Done trying...

I don't care for a real life relationship. I don't. I'm scared of rejection I'm never going to be pretty enough for my type. I cannot be blonde. I can not be a latina. I can not look pretty at the same time and be curvy. I just prefer imaginary bfs and husbands. They're better >>> idc if that makes me weird or schizophrenic at 19 years old. Most girls my age are dating and older ones are getting married already. I really genuinely don't care about real life relationships. Who the hell wants to risk it and risk a break up, fight or divorce... or cheater or betrayer... I think people are crazy if they would prefer that... Tbh. I'm just gonna stick with my favorite characters and imaginary bf/husband and imaginary friends as well. I really don't give a fuck anymore what other people think. I mean in japan it's legal to marry your favourite character. I think. I really don't care and I think my situation and feelings are why people do that... and all this... In the first place it's because of real people... Society is way too picky...

Young adults with OCD

VVbee

Date posted: 23h

I'm so sorry : ( especially for the first part I wish you didn't see yourself in that sort of light . I do agree with the second half though greatly. I am a bit younger by a year or 2 and I do feel that way about all you said about dating for the most part, although people my age are already in a relationship or they're having crushes on boys and stuff.. Everyone makes it more stressful by pressuring that you need to have this or this solved or if you aren't dating by (x) you're this . But deep down I know, and for both of us- we are still really young and have a lot time to figure things out and dating shouldn't be the first priority . 19 is a YOUNG age to get married in my opinion- and I have dated before when I was really young for 4 years, it was mostly forced onto me and I regret it so bad for many many reasons but nontheless from experience DO NOT rush into relationships and don't date just anyone unless you know you love the person . (Which I assume you know already, but still pointing that out.) I also do relate for the imaginary side of things . It doesn't help that I have really bad case of malidaptive daydreaming, 🥲 I really am obsessed with certain media's and I also love certain fictional characters and have fictional boyfriend and stuff like that . (Which is why I also selfship 🥹 it's really a comforting and fun coping mechanism..) I think about them constantly and imagine myself in the world where I do have really close friendships, bonds, relationships and stuff like that + add in my own storyline and stuff- which that isn't mostly because of my OCD/Anxiety/etc but also since I'm just obsessed with fandoms and art media and stuff like that lol, but the nonstop daydreaming does include a bit of those mental aspects and in a way.. it does help me a lot honestly . But at the same time I do sometimes feel unwell in where I'm at currently for when it comes to relationships/friendship statuses . Real people are complex, society is super odd sometimes . I hope you're doing well though <: )💜

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Date posted: 13h

@VVbee Omg I literally have a little bit of maladaptive daydreaming but I think my case is more hyperphantasia which is basically the alpha of it all. Which means I guess that's why I can be super super creative.

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