I've been struggling with ruminations and worry

I don't have typical on ritualistic OCD I believe my OCD is more obsessive worry ruminations I have ADHD as well so that leads to disorganized mind and preoccupations and leads to procrastinating a lot. My OCD centers around being obsessed about my body which some believe is more of a body dysmorphia the flaws of my stomach and chest my particularly get hung up on even when people say I look fine for my age which is 51. I do wake up with ruminations I'm on leave from work right now to manage mental illness in a program medication has had very minimal help possibly just for the ADHD but nothing for the OCD at all I'm starting with a therapist this week from this platform and I'm looking forward to talking to her about perfectionism in the OCD Loop that I get trapped in it's been very difficult since moving into in September to a new place with my girlfriend and her two sons I had lived alone for more than 10 years so getting acclimated to having a bigger mess in an older son who keeps to himself and seems to press also has been difficult feels like there's a lot of negative energy and we're not comfortable around each other her other son is in college quite a bit but will be ending soon I don't feel comfortable in my own home which is triggering anxiety and possibly more OCD so I feel stuck and I don't have the resources right now to get out of this financially it's difficult to get my own place. Sorry for the rant there's just been so much going on in my head I know I have a good compassionate strong side of me but I have been treating my girlfriend with resentment somewhat angry at her for this whole living situation and I know it's just my obsessive nature I'm also in substance abuse recovery for the past two years and just have been throwing all different medications at that it's been a healing Journey the past few days have been a big step back but I know I have to keep moving forward and not isolate myself which lends towards the more ruminations I ask God to clear my thoughts and to have a better day tomorrow than I have today. I have two adult daughters one with ADHD also I want to see them grow and flourish see grandchildren but my OCD is trying to take me out of the picture entirely playing the old story if not being worthy and all the challenge trauma over and over. If anyone can relate at all please share thank you and God bless

Mid-life adults with OCD

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 13h

It appears you have quite a bit to unravel. You've taken an excellent step in retaining a trained OCD therapist. S/he will probably introduce you to ERP therapy, which is the gold standard for OCD treatment. Stick with the therapy, and you'll get results. Concerning your living arrangement, I married a woman with three kids, high school to college age. I moved from my home into hers. The smartest thing I did was not to press her kids. I let them be themselves, especially the boy, who was wary of me. Over time, we've gotten close. In my humble opinion, the things to keep in mind is it's not all about you. Your girlfriend and her kids have lives and pasts, too, If you try to force them to adhere to your rules you'll lose them. Hope this helps.

ezzieorsomet...

Date posted: 12h

Pure "O" or thought based OCD is totally valid. My compulsions don't really involve doing anything grand. Most of the time it's just rumination or intense mental reveiwng this also counts as ocd. I will also say, I have ADHD as well, and am taking medication for it. I find that my ADHD medication actually helps a bit with my constant OCD ruminations, it makes the thoughts less sticky. I would say the fastest way to look into treatment for ADHD or receiving medication is to speak to a psychiatrist. I know when people go through other doctors they make you take all these expensive tests.

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