I had a thought while at work abt my brother and I got really strong groinal respones and I kept replaying it until it stopped. It felt like real arousal. I feel like idk how to fantasize anymore or what the difference is between fantasies and intrusive thoughts. Everyone says intrusive thoughts are thoughts u dont agree with and I feel like ive lost touch and dont even know whats me anymore. Which is disgusting
Maybe a better way to think about it is fantasies are things people enjoy (they feel genuinely happy and good), and intrusive thoughts are repetitive, questionable and make you feel gross or disgusting. I do understand that feeling, and it can be hard to get out of it. I had a time in my life where I couldn’t tell the difference between anything sexual. It’s really difficult. I’m sorry your going through this
mine are repetitive in the sense of being the same topic but mine arent the same exact thought over and over. My problem is I can't tell if i feel happy or excited or something. And now idek how to fantasize about my bf or actual ppl I would find attractive because it turns into an intrusive thought or I can't tell what I like and whats true anymore.
I see. I definitely understand that. OCD is so tricky and evil. I felt the same about my siblings. I genuinely couldn’t tell if I was attracted to them or not. Same with the opposite sex. It was like everything was clouded. I couldn’t find the truth.
exactly thats exactly how i feel.
Do u get the intrusive thoughts even tho ur not around them? I get them even at work or at my bfs house, like constant
Yeah that’s what used to happen. Out of nowhere I’d start having these horrible thoughts about them- having a groinal response. It didn’t matter where I was or who I was with. It happened like 20 times a day. I’d try to shake it off but couldn’t really.
yes omg this is literally what happens. did u get them abt random kids too because even just knowing a kid is around gives me intrusive thoughts without even seeing them
@ran_0fff Yeah all the time. I had trouble being around kids a lot or knowing them. My neighbors were super sweet but I had so much trouble hanging out with them because of there two kids.
Ive seen a lot of people have the same feeling of not knowing if it’s real attraction or not. I’ve also seen people worried because they’re not reacting to the trigger with panic anymore, it’s like they’re numb to it. I think it’s called OCD burnout or something? But yeah if your nervous system is on high alert 24/7 it’s totally normal for it to burn out like that, which can make it difficult to tell what’s real or not. Before I knew what a ground response was, I knew it was coming from anxiety. It’s also not just the groin usually, it’s like my entire body spikes in a split second. It’s your body physically responding to a threat (the triggering thought), not attraction. If you’re attracted to something you revel in and enjoy it. It doesn’t disgust you
the same thing for me was before I knew what the groinal response was I knew it was like this weird uncomfortable trigger thing. everytime my little baby brother would even come near me i would get it and would tell him to go away. I juat now started to sleep in his bed with him again after years of being begged to. and I get vile thoughts and I worry they are fantasies. Its so much so that even when I wake up throughout the night or in my dreams the thoughts and sometimes groinal responses are there. I even get them now about my baby sister as well and I didnt used to really at all. I get them about random kids no matter who as long as I know they are younger than me. And sometimes I literally cannot tell if its a fantasy. Like my groinal response feels like real arousal a lot if not more powerful. I feel like idk what attraction feels like anymore or desire. And when im with my bf i try to see if I know or feel desire. sometimes even when we kiss and do stuff it feels like im forcing it to prove to myself that I know I am attracted to men.
This. I’ve been feeling so alone. Sexual OCD with the theme of ur own family/kids are so EVIL. Idrc abt intrusive thoughts of gory or self harm/death as they are not as morally deconstructive. A month or two ago my intrusive thoughts came back after a year or two and I’m still trying to move past this episode.
literally I've got them about other family members besides kids and its so weird. but i constantly have them abt my little siblings or other kids. and it feels worse than harm because its much harder to distinguish from reality at least for me. Especially with groinal response and overall sexual things are so much more complex than violence.
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