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I’m with you on this one. I go back and forth between feeling good and feeling off. It’s the worst feeling.

I think we just have to realize that we are the person we aspire to be. That person is not gone, just masked because of OCD. You are so strong, and just have to remember that you will not lose your true self

I totally understand the feeling off thing. It’s just part of the cycle. Something that has helped me in recovery is acknowledging that I find comfort in feeling good and I latch onto that feeling whenever I am not spiraling. I use that feeling as proof. But it’s important to remember that we should be treating intrusive thoughts and feelings exactly the same. You are NOT alone!!!

I totally relate. I have had many so ocd episodes since i first had it 5 years ago. I over think everything with my fiancé when i am in one. When out of the episode it is great but in one its horrible

I hope that everyone on here has supportive partners -- they mean so much. But I agree with feeling as though you are lying to them. Whenever I tell him I feel good, it feels as though I just wait for the shoe to drop until I'm back to crying in his arms.