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@Fcukocd Definitely! It’s one of the things I always look out for and still check occasionally. But right now, the nausea and throat things are my worst enemies

@Fcukocd Well mainly I panic especially when that first started last year. Like I’d literally check it even in the bus to see if I did (see how bad it was). Nowadays, I still do panic and at times I engage in compulsions. But I try to confide in my girlfriend or I do deep breathing and grounding techniques

@Fcukocd That’s what happened between me and my gf too, it takes a lot of effort and communication to reach a level of mutual understanding. Do you still have the throat tightness thing?

@Fcukocd aight we the same bro. u wanna join the server i created?

@Fcukocd yeah sure

@Fcukocd Not really penile retraction but rather it takes longer for me to be erect compared to before. But hey, every experience is different.

@Fcukocd Yeah stress could do a lot of things to our bodies. Do you still have the throat tightness thing and nausea? It’s being a very big pain for me every single day, I got over it before but it always comes back

@Fcukocd Yep. Also experienced this

@Fcukocd yeah it is

@Fcukocd my throat tightens whenever i’m not doing anything or when i’m doing anything. it’s like the more i focus on it, the more it tightens. And it gets more prominent when im near family, other people and even my gf. do you also get thoughts like “what if i’m lying? what if i’m using ocd as an excuse? what if i acted a particular way and other people might see me differently than what i know? what if im in denial?” do you have these thoughts too? really need your help too bro. its driving me crazy

@Fcukocd yeah same. do you also get anxious when thinking about the your preferred sex?

@Fcukocd bro same. like its sucks. as i was heading out to eat earlier a thought popped up and i was going crazy, i kept repeating my phrases to make it go away

@Fcukocd yeah i did. it sucks

@Fcukocd yes i have this too

@Fcukocd it sucks cause before when this started, my feelings and love feels strong (it still is) and i was confident in who i was. but now ocd distorts that and made me incapacitated

@Fcukocd yeah, i hate that ocd makes us anxious to what we love

@Fcukocd I on the other hand got one cause of a stupid dream

@Fcukocd bro that is true as fuck. like when me and my gf are intimate i always had to ask if its up

@Fcukocd same

@Fcukocd yeah, i’ve had it too. have you ever had tightness of throat when you’re with your partner or when you’re intimate with her? i’d really appreciate your reply. i’m spiraling

@Fcukocd damn that sucks

@Fcukocd Have you ever had tightness of throat when you’re with your partner or when you’re intimate with her? i’d really appreciate your reply. i’m spiraling

@Fcukocd thank you. god i hate this

@Fcukocd thanks!

@Fcukocd congrats on your kid! try to spend time with your family

@Fcukocd bro sorry for messaging again. this is just soocd right? the throat thing is driving me crazy

@Fcukocd sorry bro, this is driving me insane

@Fcukocd Yeah. Sometimes its in a form of twitches when doing the m*******tion. Do you have them too?

@Fcukocd Pretty much the same for me too. Sometimes its the beginning of an erection, sometimes an actual erection. Same for you?

@Fcukocd Yeah I know what you mean. Regardless it’s all ocd. The fact that when it does occur and we actually don’t like means that we have insight that its an so ocd reaction. The groinals I get from OCD are very different from the arousal i get from my gf, when it’s with her it’s pleasurable and I’d like it to be held by her but groinals from OCD, you can immediately tell the distress.(As I was writing this, the intrusive thoughts appeared)

@Fcukocd I see I see. We’ll its something we all experience. Sometimes it’s similar sometimes it’s different. Regardless, OCD has it’s own way of getting to our heads

@Fcukocd Do you feel anxious whenever you get intimate with your partner?

@Fcukocd I see. It’s normal. It’ll get better.

@Fcukocd I see. I get anxious too, well even before SOOCD and ROCD started.I had performance anxiety and felt that I couldn’t satisfy my gf. But now, I’m in my head whenever we’re intimate. Sometimes I’m not anxious and sometimes I am.

@Fcukocd Yeah it sucks. Do you still get triggered by certain words and spellings, or even symbols like the pride flag or anything related to our theme. Cause I do.

