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Hey Anne. This feeling is very common with hOCD. I had it too a few times in my life. And listen to me now: you are NOT going to solve this by obsessively trying to fight or disprove the thoughts and feelings you have. The only thing that will help is to continue life like your OCD isn't there. It's hard. Very hard at first. But after one day of (mostly) ignoring the OCD you will already feel better!! Take back your life! You are really not alone and this disease is just what it is: a disease that can not and will not ever have any impact on your sexual orientation or interests!
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But I’m scared it’s not ocd even tho I have been diagnosed by a doctor ?
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@annehatesocd Yes Anne this is exactly what OCD does. When you threathen it, it says 'but what if it isn't ocd?' This is also a very common thing so again you're not alone :) You KNOW it's OCD, otherwise you wouldn't be on this forum. It might feel like it's real, but it really, really isn't.
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@annehatesocd It will also say things like 'But what if you're happier with OCD influencing your life?' and 'But what if you will get bored without OCD?' These are all scare tactics your mind makes up to keep you in this bad habit. And once you start to get free of your OCD, you will see that you are way happier and way more productive without it! :)
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@blenderboi I know in a way it is but everything feels so distorted. Like idk who I am anymore. I just want to be able to be straight and not worry I’m forcing it.....I’m getting anxiety by just saying that. That I’m forcing myself to be straight and not gay, even though i want to eventually end up with a guy and have since I was a little girl, I’m still scared. It feels like I can never find who I am again:( Like I have just gotten confident in my personality and figured out what I want to do with my life. But my ocd (mainly hocd) has been giving me absolute fucking hell. I’ve had it on and off since I was 13 and it’s been so scary and now I’m 17 and it still hasn’t gone away. I just wanna go to college next year straight and not worrying and dating a guy but I guess I can’t :( Does all that sound like ocd as well?? Honestly I can’t even get reassurance anymore nothing reassures me
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@annehatesocd Also my ocd says “only gay people say they want to be straight” and so I get anxiety saying I want to be straight because I feel like that means I’m just gay and in denial. Ughhhh I hate this
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@annehatesocd Hey that's not true. Straight people think they wanna be straight too. Really, don't worry about this. Also I'm in the same boat as you are. I finally figured out who I am and what I wanted to do and then OCD hit me again and I couldn't focus on anything. I know that feeling of having lost yourself.. What helps for me is to share these thoughts and feelings with someone I trust very much (my dad). Getting it out there in the open makes it fade away overtime for some reason
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Im a straight man and sometimes I make the mistake of compulsively getting on here. It’s gotten better but I slip sometimes. I feel like I’m alone in this and I even read on some OCD page that Women are more likely to suffer from this theme than Men. That just makes me feel like I’m in denial of some sort. I feel alone and feel like my intrusive thoughts are different. I know that’s what everyone who has ocd thinks, but I can’t help shake the feeling like what if I’m lying to myself or what if I have some underlying secret. I don’t want to be gay. I find I argue with myself in my head over and over and sometimes by repeating “I don’t want to be gay, I want to be straight” I’ll end up saying the opposite and that would scare me even though I know that It happened because I’m constantly fighting with OCD. Just feeling a bit down today. I had a sexual dream about an ex girlfriend and it felt great and I’m not scared by it. I find and want to be with Women romantically til forever.
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I’m trying to live with uncertainty but it doesn’t feel right. The “I may or may not be bi/gay” really sucks because I can’t stop ruminating, analyzing, or checking. This especially sucks because I feel like literally EVERYTHING in my life leads to the fact that I’m a fraud which feels horrible. I can’t even talk to my friends the way I used to without feeling like I’m lying about myself. The false attraction and loss of attraction to men is literally horrible because now I feel like the life i fantasized for myself isn’t something I want.
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So I haven’t been on this app in a while. But I just want advice on how to overcome this. I’m now 18 and I’ve been trying out dating apps. I’m not gonna lie I’m kinda picky when it comes to dating only because I plan on dating to marry…so I take it a bit more seriously. But for some reason it’s so hard to click with people on these dating apps. So my friend was helping me through this dating apps process. I told her that I wasn’t interested in this guy I was texting anymore because of the way he was responding to my messages. And she says maybe you’re gay…this is honestly the sixth time (I’m definitely over exaggeration but this isn’t the first time someone had said this to me) someone has ask/said this. Every time someone says this it literally sends me down this spiral of are they seeing something I’m not seeing. Despite never having a crush on a girl my mind goes down this loop of overthinking. And when I say I don’t want that lifestyle or I don’t really find pleasure in being apart of the lgbtq community my mind is like in denial. I just wanted to have a fun teenage dating experience and now every time I open the app I always think what if I really am gay and I’m just in denial…or what if the reason why I’m not connecting with anyone is because I’m really into girls. Since i’m also religious, my mom wants to go what you’re denying who we are because of your religion. And I tried to reassure myself by saying I would know if that was the case like I would feel deep down who I’m truly attracted to and know that I’m trying to cover it up by dating men. This whole thing is so mentally taxing because I was going through this all throughout my senior year of high school and I’m not going into my freshman year of college so. Like I literally felt so much anxiety next to one of my classmates who was gay and a masculine presenting. I feel like if I would’ve told this to anyone, they’d say of course you’re in denial. But ig reply if you can relate
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