I’m scared that I’d be happier with a girl or I’m meant to be with girls or something. I hate this, I only ever wanted a boyfriend and had feelings for boys. I’d be so jealous when they would be with other girls. What’s going on ..? Anyone else the same?

Come on you guys! You will all get through this! I have HOCD and I'm married and have a beautiful baby girl. I struggle everyday but I'm getting through it too. You can do it! I fear that im a lesbian and just in denial. I notice and have sexual thoughts about women. But I dont want to trade anything for the life I have! Dont let this shit take over keep pushing forward!

Yes. Cant visualize myself with my bf. Scared to look at pictures of my bf because of the intrusive thoughts. I want to die

After I’ve read this post I feel like I am like this guy who thought he had HOCD but turned out to be gay and I am so convinced now I feel like even if this is over I will find a bf then a husband and then I will have kids but I will realise that I am a lesbian and leave them and Its killing me.I just think that the only way is to admit that I am a lesbian or kill myself

You will! That's your dream you will do it. Feed that positive, not the negative

Find the right kind of girl and you will be ok. Someone who accepts you for you. I didn't start to develope until my husband and I first were looking for a place to live 7 years ago. It started as harm ocd. Thinking I would hurt him. Then ROCD and now HOCD. Always about him. Needless to say I think I have commitment issues? but if you find someone who understands you and loves you anyway you will be ok! Relationships aren't perfect just like people aren't perfect. You will hurt eachother from time to time, ( not physically). But talk...about EVERYTHING. That's what works for me and my spouse at least

My husband knows everything. We talk very openly. I try not to dump on him to much or seek reasurrance from him. But he also has the right to know my inner most thoughts. But again that's just what works for our relationship. And no people who are educated on the subject will know who you truely are.

JS0406 let me say that different. People that understand ocd will not think you are in denial. Try not to seek reasurrance from people that have no education on the subject. From my personal experience, seeking reasurrance from someone that doesn't understand ocd, will end in you probably thinking your thoughts are based on your true feelings