Drinking and peer pressure help?

Help pls . Me and my friend got really drunk but i liked the feeling and i liked that we were laughing a lot but i wanted to keep drinking and my friend was like nooo ive had enough im sloppy drunk and i was like “brooo i dont want to drink alone”. Throughout the night i got more drunk so about 2-3 more times i asked her like damn i want another shot let’s take one and she was like i dont think u should drink more. I was like yeah maybe I shouldn’t I don’t want to get sick. Then later on I told her I was sorry and I didn’t want her to feel like I was pressuring her and she said like no I didn’t feel like that don’t worry. I just feel really weird because I don’t know why I kept asking and I worry i did something terrible. Also she ended up kissing me after we took like two shots and idk if I wanted to keep drinking more because I liked how carefree we were. We both didn’t end up drinking more so idk if I should even be worrying.

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RRazz

Date posted: 15h

Alcohol helps you escape from your reality. I wouldn't contribute all of your fun and laughing to alcohol only. It sounds to me that you were having a really good time with your friend and that's what brought out those positive feelings. Alcohol definitely helped you relax and stuff but try not to rely on it cuz like I said I think you would have had these positive emotions bc of your friend. Now the kissing thing is a whole separate thing😉. If you don't mind me asking was the kiss a long time coming or impulsive?

dee012

Date posted: 14h

@RRazz She just kissed me randomly but I was okay with it. I showed her a video of me and my old friends drunk kssing from like years ago because I found it in my camera roll so I think it just gave her an idea. I’m just worried I was pressuring her to drink even tho me asking didn’t rlly change her mind I was just liking the feeling a lot and didn’t want it to go away. Idk maybe im overthinking

RRazz

Date posted: 14h

When aren't we overthinking😉 You're worried about pressuring her to drink and she's probably worried about making the move to kiss you, idk it's just a thought Don't let the "drunk fuzziness" of the following days skew reality bc it simply sounds like you had a great night with your friend & awesome positive emotions. 🤘🏻

dee012

Date posted: 14h

@RRazz Thank you so much for ur comment! Obviously I act a little different when drunk but I completely respect her totally! I didn’t feel weird abt the kiss I was just wondering like oop is it gonna happen again LOL. It was funny. But yeah im not gonna let my ocd ruin this. I asked her like three times how I was acting she told me I didn’t get mad because she said no or even pressure her. She said it just seemed like I wanted to get more drunk. Anyways thank you so much for your comment. You are very kind

Anonymous

Date posted: 8h

This sounds like a normal human interaction to me. It’s good to be mindful when drinking and to not drink too much because it does cloud our judgment. That being said, you seem very mindful of the way you interact and remember that in some cases, checking once is not a compulsion if you genuinely want clarity, but continuing to check if you did something wrong is a compulsion and the more you do it, the more you train your brain there is danger here. Doing exposures is difficult, but I think it would help you a lot in this situation! Do you have a therapist?

dee012

Date posted: 8h

@Anonymous I use to have a therapist but my insurance doesn’t cover ERP, and self pay is 200 a session which is impossible for me. I know liquor clouds my judgement and im worried that drinking is bad. I only do it very rarely for like having fun with my friends or parties. Which is also rare for me lol. I kept asking my friend for reassurance and she was like ur in ur head too much. I miss when I didn’t have ocd which was when I was like 13 lol so not a good age to miss being.

Anonymous

Date posted: 7h

@dee012 I get it, having ocd is rough. I only do a session every 2 weeks for a half hour out of pocket which is $110, maybe you could do it once a month even if you can afford it. I think it would make a world of difference, you seem like you’re really struggling. Your posts have been seeking reassurance which only makes things worse and I think a therapist could help you a ton!

Anonymous

Date posted: 7h

@Anonymous And NOCD therapist specifically :)

RRazz

Date posted: 13h

@dee012 Live your life, your way. Try not to let OCD speak for ya. Have you explained OCD to your friend. I know that shits easier said than done. We'll cross paths again. Focus Forward 🤘🏻

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