I feel insane.

I keep obsessing over a past extremely toxic relationship. I’m dreaming about him again. Stalking the social medias. Just can get him out of my brain BUT I KNOW ITS NOT LOVE I KNOW IT ISNT this is just me craving the chaos and stress from that time of my life because I am now in a place where my life is calmer and I’m in a steady and healthy relationship with my now boyfriend and he’s the best thing ever. I just can’t stop these thoughts and I’m scared I’m gonna run back to him because that’s what’s happened in the past. I don’t want the cycle to repeat but it’s like I can’t stop. I am medicated for my ocd but this just feels so much stronger then what I can handle especially because I’ve never overcome these thoughts before and always just went back to him until he broke my heart again. Help

Relationship OCD

TLC1

Date posted: 27d

Go do something for yourself. Go for a walk, hike, lunch date. Do something that you LOVE that you know he would hate. Make a list of all the things you hate about him. Make a list of all the things you love about yourself. Sending you love ❤️

Miranda B

Date posted: 27d

I’m doing the same thing but over a fake friendship. This girl friended me. We had both been in a relationship with the same guy and that’s how we met. Toxic from the beginning I know now. But for some reason this killed my soul. I take it day by day but some days are miserable. This so called friend was my best friend one night then the next day called the cops and asked for a restraining order. I’ve spent 7 months begging for a why when I was nothing but precious to this person. When it comes down to it she had evil intent and there is nothing I could have done different. She friended me with the intent to cause harm over this guy. I hope so much for you to heal. Reach out if you need to talk.

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Date posted: 27d

I have the exact same problem. It's so tough. It's important that you recognise that it's not love. It's an unhealthy attachment. I think that it's jarring to be in a relationship with a good person when you're used to the chaos and the stress. I'm sorry that you're going through this. I'm wishing you the best.

JessieJoy

Date posted: 27d

You said your truth here. keep reiterating it to yourself and focusing on it. "I am now in a place where my life is calmer and I’m in a steady and healthy relationship with my now boyfriend and he’s the best thing ever." That's all. The rest is OCD. You're right you can't stop the thoughts, but you can choose what to do about them. You can choose to dismiss them like unwanted notifications. Old thoughts, dismiss. Right now OCD is telling you that you can't handle it, that it's stronger then you, that it can make you do what it wants. It's not true. You are stronger than it and you will prove it. You can't prevent the thoughts but you CAN cut down the compulsive checking and redirect yourself to the healthy relationship you have and want. you say I can handle it. Keep saying I can handle it. And keep doing it. Choosing what you want. You got this. It can give you thoughts and feelings but can't choose who you want to be with or who you are with.

PunkCake

Date posted: 26d

Yall are so sweet this was my first time posting and it’s helped so much yall are amazing thank you

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