Can HOCD cause unwanted thoughts about “coming out”. Like “just come out already.” Because I do not like the sexual images and thoughts I’m having.

I know for a fact I'm no where near straight, it's just like another me in my head telling me that if we're straight life would be easier. But it's a constant battle in my head that goes on and on and on. But in my heart it's girls, in my head it's girls, but that voice goes against anything I think or do

@Abri How did you know you were gay? (Not trying to be offensive by asking, sorry if I am) I struggle with what I think is hocd. I don’t want to be with a girl I want to be with a guy. But it’s almost like I don’t have a choice and I have to be with a girl and it makes me sad (I think) and rlly anxious. I’m scared I do want it :(

@annehatesocd Well try it with a guy and a female and if u like it then you like it if you don't like it with a girl than it makes it easier for you to find out. I nvr caught feeling for guys, but I was instantly attracted to girls.

I’m scared mine is not hocd though. I’m scared I’m just trying to blame my denial on that. How do we know it’s hocd? Like legitmately, I’m not trying to ask for reassurance.

@annehatesocd this itself is a symptom of hocd , wanting to know for sure and not trusting yourself when you've got a solution , it helps me to think about that if you are worrying about your sexuality or whether your gay or straight it generally means your straight because you're having unwanted thought over it

@LucyOlivia It sometimes just feels like I’m a lesbian who wants to date guys but I can’t cause I don’t have feelings for them and the false feelings I do have for girls give me so much anxiety and make me sad. Does that sound like hocd as well? :(

@annehatesocd the feeling that you want to date guys sounds like you have some sort of attraction to them but hocd may be pushing them back (i don't know if this is true but from what i can understand ) but i think that this is hocd as you are having unwanted intrusive thought that are causing you anxiety or distress , it helps me to remeber that sexuality doesn't matter and i don't need to know what it is right now i could be bisexual for now but in the future change and realise i don't like girls , i myself am straight but to help me overcome hocd i tell myself that sexuality doesn't matter and it doesn't change who i am , but to answer your question i think it does sound like you have hocd (sorry this is so long )

@LucyOlivia Did you ever experience these types of feelings? It’s more of it’s not I can’t date guys, I can, I’m more scared to. As I’m scared I don’t actually like them. Or I’m going to find out I don’t or something. Does this all truly sound like hocd or more like I could be bi? You can be honest

@LucyOlivia I’m really scared :(

@annehatesocd i feel like it sounds like both , i don't know you but from what your explain you could possible like guys but your hocd isn't allowing it , but i get these feeling multiple times a day , i'm only sexualy attracted to boys but the thought of being with a girl isn't bad to me it's just not i would chose if that makes sense but the fact i admit this causes me anxiety as in some way my brain is twisting it to say that that must mean i like girls , when down in my heart i don't and i don't beleive i would ever act in a relation with a girl (this could change in the future though) but you have plenty of time to experiment with both genders and if you realise you don't like guys that's completely fine but being who you are and liking who you like is okay , i know you can get through this

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I've known I was gay sence I was born. In pre school my first crush was a girl, she was also my first friend. My first kiss was a girl. Can't say the same for my first time. I've never been attracted to a guy before. And I probably never will. But I love guys as friends, but I have never seen my self with one. And r u saying being gay is bad bc that is my greatest achievment