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blenderboiblenderboi
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Hey Anne. This feeling is very common with hOCD. I had it too a few times in my life. And listen to me now: you are NOT going to solve this by obsessively trying to fight or disprove the thoughts and feelings you have. The only thing that will help is to continue life like your OCD isn't there. It's hard. Very hard at first. But after one day of (mostly) ignoring the OCD you will already feel better!! Take back your life! You are really not alone and this disease is just what it is: a disease that can not and will not ever have any impact on your sexual orientation or interests!
hate_ocd.123hate_ocd.123
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But I’m scared it’s not ocd even tho I have been diagnosed by a doctor ?
blenderboiblenderboi
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@annehatesocd Yes Anne this is exactly what OCD does. When you threathen it, it says 'but what if it isn't ocd?' This is also a very common thing so again you're not alone :) You KNOW it's OCD, otherwise you wouldn't be on this forum. It might feel like it's real, but it really, really isn't.
blenderboiblenderboi
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@annehatesocd It will also say things like 'But what if you're happier with OCD influencing your life?' and 'But what if you will get bored without OCD?' These are all scare tactics your mind makes up to keep you in this bad habit. And once you start to get free of your OCD, you will see that you are way happier and way more productive without it! :)
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@blenderboi I know in a way it is but everything feels so distorted. Like idk who I am anymore. I just want to be able to be straight and not worry I’m forcing it.....I’m getting anxiety by just saying that. That I’m forcing myself to be straight and not gay, even though i want to eventually end up with a guy and have since I was a little girl, I’m still scared. It feels like I can never find who I am again:( Like I have just gotten confident in my personality and figured out what I want to do with my life. But my ocd (mainly hocd) has been giving me absolute fucking hell. I’ve had it on and off since I was 13 and it’s been so scary and now I’m 17 and it still hasn’t gone away. I just wanna go to college next year straight and not worrying and dating a guy but I guess I can’t :( Does all that sound like ocd as well?? Honestly I can’t even get reassurance anymore nothing reassures me
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@annehatesocd Also my ocd says “only gay people say they want to be straight” and so I get anxiety saying I want to be straight because I feel like that means I’m just gay and in denial. Ughhhh I hate this
blenderboiblenderboi
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@annehatesocd Hey that's not true. Straight people think they wanna be straight too. Really, don't worry about this. Also I'm in the same boat as you are. I finally figured out who I am and what I wanted to do and then OCD hit me again and I couldn't focus on anything. I know that feeling of having lost yourself.. What helps for me is to share these thoughts and feelings with someone I trust very much (my dad). Getting it out there in the open makes it fade away overtime for some reason
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