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@dee012 Could I comment here

@Anony1314 Yes just try to type it in a way that doesn’t get censored

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@Anony1314 I’m sorry ur going thru this . what you’re describing is literally how POCD works. those sudden urges or sensations are totally normal for OCD parents. the fact that you panicked and felt guilt will show you that. it’s a fear response intrusive thoughts + anxiety will most def produce this fear response. you’re not alone, a lot of parents with POCD go through the same stuff. 💛 be gentle with urself

@Anony1314 I think the ocd loop makes these interactions seem more catostraphic. have u used the SOS button? Ik it’s easier said than done but letting the thoughts pass help a lot

@Anony1314 Yes. I can’t explain why tho. I’m sure there’s a rzn

@Anony1314 Yes

@Anony1314 once again, i’m really sure this is just your ocd talking. it sounds like there was an urge mixed with fear — but urges like that don’t always come from desire. does that make sense? even if it feels terrible or “real,” that doesn’t mean it actually is. the whole “briefly acted on it” thing happens a lot with ocd. you have the fear, then your brain freaks out, and it makes you feel like you “did something bad,” when really it’s just part of the anxiety cycle. honestly, i’ve had weird urges like that too but with my pets. like the other day, i was playing with their dangly toy and suddenly thought, “what if i hit them in the butt with it?” and then i actually did. not because i wanted to be weird — but more like, my brain was testing the thought. it’s almost like if i don’t do it, my brain will treat it as something “wrong.” but doing it doesn’t mean i want to sleep with my cat or something — it’s just ocd being ocd.

@Anony1314 It can be any of those