soul1111
- Date posted
- 6y
WorriedDriverWorriedDriver
- Date posted
- 6y
The good news is this- you likely know you have OCD because you are on this app. It sounds like your intrusive thoughts have morphed and decided to focus on your son. Intrusive thoughts tend to attack things we highly value, so we know you deeply care about and value your son. If you are not familiar with it, you should look up Harm OCD. Try not to react to this thought because it’s just a randomly generated thought floating through your consciousness and it’s content says nothing about you or your desires. Everyone has weird thoughts from time to time. Do not buy OCD’s lies that this is significant or meaningful.
WisebloodWiseblood
- Date posted
- 6y
I know you are in a crisis and not in therapy so I am going to offer some reassurance. There are hundreds of thousands of people like you with OCD about hurting their loved ones who do not hurt their loved ones. OCD thoughts are “ego dystonic” - they do not reflect who you truly are. Some steps to take: Buy and read a self help book, like “Overcoming Unwanted Intrusive Thoughts” or “The Mindfulness Workbook for OCD.” If you are in the USA, google “find an ocd therapist” The first link should be to the International OCD Foundation, which lets you search for OCD therapists who deal with your type of OCD every day. It is a good idea to seek professional help, even if it is just a book, instead of seeking reassurance. You can beat this disorder.
soul1111soul1111
- Date posted
- 6y
Does this mean that i won’t actually harm my child? I’m so terrified. Can I even find a therapist for this? I don’t want my children taken away from me if I try to seek help! ? I’m so terrified
kmn1999kmn1999
- Date posted
- 6y
They won’t take your children away - it doesn’t seem like this, but you don’t want intrusive thoughts, and deep down you know that. You know that you would never want to harm your kid, but the little voice at the back of your head screams “what if you did??” And even though you’re thinking “i would never”, that tiny tiny part of your brain is still there, and it can be really terrifying sometimes, but you have to seek help from a therapist that deals with this, and just remember, they’re intrusive thoughts that you know you don’t want to act in
soul1111soul1111
- Date posted
- 6y
I’m very new to all of these OCD feelings. They only started 4 months ago and now I’m terrified. I have so many racing thoughts I can’t even keep track and now the past 2 days thoughts of hurting my children!?? I’ve been reading about ocd and everything says that people with ocd are the last people who would ever hurt someone because the thought of it scares them and makes them disgusted. Is this true? I never want to hurt my children!
WorriedDriverWorriedDriver
- Date posted
- 6y
Did you only recently have a baby? If so, You may have postpartum OCD. You probably would benefit from starting some anxiety medication. You do not have to tell your doctor the full extent of your worries but can tell them you are having excessive worry every day. I would also strongly suggest listening to the OCD Stories Podcast and Chrissie Hodges YouTube channel
soul1111soul1111
- Date posted
- 6y
Hello, thank you but no. My children are 4 and 2?This only recently started a couple days ago. I’ve had ocd for a while but this is new
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Anony1314
- Date posted
- 25w
A VERY distressed mom. Someone anyone help!
Please comment. Just say if follows along the OCD pattern or not. I don't need reassurance per se! My daughter was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt/a**aulted her that I might as well do something else to hurt because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it because my mind told me I had hurt her already ("my mind literally made me question what to do and I guess the only thing I could come up with was using my elbow) and causing another feeling but it came across my mind to elbow her, and I elbowed her crotch or side/thigh area. Which caused another very unwanted groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out. And I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be hers anymore. Idk what overcame me but my therapist says it's all OCD. I was doing SO well! Is this really OCD? This has all caused me a great amount of anxiety. I feel like a terrible person and mom. I just need help knowing if this is OCD. Not wanting reassurance. Just wanting to know if this lines up with the POCD I've been diagnosed with by my current therapist.
Anony1314
- Date posted
- 21w
Same mom. Same issue.
TW- POCD people only please. Am I a criminal hiding behind a diagnosis? I woke up in the middle of the night breathing and I was having groinals because she laying across me. My mind told me I had already hurt her so might as well do something else. I then was like well I have nothing to lose and I had to think of what to do. The only thing I could think to do was move my elbow towards her groin area to cause a feeling. Well I did that and my elbow touched her groin and caused an unwanted feeling. I then immediately asked my child to move. After that, I went back to sleep but I believe in a state of shock as to what happened. I woke up panicking completely thinking I have done ruined my life. I was going to prison and would lose my child. Since then, I haven't stopped ruminating. I have had days where I feel okay, but then there are days where I can't stop crying. Thinking I don't deserve my child, and I deserve to be in the ground. I was on a new medication that was causing me to spiral and giving me insomnia during this time. I wasn't getting much sleep at all. Since then, I've slept on the floor, and I eventually got my child to sleep in their own bed to avoid this happening again. I got off the medication and feel so much better with my thoughts and sleeping so much better. My daughter tells me how wonderful I am often, but I don't feel that I even deserve to celebrate Mother's Day this year. I'm not a good mom. I was four months ago before I spiraled. What's wrong with me? (edited)
Anony1314
- Date posted
- 18w
Someone help me please
Please help me. I need support. I just need someone to be up front with me. Tell me the truth. I want to get past it all. I'm struggling STRUGGLING today. My mind is telling me I'm the only one who is dealing with something like this. Idk why I did my biggest fear. I was put on a new medication when this happened which caused me to spiral, my thoughts to be more often, and have insomnia. I have been diagnosed with POCD as well. I woke up in the middle of the night when my child was laying completely cross my chest. I was breathing and having groinal sensations. My mind told me that I assaulted her by this, and I was going to prison for it. My thoughts started going like this, "you're already bad might as well do something else", "no sense in stopping now" "you can finally do what you've always wanted", "what would you do if you could do anything to cause harm" So I had to think of what to do in the moment. The only thing I could think to do was move my elbow towards my child's groin. In the moment it felt like I really wanted to do this. I proceeded to do so, and my elbow touched her groin. I immediately told my child to move off me. I then went back to sleep. When I woke up, I began panicking, confessing to a family member what happened, and crying immensely. I feel like I failed as a mother. I'm in such distress since I started sleeping on the floor to avoid it from happening again, and I got off the medication. I'm so much better OCD wise since I got off the meds. I was the BEST mom months ago before this happened. The thoughts have always bothered me, and I was always scared I would give in and act on them. I'm living my worst nightmare. I feel alone. Felt so wanted in the moment and SO real. Ugh. Could someone just give me some support? (edited)
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