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Mod22

Date posted: 5y

How do you overcome porn addiction? This Ocd has made me lean on porn a lot and sometimes it triggers me because i don’t feel like I’m focused on the girl alone but on the guy too...... I’ve never ever gotten hard while thinking about gay related stuff but I would think about sex with my ex girlfriend and get hard or any other girls I slept with This is so hard to deal with

Sexual Orientation OCD

quentin

Date posted: 5y

I have good days and bad...but I just found this girl I’m starting to really love and even when I imagine sex with her and I get into it..out of nowhere, my mind will say “but what if she grew a dick” or something like that smh... Keep your head up...don’t let fear run your life..that’s all this is. FEAR

Mod22

Date posted: 5y

I hear you bro I hope to find a new girl soon, I’m always sad most of the time when I get these thoughts these days, I just tear up rather than feel anxiety I don’t even know what that means too

evkrey

Date posted: 5y

I got that same problem bro. I have thoughts like “would the sex be even good? Is something missing?”

evkrey

Date posted: 5y

Mind you I’m not a virgin but I’ve only had a few sexual partners and I never had a lot of time with any of them to really learn or enjoy sex so that definitely fuels the hocd

quentin

Date posted: 5y

Get a therapist...I broke down and told Mine and she understands me better than anyone...wouldn’t lie......it’s been amazing

Mod22

Date posted: 5y

Some days watching porn is okay and sometimes it’s torture because i I get super anxious when I look at the guy and it’s so much so that I feel like my dick is getting harder but when I Look at it it’s the same I know this is too deep but I need help

quentin

Date posted: 5y

I understand what you’re going through. It’s impossible to separate the two....I’ve decreased my viewing. I get too much in my head

Mod22

Date posted: 5y

Bro watching porn going out being with girls used to be the great and now I can’t even Chill with my female friends while I’m the only dude because I feel like I’m gay and when I’m at school i avoid them because they are always in packs and I’m friends with most girls because I wanted them, or we have history but now it’s all different dawg

quentin

Date posted: 5y

Yeah...what u described is exactly what I go thru.... When I calm down I realize it’s all in my head. I’m analyzing too much...what’s natural and effortless is what I am.

Mod22

Date posted: 5y

Bro I got this thing at the pinnacle of my life i had just gotten into a new relationship and it messed it up I’ve been living with this for 10 months and it’s been hell every guy on tv gives me anxiety bro I can’t even enjoy watching shit

taylorn

Date posted: 5y

I’m sorry I’m just seeing this now. Try and become comfortable with the uncomfortable. Also, what do your experiences tell you?

Mod22

Date posted: 5y

I just have a lot of unwanted homosexual thoughts On my worst day every guy on tv makes me anxious I have a lot of speech errors about things I’d never say I would want to say I want pussy but say dick by mistake ???

taylorn

Date posted: 5y

@Mod22 It is important not to avoid the thoughts. You can’t prevent unwanted thoughts from entering your mind. You have to try and accept your thoughts.

taylorn

Date posted: 5y

A good therapist is a lot of help and can speed up your recovery.

Mod22

Date posted: 5y

I have two bad experiences with therapists how on a scale of one to ten how are you guys feeling

taylorn

Date posted: 5y

@Mod22 I’ve had several bad experiences with therapists before finding the right match. Keep looking!

Mod22

Date posted: 5y

@taylorn I went to free therapists I can’t afford one I’m still in college but I wanna get a job and then look for one

taylorn

Date posted: 5y

@Mod22 Do you have insurance?

Mod22

Date posted: 5y

@taylorn Unfortunately not

taylorn

Date posted: 5y

@Mod22 Perhaps looking into Obamacare, or if you’re in college, you can look into the school’s insurance plan for students.

Mod22

Date posted: 5y

@taylorn I’m in South Africa so I don’t know if they can donate for me if I’m here

taylorn

Date posted: 5y

I recommend you start looking. I’m sure many therapist can offer an alternative payment plan.

Mod22

Date posted: 5y

I’m in South Africa

taylorn

Date posted: 5y

@Mod22 Hmmm I’m sure there are certain services for free

Mod22

Date posted: 5y

@taylorn They are I went to the university therapist and they don’t specialize in Ocd hence I need to find a job

Heello

Date posted: 5y

I want to overcome porn too. Its really makes me broken. I dont know how to.

Mod22

Date posted: 5y

It’s fucked up fam

Mod22

Date posted: 5y

I had a gay related dream it was two guys having sex but i wasn’t a part of it like porn and I was watching I don’t want to have this dreams I’m just glad I didn’t get a hard on. I was scared when I woke up but the anxiety didn’t even last due to lack of anxiety and not panicking, does it mean that I am gay now? ?? I don’t know anymore also I can feel that my mind doesn’t care it wants to move on does it mean that I’ve also normalized this?

evkrey

Date posted: 5y

I have the gay dreams every night. No anxiety just fear and confusion. I can only sleep 4-5 hrs a night. Wake up with more anxious thoughts swirling as I lay in bed in confusion. Don’t wait to get a good therapist and suffer like me...get some serious help bro ASAP

taylorn

Date posted: 5y

Did you believe you were gay before the onset of your OCD symptoms?

Mod22

Date posted: 5y

No I was in a relationship and I loved girls more than anything I never thought I’d have this ocd in my wildest dream

taylorn

Date posted: 5y

@Mod22 What does that tell you?

Mod22

Date posted: 5y

@taylorn That I have Ocd but they feel real sometimes

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