I think I'm depressed

This is out of nowhere, but I'm realizing I might be struggling with depression along with OCD. Years ago, I went through a bad depressive episode. I went to therapy for a bit and ended up in a much better place. It was like a night and day difference. Fast forward to today, I'm back in the fucking building!? 😭 For months I've been telling myself it's "just the OCD" and once I get in a better place with that, I'll be a lot happier overall. Which isn't NOT true, but there's more than "just OCD" going on. Every positive feeling I get is so short-lived or constantly drowned out by the negative. But I don't feel like I should be depressed? I'm not experiencing a loss of appetite or isolating myself from loved ones or overwhelmed with sadness. But I don't feel "okay" either. I just feel so off. I'd really appreciate advice, encouragement, or similar stories. This is tough 😓

Young adults with OCD

livg606

Date posted: 2d

The same thing is also happening to me. Back in 2021 I had a pretty rough depressive episode and I was so relieved when it was finally over and for some reason I thought that I would never feel that way again, but now I currently am. I’m also experiencing the same small moments of positivity and happiness and them going away. I unfortunately don’t have much advice, but I do wanna say depression can look/feel different for everyone and that you are allowed to talk about your depression even if you aren’t experiencing the exact same things others with depression go through! I’m really sorry you are going through this and I’m sorry I don’t have much advice to give but I hope you are at least comforted in the fact that there is someone out there going through the same thing!

nae nae

Date posted: Yesterday

Thank you so much for this kind reply 🥹 it *is* comforting to know there are other people going through the same thing. I'm sorry you're currently struggling with this, too, though. I also wish I had advice to offer lol. Coincidentally, I had an appointment with my new doctor today. Usually, I shy away from talking about my mental health with them, but I read your comment this morning, and it gave me the last bit of courage I needed to be honest about it. So thank you again!

livg606

Date posted: Yesterday

@nae nae Of course!!! I’m really glad I was able to help you and I’m glad you’re getting the help you need. Sometimes it’s hard to reach out at first but it’s so worth it in the long run. You should definitely be proud of yourself! 🎉

nae nae

Date posted: Yesterday

@livg606 Aww, thank youuu!! 🩷 I definitely felt a little lighter after doing it lol

tiny.tears

Date posted: Yesterday

Depressive episodes are a part of the human experience. We ebb and flow 🌊. From my understanding, OCD can fall under the anxiety umbrella, or is at least linked to it in some way. Meanwhile, anxiety and depression are two sides of the same coin. It all goes back to serotonin and all that neuro stuff that I don’t totally understand lol. So even if we don’t have external reasons to be sad, it can be internal 🧠. I’ve had very similar experiences. Talking with my therapist and consulting with my psychiatrist help and I encourage the same for you. Your feelings are valid 🩷

nae nae

Date posted: Yesterday

Thank you so, so much! You're right 🥲 I actually spoke with my doctor about it today, and I plan on doing the same with my psychiatrist whenever I'm able to get in with them again 🫶🏻🫶🏻

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