Harm OCD and God pls help!!!!

Illogical reasoning not logical sorry for the spelling mistake I don't believe the thoughts by the way at all but you know with OCD it feels like I do and is this whole mumbo jumbo I hate it

I’m really sorry you’re going through this. I can understand why these thoughts would be terrifying, especially when they involve the people you love most and something as important to you as your faith. One thing I’ve learned from dealing with OCD myself is that having an intrusive thought doesn't mean you want it, believe it, agree with it, or would act on it. Sometimes OCD deliberately targets the things that matter most to us, which can make the thoughts feel especially horrifying. I also wouldn't try to prove to yourself over and over that the thoughts are or aren't from God, or that you're definitely not psychotic. I know that sounds scary when your brain is demanding an answer, but repeatedly analyzing the thought can turn into another way of trying to get certainty. At the same time, because you're genuinely worried about whether you're experiencing OCD or something else, please tell a mental-health professional exactly what you've written here. You don't have to make it sound less strange or embarrassing. You can literally show them this post if explaining it out loud feels impossible. They can help you figure out what's happening and what kind of treatment you need. And please don't be ashamed of needing help. You already did something really important by going to your grandma, mom, and aunt instead of sitting alone with the fear. If these thoughts ever become something you feel you might actually act on, or you don't feel able to keep yourself or someone else safe, please tell an adult immediately and get urgent help. You're not a bad person because your brain produced a horrible thought. A thought appearing in your mind is not a command, and you don't have to figure out its meaning right this second. If you want to vent, I’m there for you! <3