I got yelled at about my OCD today. I got up to wash my hands and it took a minute because obsessive hand washing is stupid. My grandmother asked what I was doing and I explained and my mom said that I don’t really need to wash my hands that much but I do it anyways. Whole point of the whole OCD thing. OBSESSIVE. Then we moved on to the topic of showers because I got a new speaker. I take 40-60 minute showers. My mom told me that I CAN shower in 10-15 minutes, but I’m not trying hard enough. She doesn’t understand that I’ve tried to take shorter showers or not wash my hands as much but then I get thrown into a panic because what if I get sick and die because I didn’t kill all of the germs. I just wish I had friends with OCD that live in my area. Wishful thinking. Anyways, the inevitable panic attack happened about 2 hours into my morning. How was your Christmas? Mine was just peachy.

EXACTLY! My mom tells me I need to stop letting it take over my life and ignore it. She doesn’t understand and it makes me really upset. I hate family gatherings too because the rest of my family is also like that. I trust like 5 people to talk to about it which is my best friends and a teacher.

@ipulledagracie I only really trust one person to talk to about it, as I feel like she's the only person that understand that it can definitely get out of my control. Everyone else seems to elevate my guilt for "not doing anything to stop it" because apparently, you could just wake up one day and stop being OCD! What a perfect life!

No. I have such a busy schedule and my mom wants to wait until the summer. I’ve been trying to tell her that I need one sooner.

@ipulledagracie I think OCD needs treatment and will not go away by itself. Maybe you could educate your mom about ocd.

@Fini That’s what I’m trying to do but then she says that I need to “stop being obsessive about being obsessive”