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New Year; anyone have OCD about time flying by?
New Year, New me— and I’m letting myself dig deep into themes I really haven’t fully tackled yet. The one I’m focusing on here is an Existential OCD obsessed with the passage of time. Specifically: • mental review to categorize time periods and memories within my mind • distress at the realization that XYZ amount of time has passed since a certain year, era or milestone in my life • dread about the idea that time goes by too fast, and that I have to hold onto every moment and make it extra worth it or I have done something “wrong” There’s a few factors to it that really amp it up for me. I have CPTSD and very deep childhood/adolescent-aged trauma, so some of this is linked to wanting some weird sense of control over that in my mind. I’ve also had this obsession since I was like 11 or 12 (so, going on about 13-14 years now). Put more simply in a way that I think most people can relate to: going “Jesus Christ, how has it been a full decade since 2016??? It felt like yesterday!” but imagine that amped up by a lot and a full blown obsessional theme.