Does anyone feel like ocd makes u a cold person and more mean and heartless. I find myself being very lazy and not caring about things that i used to care about. When i watch the news i dont feel sympathy while i used to feel so much and my dream was so to help people, but if i say i still wanted that mow id be lying... i dont want to be lying but its just who i am now. Evergthing is so dark now and since i have hocd my mind also sexualizes eeevrything i hate it it sexualizes things i really dont want to hink about in a sexual way. It just has too much impact. Im also very mean in my head towards people, im not mean directly but i just think bad things. I used to genuinely be good and i wanted to do good but now ive lost hope aNd motivation and i feel drained and done. I miss being happy and being a good person. I miss who i was and i miss all the things that i loved and i miss loving those things. Im sick of forcing myself to be like my old self bevause it only brings anxiety trying to love and feel feelings for the things i used to love. Its just gone and i cant seen to do shit about it

Forreaal the only thing that this teached me is that u dont kno wtf people could be going trough. People who didnt had this are truly so damn lucky its insane. Imagine getting to live your life without having ur personality and soul being teared apart once.. and the people who never felt so numb that u cant enjoy shit anymore.. yall luucky asf

Yeah but its truly not me. Sometimes i feel so much like this is ke and like im deadasd a horrible person but deep down j know im not but i just cant get access to the real me somewhere deep down in a pit

@hocdgirlsummer YES I feel that!! I get you

I also cant stand when i think about how much potential i had. Like imagien how great i would make it if i didnt had hocd. How happy i couldve been how succesful, how i couldve had all my shit together and live my dream life. Imagine being able to live your life like the person u used to be before hocd. Damn i wouldbe killed this game i reallyy was truly happy. But now i gotta build my whole future (that im very not excired for) on my drained, hurt, damaged, twisted, messed up brained washed soul. Ifs just toxic and not healtny and i dont wanna grow up being this new person that hocd made out of me. I want to grow up and eveluate being the old me. Than i would actually learn things and grow as a person. This hocd isnt teaching me shit its just breaking me down and tearing me apart and now i have to build my future being like this? It couldbe been so good

@hocdgirlsummer Same I’m getting scared tho I have HOCD I’m straight but I had a thought of I have a crush on a guy that’s like weird and older I don’t even know it was random and I reacted with anxiety now I’m scared I’m lesbian

@hocdgirlsummer Like I’m quite concerned