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Play with your niece,stop avoiding her let the thoughts be there,they are automatically generated they are not from you,Do not react with fear,Stop analyzing, ruminating and try to find their purpose,You shall have tremendous anxiety,guilt,shame and all sorts of feelings that’s part of OCD.Go to parks toy stores and let the thoughts be there ,They are false.Expose yourself to fears it is your only way out.These thoughts will come but don’t forget you are opposite of them.Don’t react to them with fear.The more you react with fear the more your brain ? register these thoughts as important and it will send you more of them inorder to protect you.TRY VERY HARD NOT TO PAY ATTENTION TO THEM AND GO ON WITH YOUR DAY.RECOVERY IS POSSIBLE AND FOLLOW YOUR VALUES MY BROTHER INSTEAD OF YOUR THOUGHTS ?
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I just got home from residential and sleep w my mom when I have a hard time (20 yr old female). Her hand touched me while she was sleeping and I had a full on panic attack. Did I like it? Did I force her? Was I aroused? It’s so hard. You’re not alone, and you’re not a problem or predator. It’s ocd
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It can be so overwhelming though
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@Lynnrich Agree but with more exposures acceptance mindfulness and no self loothing it will get better.It is an everyday practice.Is it easy?HELL NO but things will get better
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I can totally relate. The thoughts race around my head like someone else has control of my mind. Mine started years ago with hocd, but now it’s gone into pocd with specifically my 2 year old granddaughter as the focal point. When I get theses thoughts I want to kill myself. It is the most disgusting thing I’ve ever thought of
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My brother used to walk down the middle of the road to avoid pavements where he might brush into someone. Said he preferred to get run over than risk brushing against a young girl. Even when doing that he would still ask for reassurance that he hadnt made contact with anyone.
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His behaviour was 10x more extreme than any other case I’ve come across & now he’s almost completely cured.
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I hate being touched I had family gatherings last 2 days both days I broke down contamination ocd cant touch people or things or objects or they cant touch me causes massive problems . I'm 44 years old had this 23 years but this theme is new since july I bloody hate it . Hope ur ok it's so hard when around others
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Hello inkblack, Please know that my heart goes out to you. Thank you so much for your courage and strength in sharing your post. I'm a 39 y/o male who has suffered from POCD and Harm OCD for many, many years. OCD is an atrocious illness, and it has robbed me of so much. I'm determined to beat this. Through love, support, medicine, CBT, and ERP, I hope to eventually get to the point in my life where OCD takes a back seat, instead of being a main driver. I have taken Paroxetine (Paxil), 30mg/day for a long time, and it has been good for me. You may want to inquire about with your doctor to see if it may help you. Be assured of my prayers and thoughts. Wishing you much healing and wellness.
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In health, Determined
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Worried about situation that happened with nephew new memory or not idk I'm scared Worried about situation that happened with nephew I'm so scared when I was holding my nephew I thought " I wonder if this would sexually stimulate him" ( not the exact words don't want to be extremely graphic) I began to bump him like how people bump babies on their hips he was on my stomach cuz that's how he was handed to me. Now I fear I remember also thinking if his diaper would stimulate his private part or something like that IDK LIKE I FEEL LIKE I REMEMBER THINKING THAT BUT ALSO DON'T??? LIKE O FEEL LIKE maybe I thought this at a different time for whatever weird reason but then I'm scared that it makes sense it would happen when I held him. Does it change the situation?????I feel extremely sick because I don't know why I would think that or if it was my brain or me. Idk if it was or wasn't cuz I felt his diaper against me? Was I curious if it would? It feels like I was curious but wth why???Was it just something weird I thought? Am I actually a monster? I had been having disturbing thoughts I'm pretty sure that were related to my POCD in general for a while before that. Ik my nephew didn't get hurt but I'm so scared why would I do something like that I feel so sick and disgusted. I know away from that situation I have no sexual interest or attraction towards him I'm just so freaked out and disgusted. I don't wanna be a bad person and I don't want my worst fear to be true.
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POCD I was holding my nephew, he's a newborn, and he was getting hungry so he started squirming around and grazed my chest (yes I was fully clothed). Of course, that caused anxious groinals.. It didn't feel bad in the moment just very very anxious feelings, and without thinking, I was holding his head still right there and I was moving it closer in that spot (at least felt that way) to make the feeling continue I guess. It felt like an urge because of the groinals. It was such an anxious all over my body feeling. I was so anxious and triggered by that feeling. It's like my groinals were so intense I automatically leaned into them? So I ended up having another groinal. After that I put the baby down and realized what had happened. Did I just hurt my nephew without consciously realizing it till after? Is this OCD?
