Poop Water 💔

I’m still a teenager so I live with my parents but thankfully I have my own bathroom. It’s my safe space because that’s where I spend most of my time cleaning myself and keeping up with my hygiene which is very important to me. Especially my shower because it’s also where I go when I have a panic/anxiety attack and it calms me down. Recently my dog had an accident all over the upstairs carpet (she’s okay, just had a brief stomach bug). My brother was the one who ended up cleaning the mess and he took all of the gross poop water and dumped it down my shower drain. He could have dumped it in the toilet or outside but just chose not to i guess? I was super disturbed upon hearing this and I know it’s super dramatic but I feel like I need to replace everything in my bathroom now. I already have a new shower curtain on the way but I’m fighting the urge to replace everything else (soap, bath mats, bottles, etc) I feel like everything in it is dirty and no amount of cleaning can fix it. Please give me tips on how to deal with this.

Contamination OCD

Anonymous

Date posted: 19h

Hey I also have contamination OCD and have dealt with a similar situation. A couple things I’ve learned from going through therapy that’s helped me in these triggering situations. Is understanding that line between what you need to do for your health and safety (ex. Deep cleaning the shower pan to ensure there is no poo bacteria lol) and also knowing that replacing something like your soap and bath mats is beyond that. I find that can be difficult to get past initially but you have to sit with the discomfort of not replacing those other items and tell yourself ‘it might be have poo bacteria on it but it might not and there is no way for me to know’. This personally helps to stop me from ruminating. Additionally I often ask myself ‘is it dangerous or just disgusting’ because if it’s the latter then it may help you find that line between normal health and safety routines and OCD. I know this is a lot but I hope it helps a little.

Phobalys

Date posted: 19h

I can’t use a different shower either because the only other one is the one my parents use and that feels a lot worse and also less private 🫩

Anonymous

Date posted: 13h

I suppose you might be able to create a hierarchy of what you’re afraid of - in detail, list each fear/discomfort and number each from least to greatest and then systematically or in groups, tackle each one. When you are ready, see if you can lean in with a statement of how this will contaminate you, and see if you can “up the ante” with a stronger statement. If you feel ready, you can start tackling the 10s on you list and work down. I have heard and learned through personal experience too that it is important to do at least 2 hours of ERP per day (for several months straight) if you’re able to, but this is a good prescription, then take a short pause before you apply this strategy to your OCD again. This appears to be how a lot of us get better. I’m still applying this approach, but while OCD is so hard, I find that I trust this to help me. 🙂

Anonymous

Date posted: 13h

Also, checking in with someone who doesn’t have OCD and what they would do in such a situation can be helpful in a realty check. You could do the things they say they would be comfortable doing. I think once had a brief period with visibly corrosive batteries causing blindness if it got in my eyes. I knew many people didn’t wash their hands after touching that. I decided to rub my eyes without washing them because I got better at ERP at this point. Everything was OK. I think it would have helped reduce overall symptoms however if I practiced something on this level for periods of time, day in and day out, on ERP sprints and runs, because OCD can be so sticky and stubborn. It gets into everything.

HealingForLife

Date posted: 13h

Wash everything you can & do a deep clean. That’s as far as you need to go. Spending unnecessary money for no reason will only put you in financial debt & move your OCD to focus on another issue. I promise in time the contamination anxiety will pass. Everything takes time. Sending light your way!

miss_anonymous

Date posted: 15w

Here we go again..

Hi guys I know I keep posting but I having real bad anxiety rn. My bathroom sink was plugged and my dad came and fixed it but he put the drain stopper on the top of my bathroom counter which got me frustrated. Mind you it was dirty water with like black particles on my COUNTER!!! I tried to keep my composure and told my dad that I appreciate him doing this and I know he has a way of doing things , but told him to not do that. He kinda got annoyed but I told him it really bothered me. He finally unclogged the drain and everything’s fine now. During him fixing it, I was there watching him closely n I watched as he put the drain stopper on top of my counter it got on the side of my gel that I use for my hair. Now I’m having false memory that the water splashed on my skin care products. Like what if the bacteria got inside my cleanser? I don’t even wanna wash my face. I thought about cloroxing each item but it seems like no matter how much I wash them, nothing helps and I keep wanted to buy more and more Clorox . I don’t wanna buy another cleanser bc 1.) it’s 11:23pm and 2.) it will make things worse. I’m scared but I’m gonna cleanse my face with it anyways . 😞 please any advice would help