@Fcukocd Same. It sucks really, even when I’m forced to talk with the trigger people, I can’t look at them and sometimes I don’t feel anxiety and sometimes I do. Which drives me even more crazy. Also, do you get anxious whenever you unwillingly look at the same gender or like mistake the trigger people as females? Then thoughts start to rush in

@Fcukocd Yeah I wouldn’t this on my worst enemy too. Damn the throat tightness is really getting to me. Sorry it I keep bringing this up.

@Fcukocd Yeah. How long have you this? If you don’t mind me asking

@Fcukocd I see. Since you were 16 you only had the same theme?

@Fcukocd I see I see. When did you find out you had OCD?

@Fcukocd oh yeah, i understand this a lot

@Fcukocd do you at times question whether its ocd or not?

@Fcukocd This one ?

@Fcukocd I’m sorry I promise i tried but if you ever want to talk to somone feel free to talk to me !

@Fcukocd Yeah, same. This is just so-ocd right? it’s driving me insane again, sorry

@Fcukocd Okay. Thanks. I aspire to have what you guys have, a kid. Me and my gf are gonna try for one after 5 years

@Fcukocd Happy for you dude! That’s all I ever want with my gf. To marry her and have a family with her (I hate how I’m trying to write a positive sentence then intrusive thoughts pop in)

@Fcukocd Yeah I get the sudden intrusions too. As I was reading this an intrusive thought popped in my head and said “You’re lying” which made me stop for a second and my anxiety spiked. Now the sensations also start to appear the throat thing n stuff. Try to read what I said in your post, I’d often say that the things I experience are symptoms of anxiety and OCD

@Fcukocd I feel so incapacitated lately. I should be studying for my nursing board exams but I’m too preoccupied with this. I just got an intrusive thought pertaining to this conversation. It said “I’m enjoying the conversation, that must mean the thoughts are true”

@Fcukocd It’s pretty rare to have a good conversation regarding OCD and when you do enjoy it, it strikes back. Like I was talking to a friend who I met online due to OCD and we struggle the same theme. I enjoy talking with her cause we relate to one another. Then my OCD straight up tells me “You’re enjoying this which means you like her more than you gf, therefore I should be with her” or “I’m cheating because I enjoy talking with her” and that sucks

@Fcukocd Yeah.

@Fcukocd Do you repeat certain phrases or do self reassurance to quell the anxiety?

@Fcukocd Just trying to distract myself and I messaged my girlfriend. This is just so-ocd, sorrry if it this is reassurance. I just need it

@Fcukocd Thanks bro

@Fcukocd Yup. There’s a video by Chrissie Hodges that perfectly explains the OCD manifestations. There will be times where there are no intrusive thoughts but rather the emergence of other intrusions such as sensations, feelings, urges, images or dreams. There will also be times where you might not feel any anxiety at all but rather it manifests as other forms of distress, sadness, guilt, doubt, shame and even anger. So if you don’t feel anxiety at times, it’s normal for OCD. You just have to recognize the other manifestations.

@Fcukocd hey it’s normal bro. that’s just how ocd is. it turns you against your values and the things you care for.

@Fcukocd It’s okay man (me having intrusive thoughts rn). i understand and lately i have those breaking points too. try to shift your attention to your wife and your baby, perhaps it’ ll help you let loose.

@Fcukocd Try to do breathing techniques man as well as grounding techniques, it help you calm down

@Fcukocd i don’t know how to help this person on reddit, she’s convinced that she’s her thoughts

@Fcukocd right here with you man

@Fcukocd help. i just got a groinal from a video. i hate this. i was just gonna watch a video then a dude popped up, i thoughts it was only gonna be a lady

@Fcukocd this sucks.. i keep repeating my phrases now

@Fcukocd felt like a tingle and a start of an erection

@Fcukocd after. like i paused when i saw the dude first then clicked off then had anxiety after

@Fcukocd yeah. I had to repeat my phrases non stop. i hate it. this is just soocd

@Fcukocd Yup. But as soon as I wake up, I can already feel the distress.

@Fcukocd I just finished a call with my gf. Didn’t feel anxious all the time, but when it was time for us to sleep, i can feel the sensations and anxiety creeping in because i noticed my head was hurting which caused my throat to tighten. i hate this. the sensations and throat tightness. this is just so ocd

@Fcukocd thanks bro!

