Update on friend situation (read prev posts)

I apologize,this is long and worded awkwardly,but I dont really know how to sort this out a bit bc ocd is bothering me over it. If anyone has words on this please lmk. Adults only bc im almost 24 This is another update on my sort of real event situation w a somewhat ex friend of mine. I cannot really summarize super well so id recommend to look at my prev posts,but to give a bit of a run down I was unfollowed and unadded on everything by a friend,and was told it was bc my conversation style was frustrating and needing space bc of that and it wasnt my fault. I did not respond well really ( i posted what i sent in my other posts also) and sort of panicked. Later I was told this came off pressuring,which i apologized for and later left our group server for a break (which is my main communication w my other friends,but which is also run by this person) bc it was finals and i was getting overwhelmed mentally so I needed to stop checking it. I did mention possibly leaving for a time to focus on studies,but I was sort of vague. This is where the update comes in. I was messaged again abt this very recently,and I was told that it seemed bothersome to this person bc it seemed that I was avoiding the person just bc I was told i came off pressuring ,and that it seemed like going around this person's back when I didnt ask this person for an invite back directly, and it was assumed I asked someone else which the person wasnt cool w . When I apologized again and explained i did not ask anyone for an invite (If I leave servers for a break,I copy my own invite beforehand because im shy abt asking again and I like to be quiet abt my breaks) this person seemed receptive to my apology a lot more and appreciated it,and I thought we had sort of talked it out and moved on. We wished eachother a good day and thats that My main concern is a post I found ( i was doing compulsions checking social media,unfortunately,i should not have done this. Also to be clear,this post happened like A Day Or So before this person confronted me again ) that im worried might be connected to me,and it makes me worry how honest this person was w not minding that im around even after all this . After this person disagreed w me in the server over smth small ,I saw a post being like 'I love being contrarian and pedantic w people i find annoying' im sort of afraid since this was posted at around the same time that im the annoying person in this situation ,and even thoigh it seems like we sorted things out,I can't stop thinking abt how i might seem annoying,esp since its a big fear of mine peoole I once consider friends will just end up finding me bothersome. Its not the first time either,there was another time this person talked abt finding people annoying and learning not to feel bad abt it and I got worried bc of everything it was abt me. I wanna move past this but its awkward bc of the mutual friends (who im also scared might know and find me annoying now) and seeing that post and worrying if this person still finds me bothersome even after sorting things out. Apologies if this is worded confusingly. Im having trouble w words recently. I feel shitty abt continually messing uo over and ovrr and over and being the thing i fear which is someone that sort of drives away ppl they care abt