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driving phobia
having a driving phobia in America is just miserable. I cant walk fucking anywhere. I live in the middle of nowhere. it takes me an hour to get to my job because of traffic. and btw I dont drive to work, my sister or dad does, because the anxiety is so bad I haven't driven anywhere besides my neighborhood with my parents since I was 16. and my sister is all in a tizzy cuz I was scheduled to work Friday and she just HAS to go to Pilates with her friend at the same time. my dad would have to redo his schedule to take me. and he wouldn't mind because hes so supportive. thats why im like my sister needs to help a bit to take the load off my dad. its just so stressful and I hate it because I LOVE my job. I worked so hard to get this job. SO HARD. I have been doing ERP for my social anxiety since last June and after all my hard work, I landed my dream part time job. the universe finally threw me a bone. my mom and my sister keep stressing about it telling me to email my boss to reschedule me. I have been working on ERP for driving for months as well. but I am in no way able to get to the level where I could drive into a tourist beach town in insane traffic this summer yet. my job is only seasonal. I dont practice driving enough due to the extreme anxiety so I am super rusty with rules of the road. last time I was on a highway was drivers ed and that was 6 years ago. so I am working on it. I don't have public transport near me. I could uber I suppose? I don't want to be a hassle, but at the same time I wish my sister expressed how she knew this was important to me and wanted to help instead of be annoyed at me. and yes, she's allowed to have her life. but I don't ask her for anything. all im asking is for her to just help me out a little. im asking for her to sacrifice a friend date now and then. and btw she sees the same friends 24/7 so I am not asking something unreasonable for her to just move forward her hang out an hour. I may have some friends I can ask to drive me. hopefully that'll work out.