Does anyone feel like they are on a rollercoaster?

With my OCD I have been struggling a lot with relationship OCD. I feel like anything that goes slightly wrong my mind makes me feel like I have to bring it to my bf and talk about it to make the worry go away. And I feel better after usually but it still lingers in the back of my mind telling me "he might not be the one" " maybe you should leave him" " maybe he will become abusive". These thoughts terrify me because I really love him and want this to work out. And so by the OCD saying things like this is makes me question my relationship. And I go through these phases of being like omg I'm so in love with him and then other times I'm like what if I don't love him because he did this or it could mean that. It's like a rollercoaster. Alongside that rollercoaster, I feel like I'm on another one of my OCD being fine for a few months then picking up like crazy, like right now. Does anyone have advice on how to deal with the bad phases to wait it out till the good phases that are much more manageable?

Relationship OCD

miriamlovesJ...

Date posted: Yesterday

Ugh relationship ocd is truly so draining!! I’m sorry you experience this. I struggle as well with “what ifs” and I get so scared of making the “wrong choice” or ending up in the “wrong marriage”. Even though my boyfriend is quite literally my dream man. I struggle with thinking he’s too good to be true and that I’m “missing something” therefore i need to be checking constantly

Madalyn Yorgy

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: Yesterday

This is exactly what I am experiencing. Yes. I am seeing a therapist and on meds. But I am struggling to feel like I am making progress, despite what people tell me. And they can't really see what's going on in my head. And my family tells me to just watch what I talk to my bf about and that makes me feel worse about when I do, because they don't understand how much I need to just talk about stuff with him.

miriamlovesJ...

Date posted: Yesterday

@Madalyn Yorgy Well I’m proud of you for sticking with the meds and therapy! It’s so much better than before we had those resources, even if we can’t see it! Your therapist knows what they’re talking about so keep trusting the process. I will pray for you right now that you will experience easier days ahead. We’re in this together 🩷🙏🏼

Madalyn Yorgy

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: Yesterday

@miriamlovesJesus Thank you so much for the encouragement and prayers! I'll pray for you that you as well! 🫶

miriamlovesJ...

Date posted: Yesterday

All that to say is I understand the rollercoaster and you’re not alone! I’m still learning myself what it looks like to withstand the hard days. Are you seeing a therapist and/or on and meds if I may ask?

Ali$t@ir2021

Date posted: 13h

You’re not alone. My husband is literally my other half, the love of my life. I’ve been head over heels since shortly after we met and I sometimes find myself falling in love with him again because I can’t believe he’s mine. Enter OCD. Now I’m looking for all my feelings because the meds killed them. I know I love him, I know I’m crazy about him. But OCD. The shittiest roller coaster ever.

Madalyn Yorgy

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 11h

Exactly.... It's literally the worst. Because I know this guy is the one for me, and OCD just can't let me feel that excitement of all the good things, it always kills the happy

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