d126
- Date posted
- 5y ago
isssss93isssss93
- Date posted
- 5y ago
I use to have those thoughts as well. Those thoughts later drove me to break up with the guy I was with. But eventually I realized that the only reason I had those thoughts was because I was so afraid of losing my partner that created fear and checking. Which then led to looking at any little thing that I did not like about my partner and obsessing about it more. For me it was just a fear. A fear of committment, a fear of being vulnerable to love, and a fear of my partner not being perfect. But you have to realize that no one will ever be and focus on the happy moments. The reason you fefear because in the back of your mind you probably do not want to lose him as your partner. Which means you truly do care.
pureolifepureolife
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Yup! Everyone needs space from their partner and distance makes the heart grow fonder, as they say. At first, you likely won’t miss then and simply appreciate some time being just yourself again. But eventually you’ll likely start to miss them, with enough time. If you can’t be without your partner for a few days without falling apart, I’d consider that a much less healthy relationship. Codependency isnt love.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
My opinion ROCD I go through the same shit it’s awful but try and ride it out
hiitsemmyhiitsemmy
- Date posted
- 5y ago
This is ROCD! The most important thing is to recognize it! Trust me, I have the exact same situation as you do, we can do it! Honestly learning about rocd like watching videos and reading really helps me recognize that those thoughts that I experience are irrational and emotionally driven- not driven by fact
d126d126
- Date posted
- 5y ago
But how do you not wonder if this is worth exploring? There’s so much pressure around me to get engaged and I just can’t imagine that right now. Also his family and going away with him causes crippling anxiety as well. It’s hard to ignore this.
hiitsemmyhiitsemmy
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@df126 It is incredibly difficult, trust me, I have broken up with my boyfriend twice because of my obsessions and an incredible urge that he was not right for me. Its not that you cant wonder whether its worth exploring or not; do everything on your own time. Its incredibly important to recognize your symptoms when you get them (eg: second guessing your love, constantly wondering whether he’s the right person, etc) when you find the pattern, you will find the key. Meaning really focus on what may make your ocd flare up and work with the situations! Educate yourself on this rocd, it has helped me so much
hiitsemmyhiitsemmy
- Date posted
- 5y ago
@sorryitsemmy Maybe read up on rocd and watch videos. iocdf.org has stories under subtypes of ocd and intrusivethoughts.org has many resources. Apart from those resources, you will find many more and knowledge really is the best thing you can have in your situation
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Are irrational thoughts always emotionally driven?
elleeenelleeen
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Me too, i do it all the time. I hate it
d126d126
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Unfortunately it just doesn’t feel that way. I’ve ran scenarios in my head of him leaving or giving me a reason to break up and it relieves me.
pureolifepureolife
- Date posted
- 5y ago
Maybe you don’t want to be with him. Or maybe you feel relief because you know you’d no longer have to deal with ROCD about him if he were gone. In a sense, that would be a relief. But it will follow you into future relationships if you don’t deal with the OCD.
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