hate_ocd.123
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- 5y
Josh2019Josh2019
- Date posted
- 5y
What you had in the past is real , those feelings you had were real. What’s not real is these irrational fears. Feb this year I didn’t even have a glimpse of this stupid HOCD - just waiting on the arrival of my new son into the world. Then my now then wife split up in June long story and I felt very depressed and I relapsed to HOCD again (even though my last HOCD obsession was 7 years ago). I really hate my brain
Ocdandme123Ocdandme123
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- 5y
I’m so sorry this happened to you. You can overcome it!!!?❤️
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
- Date posted
- 5y
I’m so sorry that happened :( but thank you for your input.
meghanbridgetmeghanbridget
- Date posted
- 5y
it’s because ocd wants to isolate you, so that all you think about are your ticks. feeling like your feelings are fake proves you have feelings bc otherwise why would you feel so horrible thinking you don’t!! sometimes i have to sit down and think about this too.
andrewt_andrewt_
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 5y
OCD can convince people of literally anything at all , and I don’t mean to give you reassurance , but you would know if you faked feelings for him once you started talking to him. But try to just accept that you don’t know , because even if you did , it doesn’t tell you anything about yourself. It would or could have just been that you weren’t interested in him particularly ( just hypothetically speaking , not saying this is how it was for you lol ) . But don’t engage with the fears , if you got over this one right now , it would either come back again or morph into a different worry. That’s why you have to live with the uncertainty as hard as it is in the beginning.
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
- Date posted
- 5y
I know....I was always just so certain about this boy through all this OCD. Like no matter what I was, he was my constant reassurance cause I loved him so much. Then he left, blamed everything on me and my ocd went crazy :/
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