@Fcukocd How are you bro? My mind is oddly quiet rn a few intrusive thoughts here and there. But I can still feel the sensations. I hate this, do you have times like this too? Can’t stop ruminating and spiraling about it. Badly need your help man

@Fcukocd It’s so bad dude

@Fcukocd Yeah I understand how you feel. Been so triggered here seeing some posts too, then the intrusive thoughts came back in and then the throat things. it feels so exhausting man

@Fcukocd it’s okay bro! enjoy your time with your time with your family, i’d do the same if i was in your position

@Fcukocd Haven’t. I get woken up by intrusive ocd dreams though that would cause a lot of distress. Have you ever had days where there were little to no thoughts, but you still feel the faint anxiety, distress, sensations and triggers? it’s been driving me crazy the whole day

@Fcukocd I see I see. It’s still just ocd, no matter how it presents itself

@Fcukocd Yeah, I understand bro that it’s horrible. Try to dismiss it as a symptom of OCD. I’m having really bad triggers and intrusive thoughts too

@Fcukocd Yeah I felt that too before. Sometimes its a twitch or a tingle

@Fcukocd Yeah same. I was spiraling earlier due to triggers. I wanted to cry cause of how strong it felt and how distressing it was

@Fcukocd try breathing techniques dude, it may help you out

@Fcukocd okay bro

@Fcukocd same here bro. the throat things, the thoughts and triggers are too much

@Fcukocd that’s anxiety response. i’m having one as well rn as i’m doing my board exam review cause of rumination. it definitely sends me into spirals

@Fcukocd I understand how you feel. It’s made me cry multiple times and it almost made me cry earlier this day cause of how bad it was

@Fcukocd I’m sorry to hear that bro. OCD can be incredibly difficult especially when you’re trying to enjoy the good times. I’ve had that happen to me whenever I want to enjoy a moment with my gf. It becomes too much that I just shutdown and cry or be depressed about it

@Fcukocd yeah me too bro. stay strong man, it’s difficult but try to focus your attention on your daughter

@Fcukocd you can so this man! you’re not alone!

@Fcukocd It is man. It’s OCD. All the things we feel, the sensations, the feelings, the urges and the thoughts, they’re all just OCD

@Fcukocd It is bro. Don’t let OCD warp your perspective

@Fcukocd Yeah I get what you mean. You can do this man

@Fcukocd how are you now bro. I’m watching a podcast and an intrusive thought suddenly appeared. i hate it and its making me spiral

@Fcukocd yeah. this is just ocd. fuck this disorder. i hate it. i just want to enjoy what im doing and then suddenly intrusive thoughts pop up

@Fcukocd god i hate this. this is just soocd, i’ve calmed down now for a bit. had to repeat some phrases.

@Fcukocd yeah same. my gf is busy rn, i wish i could call her

@Fcukocd this is just so ocd. i’m ruminating again.

@Fcukocd okay. thank you

@Fcukocd man. i hate this ocd shit. i keep anticipating whether the sensation will come back. i hate this.

@Fcukocd i hate this.

@Fcukocd i’m spiraling man. god i hate this

@Fcukocd hope you’re doing alright there man. this is just so ocd

@Fcukocd okay man, glad to know you’re doing alright

@Fcukocd yep, just for 30 mins tho cause we have to get up early later for a review session

@Fcukocd Yeah I get that too man. I just got an intrusive ocd dream and woke up with groinals and what’s even worse it’s like i have little to no anxiety. it’s making me ruminate and sending me to a spiral

@Fcukocd damn i hate this.

@Fcukocd Thanks man. i hope you’re doing okay

@Fcukocd i’m going crazy man. it’s so bad. i got intrusive dreams again

yeah i understand this. do you also get the feeling that you’re lying or in denial? i hate that feeling man. it’s driving me crazy cause i have less anxiety today hut everything still exists. it’s making me spiral. i just want to end everything man. i hate it

@Fcukocd i hate it too, all of it. whenever the mind is quiet, its still so distressing, no anxiety? still distressing, everything about it is bad

@Fcukocd yeah i hate this. the throat thing and the nausea. god i hate then and the groinals and urges and especially the dreams and images

@Fcukocd i get that too man. it sucks, like really sucks

@Fcukocd yeah, i understand that. i just want to enjoy my life with my gf, marry her and have a family with her like i always did. this stupid disorder is ruining everything

@Fcukocd Me too man. I was m (still is) happy that me and my gf became official two years ago, because i courted her for like 11 months. and then when we were going well, the next year this happened out of nowhere.

