hey friends

is being terrified to eat bc of pain after/the sensation of being full and the compulsion of not eating potentially just somatic ocd? my doctor thought/thinks i have a stomach ulcer and she gave me meds for it? the meds made it hurt worse at first but i started to feel better when the meds were almost gone... and then the meds were gone and it felt normal bad again... i told her and she gave me the meds but for longer this time and i did not take them in full because i couldnt get over the increase of pain it causes in the start. all this to say, my doctor thinks its medical which is fine, it may be, as i do often feel pain after eating, and im not sure how normal that is... however, i think there is an equal part of it that is mental whether that be ocd and/or anorexia... maybe it wouldn't feel so bad to eat if i ate more often but im terrified to because it hurts and i dont want it to, id rather avoid it.

Somatic OCD

Rebecca ❤️

Date posted: Yesterday

Also I forgot to say this, but eating in small amounts, things that are light on the tummy that leave you feeling less full. You might be allergic to some of the things you’re eating and you might not know. I hate chopping everything up to anxiety and OCD. Because some of the things you feel could very well be a sign your body is telling you it’s unhappy with something. Do some research, keep track on what you eat and have been eating. If you feel like you’re obsessing over your pain, sit with the thought don’t let fear run you. I know it’s uncomfortable and scary but you are strong and very capable. Be easy on yourself, give yourself some grace. Try different foods, gmo, cut out any dairy etc. it’s your body I don’t know what hurts the most to eat and what doesn’t but take the time to learn yourself and do some research (no rabbit holes) I’m not a doctor just a friend who’s here to listen ❤️

Rebecca ❤️

Date posted: Yesterday

I think ruling out any type of medical problems is the first step, you could be having some type of ulcer, but that doesn’t stop your brain from amplifying the pain and anxiety that comes with dealing with this. I struggle with somatic OCD. (Trigger warning) I use to have intense chest pain that wouldn’t go away, I was obsessive towards my heart and it turned into breathing problems. I would think about my breath so much I felt like I couldn’t breathe which made me hyperventilate without noticing it. It made my body breathe out of order which caused the drowning sensation. I went to the doctors and they told me I was fine and it was all in my head, I didn’t believe them because what I felt was so real I was convinced there was something medically wrong. Which wasn’t true it was my OCD taking over my thinking. I’m still dealing with this to this day, that’s why I’m on Noocd. Seeking help for my own mental heath. But my best advice for you is to keep reaching out to your primary care doctor, keep talking to a OCD specialist. Exposure therapy has helped millions and im sure you can find the relief you’ve been looking for. Don’t stop even if it’s hard, battling OCD is tough. I’m here for you, even if you need someone to talk to. You’re aren’t alone ❤️ much love

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