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@Soliel Actually tho after re reading yes I can say I’ve actually had those exact thoughts and fears too but they’re ones I can shake easier ig….

@Soliel Do you think that means they aren’t ROCD for me???

@Iwanttogetbetter2025 No I think it means it is but I also know that it doesn’t matter what I think for u to heal from it I think u have to sit in the uncertainty that maybe it is and maybe it isn’t…. Like maybe u did make a good choice and maybe u didn’t. Regardless of what u do rn to get those thoughts to go away it’s not going to change the fact that you don’t know that nor will u ever really know that ig. Cause idk what your compulsions are but they don’t usually give u the answer you’re looking for bc it’s not really there ig. I’m no therapist so im probably not explaining this correctly but what keeps me from ruminating on this exact situation is that asking questions to try to seek the answers im looking for has caused issues between us or even more rumination after the fact for me. -which probably in turn causes more issues for us too but maybe, maybe not but to stop the cycle u just sit with that uncertainty that you’re afraid of. Have you and your therapist came up with an exposure around this? Idk if its right but sounds like writing out exactly what you’re afraid of and reading that and sitting in the possibility of it maybe being true or maybe not (both situations -cause I’ll cling to one cause that’s an answer). Without doing any compulsions. This is hard for me for mine and idk if I’ve even done one like this but has me thinking I need to! 😝 -Do u use the practice thing for exposures on here?

@Soliel Thanks for your insight! I haven’t, is it the life preserver thing? My biggest compulsion is Google. I only gave in once today and it did make me feel worse. I don’t really have other compulsions besides some weird things with writing (when I write all the letters have to be connected or else we’ll get divorced or ill realize I have to leave) the only other thing I do is at work I have to draw a lot of circles basically for some things that I take notes for and those circles always have to be complete to protect our relationship from the same things. I’m a ruminator BIG TIME. I only think about ROCD related things ALL DAY. Literally there basically isn’t a moment I’m not. I also try to reassure myself with mantras and evidence in my head to negate the negative thoughts. I don’t know if that’s good or bad but that’s what I do

@Iwanttogetbetter2025 U can use that to create your own but if you haven’t done any yet I’d wait to have your therapist suggest one