@Fcukocd yeah i hate it. i think mine got triggered because of my cousins. found them attractive in an aesthetic sense but then the intrusive thoughts distorted. now my ocd is using it against me and i hate it. this is just so-ocd.

@Fcukocd yeah exactly. now i’m actually scared because of that.

@Fcukocd thank you man. god i hate this. the thoughts they’re noisy again and i can’t stop repeating the phrases

@Fcukocd yeah, its like my mind tells me im lying or that i don’t love her. where in fact i really do love her and i’m scared to lose her

@Fcukocd yeah same man. this thing distorted a lot of things of us.

@Fcukocd yeah. i fucking hate this. it feels too strong and “real” even tho it isn’t

@Fcukocd yeah that sucks man. i’m finding it difficult to sleep again. i just use the time to distract myself, even while i’m doing that, my brain is still noisy

@Fcukocd same here. i feel so incapacitated every. my ocd is worse during the day tho

@Fcukocd I see. That’s horrible man. This disorder is horrible

@Fcukocd yeah same here bro…i’d rather experience the most difficult times before rather struggle with this disorder cause this costed me everything and made me do shit that is traumatic

@Fcukocd yeah man. it sucks and people just keep making jokes about it.

@Fcukocd yeah it actually infuriates me.

@Fcukocd yeah man. people don’t seem to care that much and they get mad when they’re corrected

@Fcukocd thanks man. how are you bro

@Fcukocd the throat thing and the groinals too, triggered by some adult videos

@Fcukocd bro the throat sensations i hate it

@Fcukocd yeah fuck this bro. i’m having a call with my gf rn and this shit showed up

@Fcukocd yes thanks man. take care and congrats on ur fam too!

@Fcukocd how are you man

@Fcukocd damn i hope you get through it. i still have the throat sensation but rn i’m worried about not worrying? do you get that too?

@Fcukocd try those yeah. but mostly is just the somatic portion of ocd. yours is salivation and throat thing and mine is throat thing. so yeah again, its just a symptom of the disorder.

@Fcukocd yeah that sucks. i had that for a bit when my SOOCD started. it targeted my little cousin.

@Fcukocd damn that’s brutal

@Fcukocd yeah that’s understandable. damn i really hate this throat sensation thing

@Fcukocd me too

@Fcukocd yeah, its like burning

@Fcukocd its just anxiety man

@Fcukocd o yeah i see what you mean, i get those too

@Fcukocd It’s anxiety man. I get those too. Do you get anxious when you’re with your partner?

@Fcukocd same here man

@Fcukocd yeah. bro has this happened to you like you have little anxiety and not really thinking of it as much? god i’m spiraling cause of it

@Fcukocd I see. I’m like having a quiet mind rn and saw some posts that triggered me. Now i’m scared cause my brain tells me im lying about the whole thing. i dont want the thoughts to be true man. i just want to do life with my gf and marry her like i’ve always wanted ever since i met her. now i’m stuck ruminating and analyzing everything

@Fcukocd thanks man. this is just so-ocd. god i hate this, been ruminating for the past hour

@unkindledhishiron it’s so bad today. i’ve been doing too much forum searching.

@Fcukocd same here. its the stupid nausea and throat thing. i still hate the thoughts and images, it was about to make me cry earlier. but damn the sensations are the killer

@Fcukocd yeah man it sucks. i’m having one again. stupid throat thing n nausea

@Fcukocd How are you man? my mind is eerily quiet rn and its making me worry. do you get this too?

@Fcukocd hope you’re doing well there man. i started ruminating again cause of how quiet it is and the sensations showing up again as well as few thoughts. this is just soocd

@Fcukocd damn man that sucks. i got one as well earlier. now my mind is quiet and its driving me insane and making me worried

@Fcukocd yeah try not to do that. does your mind get quiet too at times? then you get scared afterwards or you star to worry?

