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Same my has been so bad lately I don’t even get anxious anymore and I’m Scared
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At some point, I had such an addiction asking a magic 8 ball questions like these.
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I still do lol.....I can’t even find a girl pretty anymore without wondering if I wanna be with her when I truly just wanna be her. I hate this :( do you feel like that at times to?
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@annehatesocd Yes I constantly wonder and analyze. I think we’re physically attractive and we need to learn we are okay with that. I usually just am jealous on how pretty a girl is. Like ugh she’s lucky. You know?
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@advice? Yeah there three specific girls that I was obsessed with because I wanted to look like and be them and now I’m scared that I’m a lesbian
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I did the magic 8 ball thing but with a coin
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@advice? Ya I’m like “omg can my waist be that small” or “can I be that curvy” or “can my boobs look like that in a shirt??” Or stuff like that cause then when I do look somewhat like them I feel so happy and am like “yes!”?? (which is rare) but it’s not like how I’ll drool over a boys chest or be like O.o
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@annehatesocd There’s three specific girls o was obsessed with because I wanted to be them and now I’m scared I’m a lesbian
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@cloudqueen Ya it’s making me obsess about girls looks....does this happen with you??
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@annehatesocd Yeah I’m so scared to be lesbian it’s like I’ve done things like watch prom even master bate to photos of girls but I had a porn addiction so I would masterbate to A lot of stuff and now I’m scared I am ughhh
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@cloudqueen I was sexually assaulted by a man for 3 years when I was a kid sooooo I’ve always been anxious around guys but before this even hit I was a 12 year old almost 13 year old girl and was like “I think I’m starting to like boys” and I remember having crushes and wanting boys to hold my hand and then being anxious around boys. My dad also I’ve seen go through depression and anger issues, leading to emotional abuse (he’s better now) so I’ve had quite a bad perception on guys. And ya one of my guy friends just recently disrespected me (slapped my vagina and grabbed my boob, I didn’t say anything but he knows we’re strictly friends, haven’t rlly talked to him much since) and ya. Idk I’m just so over this. Like I wanna marry a guy, but then when I get turned on by one I feel bad and dirty and I remember feeling like that when I was being sexually assaulted cause it brings back those memories. But then my ocd uses it as “it’s cause your gay” and I don’t get genuine arousal by girls and ugh it’s so damn frustrating. There’s only ever been one guy who I can get turned on by and not feel wrong with it and that was my ex who left 4 months ago and it’s been so hard without him :(
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@cloudqueen My hocd has been on and off since I was 13 along with other obsessions since I was like 7.
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@annehatesocd Yeah I understand I also have terriable self confidence and esteem so I get super nervous around guys I’m only 16 year old virgin and I’ve only kissed one boy so I’m scared about the porn I’ve watched and what over masterbated to means I’m lesbian
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I’ve completely lost myself. I can’t focus on my studies, I can’t go to the gym. Dang it I can’t even be around my male friends normally anymore. I got no idea why or how this happened but the only thing I know for sure is that I never questioned my sexuality neither doubted it. I never cared in general. I just liked girls. I keep testing and keep testing and keep testing my arousal but no matter how many times I see but I don’t feel the same way for guys that I do with girls my mind will always try to make me believe that I am gay. It’s like it’s forcing me into an identity I never asked for. But at the end of the day like my psychologist told me. Sexuality doesn’t change. So since I never felt anything for guys in my life it’s ocd. I’ve been up and down for 5 months now and while the last week I was feeling way better. Monday now and I’m back to zero. I just want to go back when everything was normal. I can’t keep living with this.
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I have been doing okay for the past week or so and was really happy i felt that i was getting back on track, but today i went on tiktok and i saw something triggering which was “i thought i was a lesbian for 4 years until i met my now boyfriend” and it triggered me very badly, i have been crying all day and i can’t seem to make myself feel okay. i feel like im lying to myself that im not lesbian and i truly want men, but when i get any thought about men it feels disgusting and wrong and not me, i don’t want men i feel so sick i want to get out of this. i always felt so happy as a lesbian im so stuck i don’t want to be with a man. i have a loving girlfriend i just want to be happy with her.
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I struggle with HOCD or SOOCD. I’m a married young woman to an amazing husband. I’ve had this since I was 16 but it only came in flair ups. However this round started in October, and it’s been really rough and I would just break down all the time. I went up on my medication and I actually noticed a difference! My thoughts were still very present but I wasn’t really paying attention to them or giving them power. HOWEVER right when I thought I was getting better, my brain started feeling and saying to myself that I just know I am bi but you want to make excuses for it like “oh it’s normal to find someone hot since we as a society have an interpretation of what that looks like” or “I see the girl as myself and that’s what ‘turns’ me on” or “well I mean that girl looks kind of like a man” and it’s it’s making me spiral. I won’t ever come out as Bi as deep in my soul I don’t feel I am. I have always wanted to be with men sexually and romantically and that has not changed but my brain is making me believe I am and I just don’t want to admit it. Please help me, what has helped you?
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