Why does time fly ???

One of a big OCD fear of mine is time running out. Constantly checking time, ruminating on how long it took for me to do a certain task, feeling as if I couldn't enjoy a hobby due to feeling as if time is running out and I need to make the MOST out of it.. etc . Typing this as it's 1 in the morning and I have to get ready for school in 6 hours . I had a week break, no more breaks after this. At least until schools over. Obviously. Honestly, a great break . I felt so free, and I feel as certain changes are happening to me mentally and overall . I'm not sure how to describe it, but unfortunately.. the break felt like it lasted for an hour only. This wasn't enough time, I wanted to complete at least one big project but I only ended up doing some minor stuff and it just- ugh . I feel frustrated with the overall results. But I'll miss this free feeling.. I haven't felt so unsafe since I haven't been at school, but soon I'll have to head back . And honestly, I'm horrified. < /3 I hope I at least sleep good, I had such an awful nightmare last night, which relates to OCD.. but that's for another post. I feel stressed, I feel uneasy.. dissociated ? What's the meaning of life ? I don't know. But nontheless, I wish everyone a peaceful night..! 💜✨️ We have survived another cruel round of OCD . & if it's day, depending on where you live, have a wonderful day . ~

Existential OCD

MadisonR21

Date posted: 15h

Hey, I get it! I’m not much older then you, and i deal with the same exact thing. It can be really difficult and frustrating! For me, I graduated a few years ago, but have been trying to get a job at horse stables or a ranch. I’m a big animal person and that always helps me out. Only problem? I can’t seem to get out there and find a job! I keep doing all these small things, even though I try and want to do bigger things but they just never get done. I can’t seem to get anything done at all. Wanna know what I was PLANNING on doing the other day?? I was planning on showering, planning on finishing a crochet project, planning on watering and feeding all my plants along with repotting some of them, planning on decorating up some of my geckos enclosures, and sorting through half of my art supplies (only half because I have A TON of art supplies so would take a while). Wanna know what ACTUALLY happened that day? Well, I got up around 9:30, I took a shower, had stomach issues (annoying of course 🙄), did a tiny bit of crochet and moved some of my plants from one room to another, and somehow didn’t get in bed until 2 in the morning. You’re not alone! I’m glad to know I’m not alone! I feel very frustrated all the time too. I’ve been trying to get a job for over a year now (that includes figuring out what kind of job I’d do, writing up my resume, and researching, but it still shouldn’t really take that long…) It really takes time, and focus. But that’s VERY difficult to do!! I believe you said in your bio or something that you have adhd as well? I could be mistaken, but i get it! I’m on meds for my adhd and it still is extremely difficult. My therapist and I (and my mother) thought of a few different things that could help. I’m not sure if you already have tried these things, but I thought it might help! I keep a clock in each room in my house - we have Alexa’s that show the time but for me I have to see the time visually on a clock which helps me realize the time and helps me really comprehend how much time has gone by or how much time I have left (I get really frustrated, even confused and upset when I see the time fly by and I have no idea what I had just done or accomplished) I have a physical mini calendar - ok so I haven’t actually used the calendar yet… BUT it’s themed baby goats which is highly adorable and motivating for me personally… Tv shows - for me, I can get things done with a show or movie in the background IF I know it by heart! (Psych, the Jurassic movies, Brooklyn 99, Wild Kratts (yes, don’t judge me), Jaws, any of the Muppets movies and shows, etc etc etc). If I have a show playing in the background and suddenly it’s the end of the episode, it helps me realize that a certain amount of time has gone by

MadisonR21

Date posted: 15h

And wow I just realized how long that message response was… whoops, my bad. Sorry!!

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