitting myself to Christ. Since then I pretty much gave up. Unfortunately, it also led to me compromising my morals many times because I figured I was going to hell anyway. I wish I knew what OCD was then. I think it would have saved me a lot of pain. I no longer have a relationship with God, and fear I never will again.

Cammy123

Date posted: 7w

Religious OCD

So about 2 years ago I gave my life to Jesus. I've always been a "Christian" but never truly lived liked one. Honestly never truly felt love for them until 2 years ago. It was the best couple months of my life!!! I felt so happy and loved and unstoppable! I thought this fire for God & Jesus will never burn out. One day I had a thought about is God real? It bothered me so bad and I went into a massive spiral. Doubting everything. My faith. if I was good enough. Am I really saved? Do I have enough faith? Is my doubt real? Is it too much? Have these blasphemous made God not want me anymore? Or Jesus? :( But I knew I was and that they were real! I know I've heard them. Then I started having horrible blasphemous thoughts but then it would go back to doubting thoughts then back to the blasphemous ones. I hated the thoughts and doubts. The thoughts are so mean towards God, Jesus & HS. It’s anywhere from evil thoughts to cussing thoughts to rejection thoughts/denying. Demonic thoughts. Literally anything bad you could think of! Even thoughts of if I really love them or wanna follow them. I learned about OCD from what I've looked up but I've been dealing with this for about 2 years now. It's hard. I doubt if it’s OCD. Definitely feel like I'm trapped or my faith isn't the same. Which makes me sad because I want my faith! I feel like I've gotten lazy and honestly that I don't deserve them or am "too far gone" from them. I feel like idk how to be a Christian or how to have faith or just exist tbh. I wanna love God & Jesus! I want faith! I just feel kinda stuck. Has anyone gone through this or has advice or tips?

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