hate_ocd.123
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AnonymousAnonymous
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Same my has been so bad lately I don’t even get anxious anymore and I’m Scared
IdkIdk
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At some point, I had such an addiction asking a magic 8 ball questions like these.
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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I still do lol.....I can’t even find a girl pretty anymore without wondering if I wanna be with her when I truly just wanna be her. I hate this :( do you feel like that at times to?
IdkIdk
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@annehatesocd Yes I constantly wonder and analyze. I think we’re physically attractive and we need to learn we are okay with that. I usually just am jealous on how pretty a girl is. Like ugh she’s lucky. You know?
AnonymousAnonymous
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@advice? Yeah there three specific girls that I was obsessed with because I wanted to look like and be them and now I’m scared that I’m a lesbian
EsosaEsosa
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I did the magic 8 ball thing but with a coin
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@advice? Ya I’m like “omg can my waist be that small” or “can I be that curvy” or “can my boobs look like that in a shirt??” Or stuff like that cause then when I do look somewhat like them I feel so happy and am like “yes!”?? (which is rare) but it’s not like how I’ll drool over a boys chest or be like O.o
AnonymousAnonymous
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@annehatesocd There’s three specific girls o was obsessed with because I wanted to be them and now I’m scared I’m a lesbian
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@cloudqueen Ya it’s making me obsess about girls looks....does this happen with you??
AnonymousAnonymous
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@annehatesocd Yeah I’m so scared to be lesbian it’s like I’ve done things like watch prom even master bate to photos of girls but I had a porn addiction so I would masterbate to A lot of stuff and now I’m scared I am ughhh
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@cloudqueen I was sexually assaulted by a man for 3 years when I was a kid sooooo I’ve always been anxious around guys but before this even hit I was a 12 year old almost 13 year old girl and was like “I think I’m starting to like boys” and I remember having crushes and wanting boys to hold my hand and then being anxious around boys. My dad also I’ve seen go through depression and anger issues, leading to emotional abuse (he’s better now) so I’ve had quite a bad perception on guys. And ya one of my guy friends just recently disrespected me (slapped my vagina and grabbed my boob, I didn’t say anything but he knows we’re strictly friends, haven’t rlly talked to him much since) and ya. Idk I’m just so over this. Like I wanna marry a guy, but then when I get turned on by one I feel bad and dirty and I remember feeling like that when I was being sexually assaulted cause it brings back those memories. But then my ocd uses it as “it’s cause your gay” and I don’t get genuine arousal by girls and ugh it’s so damn frustrating. There’s only ever been one guy who I can get turned on by and not feel wrong with it and that was my ex who left 4 months ago and it’s been so hard without him :(
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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@cloudqueen My hocd has been on and off since I was 13 along with other obsessions since I was like 7.
AnonymousAnonymous
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@annehatesocd Yeah I understand I also have terriable self confidence and esteem so I get super nervous around guys I’m only 16 year old virgin and I’ve only kissed one boy so I’m scared about the porn I’ve watched and what over masterbated to means I’m lesbian
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