when i’m waking up it feels so real that i actually want it, but its not a good feeling. And after a while i get anxiety. And then i have anxiety rest of the day. Can anyone relate?

No relax, its okey... anybody can say that. Hocd is just playing tricks on you

@elleeen Are you sure? Would you say something like that? Like the “I would to!” (Like chose her over me)? That’s the part that freaked me out

@annehatesocd Yeah sure, i probably said it once when i didnt have hocd. Dont give it any meaning

@elleeen Alright....it’s hard not to. Have you heard someone say that? I’m sorry If I’m annoying you I’m so freaked out.

@annehatesocd I cant remember, but try to relax. Dont give it any meaning, hocd is trying to get u to engage and panic.

@elleeen Does it feel real to you too btw? it feels like i want it but its not a good feeling, and when im sleeping is like i can still feel it, and then i dont sleep that well. Idk, i seriously hate my life so much.

@elleeen Ya it does. Feels like I’m just gay and in denial but whenever I think of interacting romantically with a girl my stomach turns with anxiety and I wanna cry. I have cried and worried a lot. I lose my appetite a lot too.

@elleeen I’m struggling because I don’t even get anxious that much anymore like I was shopping today and there was this pretty girl and then my Mind was liek u think she’s hot and all this stuff and I don’t like how I didn’t react

@annehatesocd Same. I hate it, feels like im denial too. Ugh

@hiiiii Im anxious all the time, im doing things to lower the anxiety but its still there. Yea, when i see girls i get a lot of anxiety and then it feels real, like i want her. Im trying not to react to it

@elleeen Worst is going throughout my day it’s sucks.

@elleeen And don’t worry I’m anxious all the time as well. Whenever I think of trying anything with a girl I get so much anxiety and want to cry. Do you feel that?

@annehatesocd Yes, but im not trying not think about it that much because i dont want to. It feels so real that it cant be ocd anymore

@elleeen I feel. Out of all my mental illnesses this is by far the worse. Ocd. I suffer with extreme ptsd, anxiety, depression, anorexia, bulimia, self image disorder, etc. this is by far the worse I hate life ?

@annehatesocd oh, im sorry. Im here for you

@elleeen Thanks. I hate life so much rn :(

@annehatesocd me too. What if this is actually what i feel, ugh. I cant sleep well because of this, because it feels so real while im sleeping.

@elleeen I was at that point. I never sleep through the night I wake up at LEAST 2 times through the night if I’m lucky. It’s more like 3-5 times. Sometimes I can’t even sleep.

@annehatesocd Yes i have woken up so many times, and i always wake up early because of ocd. I can’t remember the last time i slept well.

@elleeen Same. Last night I slept for 6 HOURS STRAIGHT and I woke up and was like “woah that’s the best sleep I’ve gotten in an insanely long time”

@annehatesocd Thats good! Hope i can sleep that well too one day... Its so hard to just sit with the feelings.

@elleeen It’s absolutely terrible. I hate it with a passion. I was doing really good, like better than I had for three months about three weeks ago but a girl who doesn’t know about my ocd said something and just sent me overboard. It’s the worse.

@annehatesocd that sucks. I hate my life

@elleeen Relatable