@Fcukocd i see i see. mine was like flaring up in the morning then as the day went on, it was like in the back of my mind. a few thoughts here and there. now its starting to scare me why it was quiet. i’m like spiraling rn

@Fcukocd okay. i’ll try. when your mind is quiet and you don’t have anxiety, do you still feel the sensations?

@Fcukocd i don’t know what to do. it feels quiet and i’m scared that i’m faking it

@Fcukocd that’s just ocd man. i got one earlier as well

@Fcukocd That gets me a lot too.

@Fcukocd damn i’m stuck in a rabbit hole now. looking up if there are other people who experience the symptoms but don’t feel anxiety or thoughts. the intrusive thoughts and anxiety peaked earlier this day. And it lessened and lessened, and while i was playing, i got a thought that why wasn’t i having any thoughts or why wasn’t i worried. it scared me man. this is just ocd, right? i’m sorry i keep asking the same thing over and over again. i’m losing my mind

@Fcukocd man i’m so scared. i hate this feeling.

@Fcukocd i’m really scared rn that i actually want to cry. i’m googling stuff and looking at forums, this is still ocd right? fuck this i hate it so much

@Fcukocd can’t help it man. i’m spiraling

@Fcukocd yeah i hate it.

@Fcukocd im ruminating why everything is quiet today despite feeling everything

@Fcukocd okay bro. thanks for that. i hate this

@Fcukocd which dream bro

@Fcukocd oh i did that once, triggered the fuck out of me. never did it again. but im using it rn for meta ocd and i’ll admit it does trigger me at times

@Fcukocd i mostly get my reassurance from my gf, from my sisters and from myself cause i repeat certain phrases and remind myself that its just ocd

@Fcukocd I see. Try to stay away from it. One wrong phrasing and you could end up triggering yourself

@Fcukocd how are you man

@Fcukocd the thoughts and sensations are creeping back in but im trying to enjoy my time with my gf. still ruminating tho every now and then

@Fcukocd yeah it does. thanks man!

@Fcukocd having it really bad bro rn. having all sorts of sensations again and i’m stuck ruminating and searching and reading forms which triggered me

@Fcukocd that sucks man. that happens to me as well.

@Fcukocd I see. Well yeah, OCD likes to distort things. I can’t handle the throat things man, I get them all the time. I’ve gotten through this before but its come back again. Plus the quietness, I hate it man

@Fcukocd Damn man. I’m having the intrusive dreams and it feels like i’m having groinals to it. i’m stuck in the rabbit hole now, i’m using ai to reassure myself

@Fcukocd Nope man. Just intense twitching and pulses in my groin. I’m cycling between distress and relief rn, not being able to search drives me crazy

@unkindledhishiron It’s quiet again man. Earlier I was down the rabbit hole now its quiet. i’m worried that it’s quiet man

@unkindledhishiron I got an unwanted groinal from an adult video man. just wanted to enjoy and relieve some stress but instead i got that

@Fcukocd bro its so bad. i got a groinal from my grandfather

@Fcukocd thanks bro. been having some thoughts too and i’ve been using chat gpt for reassurance. there some thoughts here and there but mostly sensations and i hate it

@Fcukocd bro i still get anxious and groinals whenever there’s the male genitalia. i hate it, it scares me. this is just so ocd

@Fcukocd this sucks man. my ocd is quiet today, do you have those days too where its like absent but it feels wrong

@Fcukocd same here man. i hate this

@Fcukocd I get that too. But it doesn’t last that long and I get to into it with my gf

@Fcukocd yeah and sometimes there’s anxiety and sometimes there’s not but i feel scared which is my distress response

@Fcukocd i’m having intrusive thoughts and rn about my friend and my sister’s courter, i hate this. this is just so-ocd

@Fcukocd okay. thanks man

@Fcukocd Not really. When I do feel aroused and when I’m intimate with her, it doesn’t remind me of groinal responses. I just enjoy the moment with her cause we don’t get to do it much often than most couples do. However, there are intrusive thoughts and images that are the ones causing distress during those times.