fear of being arrested

does anybody literally fear that they will be arrested for something? like there was a few things like 7 or 8 years ago that I have been in terror that I'll be arrested for and publicly humiliated. and then something when I was a kid that I can't remember happened for sure. like I haven't had an police contact me or any notifications or development in those stories but it feels so vivid that any day could be my last. and I can't focus as work or make any plans because I'm about to move and I want to be excited for it but I just feel dread that my life will be over. and I spend hours researching and trying to remember and looking at the laws around it.

💤

Date posted: 20h

Idk if this is tbe same but sometimes I post something on here and I convince mtself the fbi are reading it and then are gonna send a team to arrest me for posting a thought or past action I did even tho i kind of know it wont happen I always delete the post and sit 'waitinf' to be arrested 😭😭 its so silly but I do fear it

bluebird27

Date posted: 20h

I've literally had similar things with that with Google searches or ai chatbots. and then researching what their policies are and data retention and how it works and carefully deleting each search

marie811

Date posted: 12h

@bluebird27 SAME!! i deleted my chatgpt account for fear it’ll leak, ive sent nothing illegal but very very personal things

marie811

Date posted: 12h

@💤 friend don’t take this the wrong way because when i tell my own sister some fears she dies laughing in my face about them and it helps haha, your post made me laugh hard because i can relate and at the same time recognize how ridiculous it is in the best way possible 😭

alan87

Date posted: 19h

I can understand this! While it isn’t a theme of my OCD, I have had rumination’s about what ‘what if I did something while I was drunk as a teenager or in college and I don’t remember it?’ Like, I committed a crime but I don’t know about it. My current theme is what if I lose control or lose my mind and hurt someone I love? Then I’ll be arrested, and then I’ll imagine what jail is like, etc. I hate it. OCD sux!

bluebird27

Date posted: 19h

it's actually kinda a new theme for me. it seems like my OCD changes throughout my life. like I see in media like it's someone who does one thing their whole life and there definitely are some compulsions that stay but it seems like it changes over time what the major thing is. a couple years ago it was religion, before that contamination. and now it's like consumed entirely by real event ocd

alan87

Date posted: 19h

@bluebird27 I understand what you mean. It was contamination for me when the pandemic started and then that changed into HOCD, ROCD, and all that. You are not alone 🫶 We are not alone 🫶 Jesus loves us :)

abbyg@tor

Date posted: 18h

It’s not exactly the same but as a college student I always worry that I plagiarized or cheated without knowing and then I’ll be reported and kicked out of school. It sucks. But OCD attacks our morals, so this fear just means you care about doing the right thing.

JK1426

Date posted: 16h

It’s probably not the same but I have a similar fear. I have seen a lot of really bad stuff in my younger days at parties etc.. but I have also seen some just as gnarly stuff sober in my adult life. . Now did I cause them or ask for it? No. But I always feel like someone is gona knock at my door with questions just for being there, or around. And it terrifies me. And then my ocd kicks in. Now my searches are odd and bizarre , rumination etc I’m sure you can imagine the rest lol but it’s ironic in that we have ocd and we aren’t our thoughts :) I’ve noticed most of us have a STRONG moral compass and it’s like we’re almost penalized for actually caring more.

bluebird27

Date posted: 16h

yes! because I'm actually so envious of people who do bad things in a strange way because I never felt like I have a choice one way or the other. and not that I want to be bad but it's like OCD is this oppressive master that guarantees you do things one particular way.

JK1426

Date posted: 15h

@bluebird27 That or people can go through life without ruminating or feeling bad , and here I am feeling bad for stuff that I shouldn’t. That’s ocd for ya smh

bluebird27

Date posted: 15h

@JK1426 yes and that's the worst thing about getting into a disagreement for me is whether I like it or not I'm going to go days agonizing over every detail of the interaction while they are going to move on

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