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I told my mom about my POCD and I feel she didn't get it and now assumes I'm a secret pedophile + recommended me to go to church and ask God to take away these thoughts from my mind. I think I might get therapy anyways, but oh my god, this is a new low for me. I tried so hard to tell her I'm not these things, I'm not my thoughts, I'm not my anxiety, but I feel as if it fell on deaf ears. I should have just kept quiet or said something else was my trigger.

POCD

des21

Date posted: 5d

Find a therapist or someone who does understand and have them talk to her and explain it to her. I have found it that having your loved one speak to a professional, helps them believe it more and see that it is actually OCD not just an excuse for having bad thoughts. It’s a hard thing to go through. I used to and still do struggle with it and I understand the low. You are not your thoughts.

pinboing

Date posted: 5d

When I do start going to OCD therapy sessions, I'll try asking if my therapist could speak to her about it! Maybe even get an official diagnosis too. But I did try my best to explain it to her, and that's all I that can do for now, so I'm trying to sit with the doubt of whether she sees me differently/hates me now or not. How I wish I had pretty much any other form of OCD but POCD...

des21

Date posted: 13h

@pinboing Yes. OCD therapy sessions would be so good and an official diagnosis. An official diagnosis helped me a ton. Just helped validate me. I went to a whole OCD clinic place where we worked on exposure therapy and things. It is hard. But that is how you know the OCD is unhappy and boy do I want that OCD to be unhappy. Unfortunately, sitting with the doubt is a big big step forward. It’s good it is a step forward, but it is so hard cus that is all our brains want is certainty. Being in that uncomfortable position is fighting the OCD. You are already doing a big part of ERP because you are resisting the compulsion of telling her and getting her reassurance about what she thinks. POCD is a monster. All OCD is a monster. Our brains are wired differently. Everyone does get thoughts, but they aren’t brave enough to admit it. Our brains just hold onto it. Are you on any medication? If that’s too personal that’s okay too.

Sofyyya

Date posted: 5d

I’m sorry :( I’m here for you if you feel like you’re mom doesn’t understand you

sjwmzn2023

Date posted: 5d

God I can’t imagine what my mom would say. Just remember that if someone doesn’t have OCD they won’t be able to understand completely. I’ve tried to express to people how my brain works for years and was always met with “yeah I don’t do that” or “no I’ve never thought that” but now having the knowledge that I more than likely have OCD I can accept that most people won’t get it. I’m sorry that the conversation turned into that, you are really brave for speaking out about it and I’m proud of you.

notsohappynow

Date posted: 4d

i’m so sorry op, i get it. i struggled w thoughts similar to yours for a while, many of which even extended to animals- causing me to have intense periods of false attraction, then leading to guilt and self loathing and ruminating over my ocd-state struggles. i couldn’t open up to anyone ab this, not even my family, your best bet is honestly just finding a therapist as they’re the only people who genuinely get it.

noneed1

Date posted: 20w

I told my mom about my ocd

She laughed and said that everyone has these thoughts "i didn't tell her about the REALLY fucked up thoughts i experience cuz i was kinda scared" and then she said it's the demon just say ur prayers and they'll go away Even though i kept on trying and trying to convince her that they're clearly not normal but she kept on refusing and it kinda sounded like she didn't want to admit and believe that her daughter has a mental illness which sucks

Vee4

Date posted: 12w

Religious OCD

I just told my mom my religious OCD has been really really bad lately and she just told me I needed to pray because demons can actually take advantage of me. Because demons are "stress" I'm not stressed I'm hallucinating and having genuine episodes where I think God is talking to me and telling me he hates me and I feel like there is a demon ready to take me away every night. I just feel like she doesn't understand the severity of what I'm feeling right now. She says it will go away but it comes BACK and I constantly feel endangered by something I can't even see. She said it's not that she was implying that I wasn't praying enough but still it just stressed me out. I didn't want to hear "you're right it could be Satan" I wanted to hear "you're okay and nothing is trying to hurt you" I feel like I'm losing my mind and i can't do this. I can't. My religious OCD hasn't been this bad since I was 10 I don't think. All I can think about is how im going to hell and there's nothing I can do about it and that there's an entity in my body and God hates me. I just needed to hear something else but that made me freak out more and I don't know who to turn to. I feel like I can't even explain it. I don't even know if it's OCD that's how serious I'm being. It feels 100% real.

Religion & Spirituality OCD

Magzzz

Date posted: 5w

This is really bothering me

I have been diagnosed with OCD by a therapist on NOCD for about 4 years now. I went through therapy here and I was officially diagnosed. My mom knows about the diagnosis because I’ve pretty much told her all my struggles and unfortunately confessed a lot of what I was dealing with in the past. She was not understanding at first and told me there was no way I could have OCD that I don’t “clean and organize” like people she has worked with before or been around. I told her that I wanted to go through therapy at the time and she said no and really said some mean and hateful things. Eventually though she did start becoming understanding but not in the way you would think. My mom isn’t exactly emotionally supportive. So talking to her about everything was really hard to go through. Well getting into what’s bothering me….in the past I have thought maybe there was a possibility that I could have autism. I’ve seen people on TikTok talk about it and what they have experienced and it was similar to me but I pushed it aside and never talked about it with anyone. I do struggle with “misophonia” and my mom is also aware of that even though she doesn’t believe in it either and that I’m just “misdiagnosing” myself. Well today she randomly says “There’s a video I watched earlier that I think you should see. I think you have autism. I don’t think you have OCD. You were misdiagnosed and it’s your trauma that is making you think you have OCD.” And it really hit me the wrong way and was quite triggering. The things that I have put in my head and all the hate towards myself before I was diagnosed came back because I was starting to second guess myself. I told her you can have OCD and autism at the same time. There’s no way for me to know unless I’m diagnosed and she said you don’t need to be diagnosed you kind of just know or something like that. But it really put it in my head that I’m making the OCD symptoms up and what if I really was diagnosed and it confirms that I’m a “bad” person. Sometimes I wish I never told my mom anything. She has never really shown care or understanding towards how I have been feeling for years. Who knows, maybe I do have autism but I know for a fact I have OCD. I just hate she put it in my head that theres a possibility I’m an imposter and I’m really what my mind tells me I am. If anyone relates to this please reach out. I’m not really asking for reassurance I just don’t know if I should listen to my mom. Yes I’m an adult. I’m 26 and still live at home. Now that she thinks I have autism, is she going to use it against me too? This sucks so much 💔

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