I think I felt it but idk if I did cus idk what it feels like. It felt like nothing in my house was mine. Looking at pics of me and her it looked like I was looking at someone else. It’s like I’m forgetting my self and things that are related to me. Am I manking it up or not. Can someone help please. OCD is rlly draining.
Unfortunately I believe what you’re doing is a checking compulsion. You’re looking at objects in your home to see how they feel. Looking at pics to see if you recognize things. And the more you do that, the less certain you become. The more you will need to check. And the less reassuring the answers will feel. You’re not making anything up. Ocd gives us real symptoms of our fears. And compulsions fuel it. Do your best to start resisting these compulsions. If you notice feeling far away or not connected, acknowledge the feeling but don’t explore it. Don’t check it against other things. Just let the feeling be there and move on with your day. The more you can normalize these intrusions (which is what they are), and shrug them off best you can without seeking reassurance or certainty, the more your ocd will let up.
I dealt with this hardcore. Imfor me however it was when I was going through physchosis that was due to trauma not OCD but my OCD fed off of it once it was happening. In fact I didn't get my driver license till I was twenty five because I was having visual hallucinations and I felt like I was floating outside of myself. I felt like I was in this bubble that everyone else was inside of and I was watching my life but not living it because I was so detached from myself and my surroundings. The good news is, is that I have mild periods of dp and dr without the hallucinations now I no longer am going through psychosis. What has helped for me is grounding techniques, I put a glass stone in my freezer I have two in there to alternate to help ground myself, I do breathing exercises, and I bring myself to the present with what can you see touch hear taste and or smell? Exposure therapy helped a lot and finding hobbies to help my brain relax for me it was making sculptures at the time helped to keep me grounded in reality. When OCD would hop onboard with my psychosis it was in what if questions that were about delusions and when I got overwhelmed from it I would feel like I was outside my body again so I took the usual erp route and did exposures around it and it helped a lot. Dp and dr Alot of times will go away at some point maybe with flareups maybe not depends on you specifically, I know it feels bad but I've recovered from it and if your going through it make sure to bring it up to your therapist. I was worried my therapist was gonna think I was crazy but she helped me realize that more people go through it than you'd think and they also recover.
Hey these sensations are because of the constant anxiety, intrusive thoughts, and stress. It doesn’t mean you’re losing your mind, and it doesn’t mean you’re making it up, I've felt detached from the world and things around me felt unreal, distant and off. But after while when I started to meditate it went away for me, there's a song called telescope by cage the elephant, everytime I have an ocd attack the song comforts me because everything in the song feels like talking about ocd
I’m trying so hard to feel normal again but i cant i keep feeling like im being dramatic and that my symptoms aren’t real and im tricking everyone, even on here i feel like im tricking you all into believing i have OCD when i don’t. Plus all these other types thoughts im having all meshing together its so overwhelming and i dont know what to do. My therapist appointment isnt until next week and idek what shes gonna tell me or if she’ll even think i have OCD. i keep thinking about my other posts on here and wondering if i even meant what i said in them. this is the worst ive ever felt i think i might even be going through depersonalization or derealization but im not even sure about that i dont even know anything about what im really going through cause ive never been given any kind of formal diagnosis its only ever been depression and social anxiety but ive always had a feeling it was more but i keep doubting myself. maybe if anyone wants to look at some of my other posts and tell me what u think in general? or would that be reassurance seeking? i feel like most of my posts might be but im not sure.. IM NOT SURE ABOUT ANYTHING! this is so annoying
i’ve unfortunately fallen into the cycle of trying to figure out my thoughts and find answers as to why i feel so distressed. this still pertains to the situation regarding changing my room for those reading who have seen my multiple posts over the last few days. i’ve been so distressed and in so much panic about it. i’m also panicking over my other room looking so different from when i left it. it’s been making me feel crazy because to me there’s no reason for my anxiety to latch so hard onto something that seems so minuscule. i was thinking i was having anxiety over change, but it’s like symptoms of ocd too that’s making it really hard for me to let go. SO i started thinking maybe it was perfectionism ocd? i’ve realized over time that i do compulsions to where things have to feel “just right”, but i also do that with any environment i’m in. like it HAS to feel cozy to me and provide me comfort in order for me to feel at ease. and this change is causing me to panic because there’s something wrong that i can’t find an answer to. maybe the different colored carpet? but it’s also more than that it feels like. however, now it’s spreading into other areas of my house where i’ve always been fine in and possibly to just any area i’m in at all. hence why it’s making me feel crazy because there’s no reason for me to be THIS distressed over that as i’ve never really had this problem before. and when i did it would last maybe an hour to a couple of days at most, but this has been going for over 2 weeks with my really bad anxiety being this week. i’m doing a little better, but it’s still hard when i can feel that panic waiting for me to acknowledge and just engulf me in the ocd cycle. i’m also analyzing basically any feeling i have so i just feel off in general and like i’m going insane. i’ve been so hyper focused on how i feel and that will send me spiraling too. multiple themes then start coming in like existential ocd and fear of solipsism. not to mention my harm and contamination ocd that just adds on when i’m this vulnerable. then i worry if no one is real, then no one feels the way i do. or just in general that what if no one feels the way i do. honestly, i think being out of college and in my house with nothing to do is causing me too much time with my thoughts. which is why i’m so distressed about everything that pops into my brain.
I have had ocd in my relationship for a while now. When I originally met him it was like this insane spiritual soulmate feeling and we just clicked instantly and he never judged me. I’m scared cause when I picture breaking up with my boyfriend I see myself being ok and being sad but moving on which I never was able to see before doesn’t this mean that this is what would happen or I don’t know till it happens? I still can’t imagine what life would be like without him but I just feel like I have lost feelings that I never wanted to lose. plus that’s also when I just picture knowing how people move on and how I’d just have to move on without letting myself picture processing the losses of all. I’m just really scared cause I used to think of wanting other things in someone else and what it would be like but I just thought how nice it would be to have it and not actually meaning it bc every time I thought about it I got upset and now it feels diff. He knows I have ocd but I never explained the ROCD because I thought it would have offended him so every time I went through a flare up I never told and acted like I was fine and it kept happening and OCD kept getting worse and worse. Maybe that’s part of the issue cause I haven’t been feeling like myself. But this is a feeling I never wanted to feel ever with him. I have gone through the feeling of numb but not like this. And he has a lot of positives but I can only see him overall as negatives and I’ve been told that’s ocd but it’s affecting how I feel. And yes there are legit actual things in the relationship that upset me but ocd has been affecting the way I look at him also. I keep being told my judgment is being impaired but this time it rly feels like not. And I’m Scared why don’t memories and things affect me like it used to doesn’t that mean I want this. Has anyone experienced this or is this the end 😭
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