rocd!!!! pls respond my ocd is getting worse

hi love! i also have really bad rocd so i get what you're feeling. ocd is so so terrible because it attacks what is most important to us, but that is also helpful in that we can find comfort in that. connection with other people and with your bf are important to you, the proof is in the fact that that is what your ocd is attacking. you have to practice sitting with the uncertainty - i'm working on this myself so it is hard giving that advice but it is true. constantly looking for reassurance and giving into the compulsions will only make the cycle repeat. i'm so sorry i know it is so hard but you are not alone!!

"I know I love him, I miss him, I want to be next to him and have my future with him." If you know that, then isn't it a clear sign that the rest is your OCD? OCD will trick you. It will make you overthink to oblivion. If you know, then you know. The rest is OCD.

its weird because i know i love him and on the other hand im scared that i dont and im analysing it and i have these thoughts that i dont find him attractive etc. and today i saw a tik tok with caption when i was a kid i used to draw soft porn and my mum posted it on her fb saying that shes proud of me and i was like what is soft porn? and i checked in the comments and then my mind generated or i generated i dont know im scared thta it was my thought that i wanted, it was a thought a image where i was watching porn and im scared that i wanted to rhink about or im scared that it made me feel something and i stared stressing that i used to watch it even tho i didnt. long time ago i was watching some shit like this with my friend in class when we were bored just to laugh at it but mt boyfriend knows about it but i used to stress that i did watch it with my friend even if it was just to laugh and make fun of this and it was her that was mostly showing me stuff like this but it was always for fun to laugh etc. but i was stressing some time ago about it so maybe im stressed that i used to watch it with her? but i was scared that what if i watched it alone although it never even happend while i was in a relationship i remember i did watch one video but it was few years ago before i even went to high school where i met my boyfriend it was when i was a curious kid and it was just one video but now im stressing that i watched it while in relationship alone in my room even though i know that it never really happend

also today when i was coming back home after school in the bus there was a guy behind me with his friends and i had a thought like wow hes kind of talking with sense? some thought like that because i know this guy from my primary school and he was always a dick he even insulted me a year ago ig??? and i had this thought and i was listening what they were talking about and i stared to stress that i like him now or that i want to talk to him or that i want anything with him and i was stressing about it even tho i dont want to do anything like this

I know OCD can be very hard to deal with, but this post is seeking reassurance, which only makes things worse. If you are not in ERP therapy with an OCD specialist, please look into getting professional help so you can get better. Here are some helpful tools and resources to help you through this: -What is OCD? Explained by Nathan Peterson: https://youtu.be/eeTFME9mOMc?feature=shared -The Psychology of Seeking Reassurance: https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/reassurance-seeking-ocd-anxiety-how-to-stop-cycle -5 Things To Do Other Than Compulsions: https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/five-things-to-do-instead-of-compulsions -Stopping Rumination’s Tough! Video by Nathan Peterson: https://youtu.be/CkcspsmLh9k?feature=shared -Somatic OCD & How To Treat It? https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/what-is-somatic-ocd -What is Rumination? https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/the-rumination-trap -Confessing compulsion vs. healthy sharing: https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/ocd-compulsive-confession-vs-healthy-sharing -What’s Pure O OCD? https://www.verywellmind.com/pure-o-primarily-obsessional-ocd-4159144 -What is an OCD backdoor spike? https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/info/ocd-stats-and-science/backdoor-spikes-how-to-deal-with-sudden-ocd-episodes -Intrusive Thoughts: Images, Sensations, and Stories by Dr. Martin Seif: https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/blog/living-with-a-sticky-mind/202305/unwanted-intrusive-thoughts-images-sensations-and-stories -Therapy in a Nutshell’s Playlist on Panic Attacks: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLiUrrIiqidTWhubkHEJcr6iTLVRxXZmPE&feature=shared -OCD vs. GAD Differences: https://ocdla.com/ocd-vs-gad-7071 -How To Stop Rumination Video: https://youtu.be/CkcspsmLh9k?feature=shared -ERP scripting: https://www.shalanicely.com/aha-moments/erp-scripting-for-ocd/ -Forgiveness for Past Mistakes Video: https://youtu.be/2Lq1Su3mEHw?feature=shared -The Hidden Power of Swearing at Your OCD: https://www.psychologytoday.com/intl/blog/beyond-the-doubt/201711/the-hidden-power-of-swearing-at-your-ocd -Taking The Power Away From OCD: https://www.treatmyocd.com/blog/taking-the-power-away-from-intrusive-thoughts -ERP Worry Script: https://www.anxietycanada.com/sites/default/files/WorryScript.pdf -What is ERP therapy? https://iocdf.org/about-ocd/ocd-treatment/erp/ -What’s An OCD Trigger? https://psychcentral.com/ocd/what-is-an-ocd-trigger -Grounding Techniques: https://www.therapistaid.com/worksheets/grounding-techniques -OCD vs. Anxiety Disorders: https://www.talkspace.com/mental-health/conditions/articles/ocd-vs-anxiety/ -ERP Techniques for Reassurance video: https://youtu.be/D1O3RGnLjRM?feature=shared