kaysf
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kaysfkaysf
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there’s also a compulsion i can’t stop doing. i’ve noticed whenever i see a pretty girl, i have to realest to myself over and over in my head “she’s pretty” and idk why. but i literally can’t watch a movie or anything without seeing a pretty girl and saying or thinking in my head “she’s pretty” it’s almost like i’m reassuring myself that she’s pretty but it’s normal for me to think that as a straight female. it’s hard to stop because i just think it in my head it’s not something i can physically stop doing
koala12345koala12345
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Hi. Currently I’m struggling with the fear of being attracted to boobs. Whenever I see cleavage I instantly feel really anxious. It’s also hard for me to watch a movie without having intrusive thoughts about the girl or wondering if I’m attracted to her. It’s exhausting.
kaysfkaysf
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also, imy hocd has gotten better l, well rather i’ve learned to better manage it. because it used to be so bad i didn’t wanna do anything but lay in bed all day and worry about it. but now it’s not as bad, and i’m terrified that i’m gonna get a backdoor spike and it’s gonna come back worse than before.
AnonymousAnonymous
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I don’t know if this is true for you, but I obsess over when and why I’m getting turned on. I have been turned on by like boobs in the past, but it felt more like the sexiness/attraction for men that turned me on, like I objectified her like I would want a man to do to me. This shit has been the worst to get over. How can you argue with your own body?
hateocd123hateocd123
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Same
kaysfkaysf
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yea i get what you mean. stuff like that only bothers me sometimes. i’ve noticed that i randomly get groinal responses but mine are more like muscle contractions down there. and i’ve also noticed i always see a woman who’s pretty or anything im like omg omg i’m gonna get a groinal response i know it’s coming and then it does. so what freaks me out is when i don’t expect it and it still comes
EsosaEsosa
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You just explained me in a nutshell. I even turn myself on with my own boobs too
AnonymousAnonymous
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@Esosa Girl I feel you!!! This is the worst
EsosaEsosa
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@nervousanchovy99 It used to not bother me because I just wanted bigger boobs growing up. But now it’s like “was I into boobs?” Not exactly. But it’s like what you said, you were more attracted to the male’s response and how you want them to view you rather than the boobs itself.
AnonymousAnonymous
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@Esosa Yes!! Growing up I was very fascinated by naked women and such because I wanted to be like the sexy girl all the men wanted. Even now, I’ll get turned on by lingerie bc I want to wear it and be sexy to men
AnonymousAnonymous
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@nervousanchovy99 Even now, I’m turned on by being like exploited by a man so I think that’s where this all ties in. Like I want to be a sex object
EsosaEsosa
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@nervousanchovy99 In a way, me too
AnonymousAnonymous
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@Esosa All I know for sure is none of us would be suffering like this if we were in denial. You don’t cry constantly and hate seeing men and women if you’re exploring your sexuality. It attacks us where we are the most weak, but i feel better knowing others are dealing with this too
kaysfkaysf
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anyone else having issues with sexual attraction?
kaysfkaysf
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like you’re not sexually attracted to (for me it’s men) anymore because of your hocd
koala12345koala12345
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@kaysf Yep that happens!
koala12345koala12345
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@kaysf But you have to realise it’s not real. If you have always been sexually attracted to men then you will still be attracted to them. It’s just the ocd messing with your head. Stop checking yourself or testing yourself
AnonymousAnonymous
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I would love to know too
kaysfkaysf
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