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@dee012 Could I comment here

@Anony1314 Yes just try to type it in a way that doesn’t get censored

@dee012 Did you respond?

@Anony1314 I’m sorry ur going thru this . what you’re describing is literally how POCD works. those sudden urges or sensations are totally normal for OCD parents. the fact that you panicked and felt guilt will show you that. it’s a fear response intrusive thoughts + anxiety will most def produce this fear response. you’re not alone, a lot of parents with POCD go through the same stuff. 💛 be gentle with urself

@Anony1314 I think the ocd loop makes these interactions seem more catostraphic. have u used the SOS button? Ik it’s easier said than done but letting the thoughts pass help a lot

@dee012 Thank you friend. Those urges can cause you to react as I did too? (Like pushing the duster further against her) then full blown regret panic and fear.

@Anony1314 Yes. I can’t explain why tho. I’m sure there’s a rzn

@dee012 Could I ask one more thing to you?

@Anony1314 Yes

@dee012 During routine care, I was wiping my child after she did the number 2. I noticed an intrusive thought urging me to touch her other area with the wipe, even though there was no need to wipe that area. Despite knowing it was wrong, the urge felt overwhelming, and I briefly acted on it. Immediately afterward, I panicked, felt intense guilt, and regretted the action deeply. This experience is consistent with my diagnosis of pOCD, where intrusive thoughts and urges feel very real and compelling, but do not reflect my true intentions or character. I’m sharing this to be honest about the challenges I face and to seek understanding and support.

@Anony1314 once again, i’m really sure this is just your ocd talking. it sounds like there was an urge mixed with fear — but urges like that don’t always come from desire. does that make sense? even if it feels terrible or “real,” that doesn’t mean it actually is. the whole “briefly acted on it” thing happens a lot with ocd. you have the fear, then your brain freaks out, and it makes you feel like you “did something bad,” when really it’s just part of the anxiety cycle. honestly, i’ve had weird urges like that too but with my pets. like the other day, i was playing with their dangly toy and suddenly thought, “what if i hit them in the butt with it?” and then i actually did. not because i wanted to be weird — but more like, my brain was testing the thought. it’s almost like if i don’t do it, my brain will treat it as something “wrong.” but doing it doesn’t mean i want to sleep with my cat or something — it’s just ocd being ocd.

@dee012 Thank you friend. Can it not feel like a test and almost just an impulsive moment to relieve the anxiety too? Or just because of the urge

@Anony1314 It can be any of those