I am a Christian and I went through religious OCD and I felt like I blasphemy the Holy Spirit

so my dad is Jewish and my mom is Christian. I used to go to Hebrew school when I was younger, but recently I started going to church and becoming a Christian and turning to Jesus and when I recently got diagnosed with OCD a couple months ago I had really really bad religious OCD. I had very disrespectful thoughts about Jesusand God, but mainly Jesus. and I had very disturbing thoughts about Jesus that made me avoid a lot of things, but I know that’s making the OCD worse. I’m doing erp currently my religious OCD has honestly gone away. I’ve dealt with it. I am managing it but ever since I’ve had religious OCD and had disturbing and disrespectful thoughts about God in Jesus mainly Jesus, I’ve felt a awkward distance between me, God and Jesus and it just feels like I’m going to hell and they don’t love me anymore and I haven’t felt the same presence from God ever since I’ve had religious OCD and I’ve had some situations that I felt like I blasphemy the Holy Spirit and I committed blasphemy and I just feel like God really doesn’t love me anymore and I’m done for i’ve kind of been numb to it so it’s not really bothering me, but I want a better relationship with God and Jesus it just feels like they don’t love me anymore. Has anyone else gone through this? and I’ve had situations where I felt like I was very disrespectful and mocked God and Jesus, but mainly Jesus. And i freaked out for days didn’t feel like myself repented multiple times pretty sure this is just religious OCD but seriously I have not felt the same with my relationship with God and Jesus. OCD has really really affected my life and it sucks. I’m going through Harm OCD right now. So religious OCD has kinda gone away but I just want a better relationship with God and Jesus sorry this text is so long. Has anyone else gone through this?

Religion & Spirituality OCD

ana 🤍

Date posted: 4d

I have been dealing with this so much recently too; youre not alone!! but I just try to remember that we’re not always going to feel Gods presence or love, but that doesn’t mean hes not there. and remember that he loves you sooooo so much! he saw all the times u would mess up and make mistakes but he still chose the cross. he is not mad at you, I promiseeeeee, he’s waiting patiently for you to come back to him with open arms. just come to him and be honest about what you’re dealing with, bc he understands, and he misses you! Romans 8:38–39 - “nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Psalm 103:8 - “The Lord is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love.” 2 Peter 3:9 - “The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise… Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.”

berrybrynn

Date posted: 4d

@ana 🤍 you are an angel ily thank you for this, Ocd is so draining, but the Lord is with us through the thick and thin of it. you are the sweetest i am gonna start going back to youth group and maybe sunday services! Thessalonians 5:11. “So encourage each other and build each other up, just as you are already doing.”

ana 🤍

Date posted: 4d

@berrybrynn awww you’re so welcome queennnn!! I’m so glad I could help 💗

berrybrynn

Date posted: 4d

@ana 🤍 yess if you need anything reach out girll💘

Anonymous

Date posted: 4d

I have had something similar to this, though I am not sure that it was as sever, I remember about this time last year, I was going through the worst OCD I have ever had, basically could not do anything but compulsions and worry for 24/7. But after a couple of weeks it started to get better, it's like my mind and body could not handle anymore, I mean I was still spending lots of time doing compulsions, but I was doing better, and as soon as I started doing better, I started to feel less connected with Jesus, looking back on the really hard weeks, it seemed that Jesus had been really close, and now not so much. What is really funny, or maybe hard, is now a year later, looking back on that time, I feel that Jesus was close to me during those weeks after I started get better, even though at the time I clearly remember feeling less of a connection and wanted to go back to the 2 weeks that were really bad. Its perspective, in the moment things often look worse than they do later. That is why I say you can't rely on your feelings, you have to rely on God's promises, a true friend still loves you and will still keep their promise to you even if you don't feel like they will or even if you don't feel like you know them. This Bible verse really helped me a few months ago: "For we walk by faith, not by sight." 2 Corinthians 5:7.

berrybrynn

Date posted: 4d

@Anonymous i love this thank you sm yea my religious ocd and the disrespectful thoughts have definitely slowed down and I’ve definitely not been focusing on them and they haven’t been bothering me because I’ve done ERP and it’s helped so much. I hope you’re doing OK and yeah just try not to do any compulsions because it’ll make it worse, but it’s just like now that I don’t have those thoughts anymore I just feel so disconnected with God and I just truly feel so lost. I feel like I’m not even a Christian anymore which kind of scares me but at the same time like it doesn’t bother me cause I’m so numb to everything ever since OCD or ever since it got severe it’s just really confusing

DaniDaze

Date posted: 5d

I believe I have religious OCD as well. I just have these bad thoughts while I’m praying and such.

berrybrynn

Date posted: 4d

@DaniDaze aw i’m sorry you will get better

Brandon

Date posted: 5d

You are not alone, I’ve been going through this as well

berrybrynn

Date posted: 4d

@Brandon it’s just like i feel so lost with my walk with God, i hope your doing okay though

Anonymous

Date posted: 16w

Religious OCD

Hi everyone. I'm wondering if anyone has any tips for dealing with religious OCD. I'm a Christian and I struggle with Harm OCD but then somehow, my religious beliefs got mixed into this where I am suddenly asking all these questions on whether God/Jesus is even good. And as a result, I feel so distant from my faith which makes dealing with my harm OCD so much harder 😢 Any advice would be appreciated.

Religion & Spirituality OCD

sanshine

Date posted: 13w

Religious OCD

I used to have religious OCD. Still kinda do. Accidentally thought something bad about God once, panicked thought something bad about the Holy Spirit. Fell into doom. This was recently after recomitting myself to Christ. Since then I pretty much gave up. Unfortunately, it also led to me compromising my morals many times because I figured I was going to hell anyway. I wish I knew what OCD was then. I think it would have saved me a lot of pain. I no longer have a relationship with God, and fear I never will again.

Rosesrred

Date posted: 18h

New Christian and OCD

So when I was younger I was a Christian but my OCD got so bad that I felt like it was impossible to have OCD and Christianity at the same time so I left God and convinced myself He wasn't real for 12 years. I now recently turned back to God but because the way I loved was so bad and the fact that I turned away in the first place makes me wonder if God forgave me again. I also struggle with ego distonic OCD. Like I get blasphemous thoughts about God and my mind tries to convince me that I wanted to think them. I also get ego dystonic feelings, like I was listening to a song about turning away from the cross with a smile on my face and thought about the evil people that did and even though I don't want to feel that way I got a sense of smugness or pride and I didn't want to feel that. I'm struggling so bad thinking that if I stop thinking about God for a couple hours and have fun with my hobbies like watching TV then I'm sinning and it's got me so anxious of I'm truly on the narrow path that I've been compulsively picking at my scalp till it bleeds. Has anyone experienced anything like this or have any advice to Christians going through OCD?

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