I’m at the point now with HOCD that - If I sit back calmly I notice that while the thoughts and feelings, sensations FEEL REAL... That I don’t personally like or want them. Can’t bring myself to like them. Perhaps that is what OCD is really like.

Sexual Orientation OCD

dpveritasgold

Date posted: 6y

I talked to a therapist today, and he was telling me about how the “fight or flight” response in the brain, which is what OCD triggers, has a direct connection to the arousal signal in the brain. So I get “groinal responses” from all sorts of non-sexual things. So just remember that groinal responses don’t have anything to do with your sexuality.

TheBigCahuna

Date posted: 6y

Well possibly also the thoughts and feelings. I think gay and feel gay sometimes but I don’t want it. I do recognize now however that to the brain this feels 100% real.

dpveritasgold

Date posted: 6y

@TheBigCahuna Yep. That’s what makes it so hard. It feels just as real as anything. But for me, I’ve found that the more I recover the less real the thoughts feel.

TheBigCahuna

Date posted: 6y

@dpveritasgold What’s your best strategy been?

dpveritasgold

Date posted: 6y

@TheBigCahuna ERP and depowering the thoughts.

Asnku

Date posted: 6y

Same tbh. Sometimes my head is making me think i like them even i dont. Sucks honestly

TheBigCahuna

Date posted: 6y

Yup. Feels completely real, except for the fact that I don’t want to act on it and it doesn’t REALLY turn me on.

Asnku

Date posted: 6y

@TheBigCahuna Yeah but that’s what hocd does. It’s wanna make me believe something what is not truez

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