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Come on you guys! You will all get through this! I have HOCD and I'm married and have a beautiful baby girl. I struggle everyday but I'm getting through it too. You can do it! I fear that im a lesbian and just in denial. I notice and have sexual thoughts about women. But I dont want to trade anything for the life I have! Dont let this shit take over keep pushing forward!
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Yes. Cant visualize myself with my bf. Scared to look at pictures of my bf because of the intrusive thoughts. I want to die
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Me too!!
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After I’ve read this post I feel like I am like this guy who thought he had HOCD but turned out to be gay and I am so convinced now I feel like even if this is over I will find a bf then a husband and then I will have kids but I will realise that I am a lesbian and leave them and Its killing me.I just think that the only way is to admit that I am a lesbian or kill myself
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I’m sorry, I feel the same way.
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I feel exactly the same. EXACTLY.
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You will! That's your dream you will do it. Feed that positive, not the negative
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Find the right kind of girl and you will be ok. Someone who accepts you for you. I didn't start to develope until my husband and I first were looking for a place to live 7 years ago. It started as harm ocd. Thinking I would hurt him. Then ROCD and now HOCD. Always about him. Needless to say I think I have commitment issues? but if you find someone who understands you and loves you anyway you will be ok! Relationships aren't perfect just like people aren't perfect. You will hurt eachother from time to time, ( not physically). But talk...about EVERYTHING. That's what works for me and my spouse at least
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Does your husband know about your hocd?
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My husband knows everything. We talk very openly. I try not to dump on him to much or seek reasurrance from him. But he also has the right to know my inner most thoughts. But again that's just what works for our relationship. And no people who are educated on the subject will know who you truely are.
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JS0406 let me say that different. People that understand ocd will not think you are in denial. Try not to seek reasurrance from people that have no education on the subject. From my personal experience, seeking reasurrance from someone that doesn't understand ocd, will end in you probably thinking your thoughts are based on your true feelings
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So I identify as a lesbian and I am in a committed relationship with a wonderful girl. But i’m stressing that I have crushes on boys I go to school with. I get anxious around them, which I think I mistake for excitement. I obsess over it in my head which confuses me a lot. Idk I also never think about them sexually or romantically but I think about them often which is scaring me. Any advice?
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So i started to feel like a lesbian again and that i have to be one. I dont want to be one. I just dont. But being straight feel like a lie now. I question my whole life, my feelings and everything. The biggest indicator of this must be that i will be slowly 21 year old and ive never dated anyone and i dont really find anyone attractive and i dont even know if i truly was attracted to someone and im scared of relationships i might have trauma or have anxious avoidant attachment. Help me. I do feel lost. Really lost. I dont know who am I anymore. I feel like that i must have been gay my whole life now. I feel like an alien. I sometimes feel like 2 people are living inside of me.😞😞😞
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Is anyone here going throughbSOOCD while being in a relationship? If yes, do you feel like “something is missing” even tho everything is great? My OCD keeps on telling me “you’re settling” or “yeah you’re happy with what you have but its nothing compared to what you would be feeling if you were with a girl, but you’re with your bf for society!” Im soo tired!! When I look at him I find him so attractive and handsome but i dont know if im attracted to him or if he’s just attractive!! And while growing up I was never “pulled by guys” but I thought that everyone was this way! I also used to look at girls because I found them Beautiful but I thought that everyone used to look at them this way! I think what truly bothering me is “comphet” and the “lesbian masterdoc”. Like I feel like I can relate to some points! Yes I used to choosw my crushes growing up but it felt like everyone used to do the same thing! As for my current bf, we started out as friend and then it turned into something else but now im scared I just agreed to being his gf because “that’s what I had to do” and im scared that he’s my “beard”. I particularly got triggered yesterday because my friends were talking about their celebrities crush and I couldnt think about anyone without forcing it! Instead I could easily think about kristen stewart or someone with the same vibe. All of this + my feelings must mean something no??? I just want to feel “in love” my bf is perfect!
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