hocdgirlsummer
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- 5y
AnxietyGuyAnxietyGuy
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- 5y
Well said Believe! Thanks!
AnxietyGuyAnxietyGuy
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- 5y
I want you to know that even though it doesn’t seem like it right now hocdgirlsummer you WILL love again. I’ll tell you a bit about my story. My wife whom I was married to for six years and was with her a total of ten years told me one day nine months ago that she no longer wanted to be with me. At the time she told me this I was going through the worst time of my life dealing with my OCD. She left me when I needed her the most. When she left I had learn how to drive myself around again. I had to learn how to go out in public again without her by my side to reassure me I wouldn’t or didn’t do the things I thought about during my obsessions. I was bitter. The day of our divorce hearing she had the tenacity to let her new boyfriend bring her to the courthouse. After that day I sank back down deep in depression again. But after a few weeks I realized that if she couldn’t stay with me when I needed her the most, she wasn’t worth me getting upset missing her. All of us have an inner positive truth that goes far beyond our OCD. That positive light keeps shining bright as our truth, and one day someone will pick up on that positive energy and we WILL love again. I hope this message finds you well. Take care my friend.
hocdgirlsummerhocdgirlsummer
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- 5y
Hey:) thanks for the message! Personally ive never been in a relationship of something but i know what its like to be in love. But hocd makes it hard to feel attraction to man and i havenr felt it in so long. Thats why im scared i will never fall in love again... the feeling just isnt present anymore and it leaves me so empty.. im so glad to hear ur doing okay after all the shit youve been trouhh! Thanks for responding
AnxietyGuyAnxietyGuy
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- 5y
Your very welcome? Feel free to write me anytime.
hocdgirlsummerhocdgirlsummer
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I will :) i have a question tho, did u went trought hocd?
cnvcnv
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I am 17 and I feel that too
hocdgirlsummerhocdgirlsummer
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Im 17 too, i feel like im in the whole wrong place then where I should’ve been...
cnvcnv
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@hocdgirlsummer Exactttttly the same
honorroll1honorroll1
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Im 23 and feel the exact same way too
AnxietyGuyAnxietyGuy
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- 5y
Of course I think about my next love every single day. Even though I haven’t met her yet it gives me hope because I know that somewhere out there you know that she will arrive and that someone will surely arrive for you too. I think of if this way. I read a quote once that has impacted my positive driving force. It was: “As above so below as within so without.” I’ve thought about the meaning of this ever since I read it and I interpret it like this: as above meaning when you look around you and see people that you perceive to be happier than you or in better shape or they are very much in love and it makes you feel empty inside you are SO BELOW them...then that day arrives when that special person comes into your life by what seems like impossible means and you’re filled WITHIN with so much love and emotion.... then the universe gives your sorrow to someone else so then you are SO without.... then it all starts over again and that person will be found by love someday....
hocdgirlsummerhocdgirlsummer
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- 5y
So beautiful spoken. I will wait for this day to come
AnxietyGuyAnxietyGuy
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Good luck to you dear.
hocdgirlsummerhocdgirlsummer
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- 5y
You too!!
BelieveInYourselfBelieveInYou...
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You never know the future! It's not necessary that these thoughts stay with you. You can know what love is! When you're down it's normal to feel like this. Things get better. ?
hocdgirlsummerhocdgirlsummer
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Thanks for the support ❤️
AnxietyGuyAnxietyGuy
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You’re welcome
AnxietyGuyAnxietyGuy
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Our truth keeps marching on...
AnxietyGuyAnxietyGuy
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I have experienced it yes.
hocdgirlsummerhocdgirlsummer
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- 5y
Good to know you still foundd love! Gives me hope :)
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