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@@sophiaevidal Thank you friend. My intentions didn't feel well during the moment. But then after I panic and wish it didn't happen. Is this the same thing? Did I hurt her by doing that?

@Anony1314 No you did not hurt her. But I know from your post that you not mean harm.

@@sophiaevidal But in that moment I wanted it to happen or it felt that way. You see what I'm saying?

@Anony1314 I think that is the ocd I know from your distress that you meant no harm.

@@sophiaevidal You think that's OCD? Like had that ever happened to you before?

@Anony1314 Yes like I have acted on my intrusive urges before and it really scary but as long you realize after you have no harmful intent or no sexual intent you are fine.

@Anony1314 I know i didn't because I know i would never want to harm and I never had that sexual intent.

@@sophiaevidal Thanks friend. Did your OCD make you feel like you wanted to do that in the moment though?

@Anony1314 At times yes.

@@sophiaevidal Do you believe mine was OCD too friend? Sorry for all the questions.

@Anony1314 Yes but you did not abuse her as you had no harmful or sexual intent so you are ok.

@@sophiaevidal Either way I'm okay because the action wasn't abusive anyways though. Like I'm so scared friend

@Anony1314 No it wasn't.

@Anony1314 I dont know i think you said you are seeing a therapist why dont you talk through this with them.

@@sophiaevidal I'm sorry friend. Yes

@@sophiaevidal So sorry for asking so many questions. I apologize

@Anonymous THANK YOU!! Thank you thank you!! Even if it felt intentional because I chose to turn? It's still OCD?

@Knifed But it felt like I meant it. And then I turned. Still OCD?