Since I’ve moved countries and away from everything I’ve ever known, my depersonalization has been so bad. I don’t even know who I am anymore, I don’t recognize myself. I’m so lonely, I have no friends, and no family, nothing I know or feel comfort in. I feel so isolated to the point there’s constantly a brick on my chest. I don’t know what to do anymore, I’ve just got married but I’m seriously considering going home. I miss home. I miss me. I miss being able to feel comfort.

Hello, minfoy. I can completely understand why you are feeling the way you do, as OCD, by it's very nature, tends to cause fear about any type of changes that are made. And let's face it....change and especially making a move to a new geographical location tends to be scary, even for people without OCD. So it is normal and completely understandable for someone with OCD to feel even more trepidation about this. But you are not alone in your feelings, as there are many others, throughout this large world of ours, that feel the same way you do. I am one of them, as I have felt a lot of sadness and have greatly missed each place that i have moved from. And although i have not moved very much in my life, I know how unsettling it feels. It is also hard when you have lived in a certain place for a long time and then you move, as you miss it even more. I can also understand how it is even tougher when you move very far away from where you were before. My advice is to seek out social organizations or groups that you can join that will give you the opportunity to make new friends in your area. Are you familiar with the application called Meetup? It is a great way to join groups of people who are looking to make friends and be social. I don't know what country you live in, but if you find that Meetup does not have anything in your country, i'm sure you can find other applications like it, if you do an online search. Just remember that you are never alone. You have your husband, you have us on this application....and you have everyone in the world who is struggling with OCD and understands your feelings. I hope this helps. All the best to you! ❤

You’re right, I think I’m fighting getting comfortable? I don’t know how to explain it. It’s nice to meet you too!

I know exactly what you’re saying. OCD tends to create those feelings, but don’t let it get you down. You will be ok! You got this! ?

We, as humans, are creatures of habit and crave the comfort of familiar surroundings, so what you are feeling is not just OCD, but of course, the OCD does amplify it. Give yourself time to adjust to your new home in the new country. Also, try to think of ways that you can make a cozy and comfortable home with your husband. And in time, you will adjust to your new home and surroundings and it will truly feel like "home" to you. Remember how you felt when you first moved into the last place you lived? It probably didn't feel safe or like home right away, as it takes time to adjust to a new home. Give it time and be patient with yourself. And give yourself the opportunity to build a cozy and beautiful home with your new husband. You can do it! I believe in you! ?

Hey! Just read your reply and you are very welcome! I think it is so cool that you are from the UK! I've wanted to visit there for a long time; especially London! That is great news that you are in the United States as I feel confident that you will probably be able to find things on Meetup in your area. And Btw, it is very nice to meet you!