Conspiracy Theory Stress Progress Part 2

Still struggling to sit with uncertainty for this specific one. The deeper I dig, the more dots connect, and the more likely it is that this whole thing could “allegedly” be true. The thing in question is Disney potentially being involved in CIA mind control programs perpetuated by a child trafficking satanic cult of Illuminati bloodlines. After finding multiple alleged victims corroborating the same scenarios happening to them, and some vague snippets in the Epstein Files, I feel like this whole thing is gonna be very hard for me to shake off as fake in my eyes. If so my heart of course goes out to these victims regardless. It just sucks for me if it is because, while I hate Disney as a company, I’ve grown up enjoying a lot of Disney movies and shows, and am a huge fan of Marvel. This has also spiked my OCD regarding religion, because if this is true, then Christianity must be true and magic is real and evil, which also sucks since I’ve had sort of a fascination with magical and astral stuff. All of these factors have culminated into triggers and fears regarding the Illuminati’s existence. There are some that bring up some homophobic claims here and there, but sometimes I think to myself “What if this is true because of everything being shared? What does that mean for actual gay people or my moral compass”? All this conspiracy stuff really messes with what’s authentic and what’s not. Everything feels like a trigger, making links with one another and leading me back to the beginning of the stress source, making the urge to research and dig deeper stronger and stronger. It just feels like Sisyphus and the stone, constantly searching for clarity only for it to reset, and now I feel like I’ve learned enough too much. Honestly wish I could unlearn this. This has just been freaking me out for the past week. If there’s anybody else who knows about this particular rabbit hole, let me know.

Young adults with OCD

pipparose

Date posted: 2d

Hey I am having huge OVD flare up because of all the stuff I’m seeing on my social media. I litterally don’t want to eat anything in the store now and distrust everything. I hate this feeling! I feel so gaslit! It’s triggering my harm ocd so bad.

Logan Bayham

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 14h

@pipparose I feel you. For a while I had a hard time eating also. I’ve also had a hard time looking at media thinking it or a company was made for sinister purposes. It can feel like files just warp what’s fake and authentic sometimes, but you gotta remember that if you ever catch yourself stressed, be sure to step back for awhile and focus on something positive, such as deep breaths or a hobby you enjoy.

ocdbelowzero

Date posted: Yesterday

I have been saying for years what you just typed out. This year I don’t sound like a schizophrenic saying it, since it started to come out. The thing about this rabbit hole is, the deeper you will go, the more your mental will suffer. Even tho it is satanic, you do not need to know everything, it will just mess with you.

Logan Bayham

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: Yesterday

@ocdbelowzero I’ve just been trying to remain in uncertainty with this whole ordeal, just like the McDonalds stuff. Some parts of it could be true, while there are other parts that are very likely fabrications or some means of pushing a personal agenda. Like I said, I still don’t know and I’m not sure I can or am able to either way. Though I believe in boycotting and putting my money where it matters, I don’t want this to destroy my love of Marvel Comics. I could for the most part figure out a way to go about it where it doesn’t give Disney my money (even without this rabbit hole, there are still pretty valid reasons to not support them), but for now I’m maintaining a positive and rational head, try as I might. One things for certain though, which is I’m gonna leave the conspiracy stuff to the pros. It’s just not my field.

pipparose

Date posted: 2h

@Logan Bayham I used to love McDonald’s and haven’t eaten there since I saw the stuff on “contamination” we will call it. On what it’s actually made from. The same with Walmart meat as well. I can’t afford it but I’m only buying locally butchers meat now or going vegetarian! I don’t trust any of it. But even the vegetables are sprayed with so much stuff! I’m trying to nurse and feed my baby and just feel like we’re eating poison the whole time. I’ve been down several other rabbit holes which are all linking like a giant warren. I don’t understand how people can find out about this stuff and then just move on with their lives. It’s disturbed me to my core and I’ll never look at the world the same again. It’s all linked.

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