- Date posted
- Yesterday
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I hate when my daughter tries to hug me. I try to avoid it if I can but I had an episode where I couldn't. She was coming in for a hug and I tried to stay still. I had a thought come up that if I turned a certain way she'd brush my bottom with her hand when she hugged me. I contemplated not doing it and then I felt like I wanted to do it and turned my body. When she hugged me, her hand did brush my bottom and I panicked after she hugged me. I feel so much guilt for this. Why did I feel like I wanted to do this and let it happen? I have POCD, but this is just too scary to understand What I'm scared about is I felt the desire to move that way to make it happen in the moment. I recall feeling some sort of desire. But it would've never happened if the intrusive thought to move that way wouldn't have entered my mind first.