GuiltyGrapes

Date posted: 14w

I feel so filthy

So Im staying at my uncles house until Saturday or Sunday and I feel like I’m filthy and making his house infected and idk what to do so when I first got here his house had grass I walked through to get to the door so I made sure to wipe my feet at the door and leave my shoes close to the door but I still feel,like I’m infecting his house he gave me and my little brother a room to sleep in and the first think I think of is how I need to wash the sheets when I leave. The first day was hard because I couldn’t shower and I felt so dirty because we had to go on a walk and I was sweating and we also had to water the grass outside and I had the same socks on as I did yesterday and I just felt like they were filthy and I was walking with those socks around the house so now his carpet is filthy and the bed I was laying in is now filthy. And I couldn’t shower because I didn’t have any cleaning supplies to clean it after I was done because I didn’t want to wash in their shower and now clean it afterwards. But I got someone at the store and took a shower and changed clothes and I felt weird about where to put my dirty clothes I hung them on the shower curtain rod but I feel like I just infected the rod. And afterwards I tried to spray off the shower with some Clorox foam cleaner but I feel like I didn’t clean it good and even feel bad about cleaning it because I was afraid the chemicals I tried rinsing off the shower and the bottles I was using in the shower but still feel like it’s infected. And don’t get me started on how I feel about the bags I’m keeping my clean clothes in and also the other bag I’m keeping my dirty clothes the bags are laying on the floor and I feel like my clean clothes are getting dirty from the floor and my dirty clothes are dirtying the floor and the towel I was using I used to dry the bathroom floor and asked where to put my towel he said on the dryer but there was stuff on it so I put it on a box above the dryer but I feel like I just infected everything and also Ik he touched the towel WHST if he gets THISE germs on his kids . Also the covers me and my little brother were using fell on the ground and his kids were playing in them and stuff like that but my little brother said it was fine and still used them but idk and his cover he brought touched my dirty clothes and the floor and he still used them and I just feel kinda ill about that. And today me feeling filthy just multiplied because I can’t SHOWER again today because someone’s toys are in the shower and idk how to get clean becuase we leave soon and idk what to do do I just change clothes? Idk about wipes because I can’t just ask for baby wipes and now I’m walking around with no socks because I only brought one pair and my others ones were put in my dirty clothes bag and now I have to go places no socks just in my flip flops. And last night I went to the restroom because I didn’t want to have an accident in the night because I’m always anxious about that stuff and I went but I feel like I just infected their toilet and I washed my hands after but I went back into bed but my feet touched the bathroom floor so now the bed is hay I feel actually infected and since I’m laying in it I’m infected too. Idk why I woke up so depressed and feel so filthy and guilty idk if it was the pose I was sleeping in or if I think I had an accident idk but we a lot of places to go today and idk what to do I was going to get Lysol at the store today to spray stuff but I don’t think I can get everything and I feel so sick he has kids what if I give them bad germs I can’t live with that

GuiltyGrapes

Date posted: 26d

What do I do

Everything is filthy and it’s because of me. So I’ve(16m)been kind of getting better at handling my cocd but recently I was in bed and had a ‘physical reaction’ I won’t delve deeper into that and my fear revolves around bodily fluids so this is obviously something that would trigger it but I tried to just sit with it and just told myself ‘ok I’ll just washed my covers then’ and I take the covers off and to my horror my mattress is discolored and idk why I use a protector on it but I guess only a few years ago. There’s like discoloration on the top and yellow discoloration on the side and the side that touches the wall has black discoloration and I’m just so disgusted. But I go wash my covers and then my mind just wanders to the fact that my little cousins are coming over for my brothers birthday and I panicked I need to clean and that’s when what happened earlier really bothers me I basically just turned my room into a biohazard I look and my mattress is like touching 2 things those things are infected now according to my brain and I panick now the whole room is dangerous my dirty clothes that fell on the floor now the floor is ruined. So Im now slowly cleaning over the past few days and its not helping im just freaking out more and on top of my room the bathroom is dirty and idk how to clean it I mean IM guess im scared i won’t clean good enough because im the only one who will clean it even though 2 other people use it and dont clean it its dirty and it irks me so bad every time i use the shower I spray it with bleach and the floor around the shower but the bathroom counter is dirty and I need to clean it but idk if it’ll be enough. And I need to mop but every time i mop my feet still get dirty from just walking on the floor so i must be doing something right. Idk what to do im panicking everything is dirty idk what to do I need advice.

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