soul1111
- Date posted
- 6y
WorriedDriverWorriedDriver
- Date posted
- 6y
The good news is this- you likely know you have OCD because you are on this app. It sounds like your intrusive thoughts have morphed and decided to focus on your son. Intrusive thoughts tend to attack things we highly value, so we know you deeply care about and value your son. If you are not familiar with it, you should look up Harm OCD. Try not to react to this thought because it’s just a randomly generated thought floating through your consciousness and it’s content says nothing about you or your desires. Everyone has weird thoughts from time to time. Do not buy OCD’s lies that this is significant or meaningful.
WisebloodWiseblood
- Date posted
- 6y
I know you are in a crisis and not in therapy so I am going to offer some reassurance. There are hundreds of thousands of people like you with OCD about hurting their loved ones who do not hurt their loved ones. OCD thoughts are “ego dystonic” - they do not reflect who you truly are. Some steps to take: Buy and read a self help book, like “Overcoming Unwanted Intrusive Thoughts” or “The Mindfulness Workbook for OCD.” If you are in the USA, google “find an ocd therapist” The first link should be to the International OCD Foundation, which lets you search for OCD therapists who deal with your type of OCD every day. It is a good idea to seek professional help, even if it is just a book, instead of seeking reassurance. You can beat this disorder.
soul1111soul1111
- Date posted
- 6y
Does this mean that i won’t actually harm my child? I’m so terrified. Can I even find a therapist for this? I don’t want my children taken away from me if I try to seek help! ? I’m so terrified
kmn1999kmn1999
- Date posted
- 6y
They won’t take your children away - it doesn’t seem like this, but you don’t want intrusive thoughts, and deep down you know that. You know that you would never want to harm your kid, but the little voice at the back of your head screams “what if you did??” And even though you’re thinking “i would never”, that tiny tiny part of your brain is still there, and it can be really terrifying sometimes, but you have to seek help from a therapist that deals with this, and just remember, they’re intrusive thoughts that you know you don’t want to act in
soul1111soul1111
- Date posted
- 6y
I’m very new to all of these OCD feelings. They only started 4 months ago and now I’m terrified. I have so many racing thoughts I can’t even keep track and now the past 2 days thoughts of hurting my children!?? I’ve been reading about ocd and everything says that people with ocd are the last people who would ever hurt someone because the thought of it scares them and makes them disgusted. Is this true? I never want to hurt my children!
WorriedDriverWorriedDriver
- Date posted
- 6y
Did you only recently have a baby? If so, You may have postpartum OCD. You probably would benefit from starting some anxiety medication. You do not have to tell your doctor the full extent of your worries but can tell them you are having excessive worry every day. I would also strongly suggest listening to the OCD Stories Podcast and Chrissie Hodges YouTube channel
soul1111soul1111
- Date posted
- 6y
Hello, thank you but no. My children are 4 and 2?This only recently started a couple days ago. I’ve had ocd for a while but this is new
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Callista Moore
- Date posted
- 25w
What is this?
This might be asking for reassurance but I’m at a point I’m not sure if this is ocd and who better to ask than you guys. Also want to mention I have been to a psychologist who diagnosed me with ocd and I’ve tried to seek therapy through NOCD but had a bad experience so I’m just looking for an opinion I’ll take with a grain of salt. I’ve been through bouts of pocd that I got through but now it’s morphed into something that feels so different. It’s like harm ocd and pocd together and it revolves around my daughter. Before this happened I was a loving mother who valued my kid more than anything. Now this is happening and it feels so sinister. I’m getting urges to do something bad and I get these feelings like I want to do that and it’s like my brain gets foggy and my values slip away and I feel like I could do it. But then I get a moment of clarity and I’m like wait a minute I’ve never hurt anyone in my life nor have I ever thought about it and this is my child what is happening. But then I get that foggy brain again and it’s like I can’t see her as my child. I try to sit with it and it’s like I get this adrenaline rush and feel like I have to do it. But I know I don’t want to do that, but then it’s like trying to make me want to want to. I’m not sure if I’m just lacking insight and clarity because I’m overwhelmed with the groinals, urges, thoughts and feelings but I just keep obsessing over the fact that death is my only way out. I don’t understand what happened to me. It feels like this demonic oppression and I don’t know how to get through this one or if this is still something I can get through because it might not be ocd. I try to go with the thoughts and feelings and say yeah maybe, maybe not, or yeah I’m going to do that but it seems to fuel the feelings. I feel like I’m teetering between the person I was and this evil awful person who has no regard for others. I don’t want to be around my daughter and I’m just angry all the time. The fear and anxiety used to be something I relied on and I feel none of that now. I used to be able to say “well no matter what I feel or think I can control my actions” and now it feels like I cannot control my actions but I’ve never hurt anyone before. Someone please give it to me straight and tell me if you think this might not be ocd.
Anonymous
- Date posted
- 16w
Newbie and mama searching for help
Hey all, This is so strange to share this, and I have been judged by others and misdiagnosed many times. About a year ago I worked with an OCD therapist and it was really triggering. For me my thoughts are mainly about suicidal ocd and harm ocd centered around my children of all things. Fear that I could or would want to hurt them, then feeling so horrible that I believe I’m suicidal then I go back and forth on that. After reading a few of your posts, it makes me truly have a bit of hope that I can overcome this.
Anony1314
- Date posted
- 11w
A VERY distressed mom. Someone anyone help!
Please comment. Just say if follows along the OCD pattern or not. I don't need reassurance per se! My daughter was laying across me and every time I breathed a certain way I was getting a groinal sensation. I kept breathing like that anyways (ugh idk why), and then my mind told me I had hurt/a**aulted her that I might as well do something else to hurt because what's more. So idk why or what overcame me other than the thought of doing it because my mind told me I had hurt her already ("my mind literally made me question what to do and I guess the only thing I could come up with was using my elbow) and causing another feeling but it came across my mind to elbow her, and I elbowed her crotch or side/thigh area. Which caused another very unwanted groinal sensation. Then I began FREAKING smooth out. And I've been stressing since. I feel like as a mom I don't deserve to be hers anymore. Idk what overcame me but my therapist says it's all OCD. I was doing SO well! Is this really OCD? This has all caused me a great amount of anxiety. I feel like a terrible person and mom. I just need help knowing if this is OCD. Not wanting reassurance. Just wanting to know if this lines up with the POCD I've been diagnosed with by my current therapist.
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