worries about not being functional

It’s very kind of you to give so much grace to people who can’t work, but please know you are also deserving of that grace as well! You’re only human and we all have our different things that we may struggle with. I don’t know where you work (and I don’t expect you to share that as that is private information), but maybe you can switch departments if that’s an option? Or if it’s more about the work place and nature of it, maybe you can look into a job that has the opposite nature. For example if at this job you happen to work alongside lots of people, maybe a job where you kinda just do your own thing is more suitable? I don’t know much about this one as I’ve never really looked much into it myself but you could also check out some work-from-home jobs. If you do happen to leave this job and are in an unemployment period, I think volunteering is a good way to keep active and feel like you are still doing something because you’d be not only helping yourself but your community as well! I don’t know where you live (once again- private information that you don’t need to share with anyone) but the spring/warmer weather is coming up so maybe there are some seasonal jobs or volunteer work you can do outdoors if you are interested in that! But I definitely would not put yourself down for any of this. It’s easier said than done but try to be patient with yourself and give yourself that same grace you give others

Relatable. I was convinced I was destined for a group home and just had such a small, supportive school experience that I got through without anyone noticing how in need of that support I was because I was in a small class where we got a lot of attention. My husband broke his leg and I was terrified I’d not be able to function and asked his parents to come so he wouldn’t be alone if I just couldn’t possibly manage. I’ve left a job over ocd too… though I didn’t realize what it was at the time. I hope saying that makes you feel less alone. Not trying to minimize your situation! Just want you to know that you are not alone. Do you have a therapist? That’s been the biggest game changer for me.