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Havent been on in a while but todays rough. Had a major ocd episode. Its literally ocd number one million different iteration In summary i saw teen boys had intrusive thoughts. Looked away. Moved my foot which had a groinal and the pcd hyperfixation of them being in my side view and the additional intrusive thoughts saying “the false attraction and groinal non concordance means i aroused over them” followed by intense gut wrenching guilt sick to my stomach is what ocd is making me ruminate and provlem solve and feel guilt and stuck and question y intention even thiugh i know my true self. Also i tried doing what others have said by responding “maybe, maybe not” and just agreeing with the thought to shut it up. I know i wasnt arousing over thr boys and wasnt checking tbem out and im not a pedophile and not attracted to teen boys or boys/men period. I know groinals are a natural occurence and ocd symptom . I just had this random intense ocd episode. I was standing at the store and seen two teenage kids. I had intrusive thought they were handsome but i dont think they were handsome. I looked away but still seen them in the corner of my eyes and i adjust my foot which caused a groinal. I looked at them and their mom twice i think then looked away but my ocd hyperfocused on them in my peripheal view and since i had a groinal ocd had followed up with another intrusivr thought saying this means i aroused over them and its pedophilic and then i felt a gut wrenching disgust and guilt. I dont want any of this. I know im not a pedophile. I know i wasnt checking them out or arousing myself. I just was looking at people like normal and had intrusivr thoughts and groinals. I looked away as a compulsion but since i still seen them in my peripheal and didnt completely block them out ocd says it means i wanted to see them and chrck tbem out and arouse myself. This is ego dystonic. Its causing me extreme distress and gut wrenching guilt. I dont even think theyre handsome and im not a pedophile. Ocd makes me feel guilty and doubt if i did something wrong. These intrusive thoughts and feelings are intense It all happened so fast i saw the boys. I had the ocd thoughts. I looked twice. I felt anxiety so looked away but still seen thrm in my sode view and ocd was hyperfocused screaming to me theyre there like a lion was next to me. I simply moved my foot which caused a groinal reaction. Then ocd followed with the intrusivr thought “you aroused yourself youre a pedo” etc and then the gut wrenching guilt and dosgust followed but i know its ego dystonic and not who i am and ocd thought number one million because ive had this before. A compulsion would be closing my eyes or looking away so they wouldnt even be in my peripheal and since i only partially looked away ocd said it means i was doing something inappropriate but i knoe thats not true I know i was already feeling anxious because of the large crowd. I know i was just looking in their general direction nothing wrong and had intrusivr thoughts. Then i looked away at a guy next to me to distract myself from these intrusive thoughts and from the boys. Plus me looking away to the guy and all i did was move my foot and that motion plus the anxiety caused a groinal. So OCD said “you aroused over the boys= POCD” and since i basiclaly did a semi compulsion semi erp i looked away to avoid the kids but still could see them in my peripheal view thats when ocd played on it and said i didnt fully avoid them so i mustve aroused over them but i know its all ego dystonic. A real pedophile wouldnt feel guilt or anxiety or discomfort or gut wrenching feelings and wouldnt avoid looking. Theyd look and enjoy it. I was extremelt uncomfortable and the groinal was uncomfortable. I dont even think the boys were good looking. Its the gut wrenching guilt symptom of ocd and the intrusive thougjts that make it feel real and keep stuck in the loop In summary i saw teen boys had intrusive thoughts. Looked away. Moved my foot which had a groinal and the pcd hyperfixation of them being in my side view and the additional intrusive thoughts saying “the false attraction and groinal non concordance means i aroused over them” followed by intense gut wrenching guilt sick to my stomach is what ocd is making me ruminate and provlem solve and feel guilt and stuck and question y intention even thiugh i know my true self. Also i tried doing what others have said by responding “maybe, maybe not” and just agreeing with the thought to shut it up. I know i wasnt arousing over thr boys and wasnt checking tbem out and im not a pedophile and not attracted to teen boys or boys/men period. I know groinals are a natural occurence and ocd symptom
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