Hey everyone I’m really struggling right now I’m not having any intrusive thoughts I’m just ruminating on the possibility of be being a you-know-what and I’m so anxious because I can’t tell my real memories apart from fake ones and I’m feeling a strong urge to self-harm. Sometimes my OCD fluctuates and I feel completely rational and okay and I know I’m not like this but other times my brain is just completely horrible and stupid and I really do convince myself that I’m a you-know-what. I’m just feeling really triggered and terrible right now I don’t need reassurance I just need some tips or suggestions for coping mechanisms to de-escalate all of this. Somebody please help I’m sorry.

POCD

Username: ocdsurvivoremocdsurvivorem

Date posted: 4y ago

I just acted on my compulsions (research and checking) and I know from what I’m reading that I’m not that way but still my brain just won’t stop it’s scaring me.

Username: ccgccg

Date posted: 4y ago

I’ve felt the same way and I tried medication because it gave me so much anxiety I started having panic attacks. I somehow got through it. I still get thoughts here and there but I don’t let them take control of me as much. I know who I am. I know I would never do that. My thoughts are there. But they’re just thoughts nothing else. I know they won’t make me act. Trust me you got this. Reading about it always helps me a little. The more you know about it the better you’ll feel just know you’re not alone in this ❤️

Username: ocdsurvivoremocdsurvivorem

Date posted: 4y ago

Thank you for your comment. I really was having a full-blown panic attack. It’s so weird how I can be absolutely certain I’m not this way and then absolutely certain I am. I’m so scared that I’m just in denial. I’m so scared because I feel like I don’t know who I am. I hope I can be confident that I will never hurt someone someday. This is so exhausting.

Username: ccgccg

Date posted: 4y ago

I know EXACTLY how you feel. That’s what I struggled with the most was well “what if” but that’s just part of anxiety that comes along with OCD. When I was going through it I was afraid of being around my family. Maybe if you face it head on and just let the thoughts flow everytime they come without immediately letting them control you I think they’ll eventually come less frequently and if they face them you won’t be bothered by them as much. Because it’s just a thought nothing else. That’s what helped me.

Username: ocdsurvivoremocdsurvivorem

Date posted: 4y ago

Alright I will try that. Thank you for the advice

Username: Stephen SmithStephen Smith

Date posted: 4y ago

I’ve said this in other posts, but it doesn’t seem like you acknowledged what I said. If you want to get better from OCD, you need to do ERP with a trained therapist. Do yourself a favor and research the value of doing ERP with a trained OCD specialist therapist online. Your hell with OCD will most likely stop if you see a good ERP trained therapist, whether through NOCD or another medium. Good luck

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 3y ago

Really thought about whether or not to post this but I’m really struggling and wondering if anyone has gone through the same thing/what helped them out of it. I have fears of psychosis/schiz/delusions and I started having intrusive thoughts that sound and feel delusional even though I know they’re not true, and I don’t actually believe them. I obsess over whether I think they’re true and if I’m actually delusional, then I start to feel really disconnected and dreamy (like derealization?) but then I get worried that I’m actually dissociating and/or losing my mind. I rly struggle w these thoughts as they make me so uncomfortable and make me feel like I am delusional. I will reread things I wrote, rethink things I have already said to make sure they’re coherent, argue w my thoughts, constantly check to make sure I know who I am, where I am, know who my family is, etc. to ensure I’m not losing my mind. My themes switch from this, to harm ocd and I’m just really having a hard time w the thoughts mixed w the disconnected feeling. It makes me want to stay in bed forever and cry because I don’t wanna feel this way anymore. Any advice would be so helpful.

"Pure" OCD

Username: Catlove9

Date posted: 1y ago

PLEASE Can someone please help me ASAP

I am freaking out with panic. It feels like I want to or have to hurt my boyfriend and it’s causing me to have the worst panic attack I’ve had in a while. It feels like I should be in a mental institution and all I want to do is cry. I know at a time like this I need to lean into the anxiety but I’m absolutely terrified. Please. Anyone. Words of wisdom or encouragement. It feels so different than normal and of course I’m so worried this is not OCD. how could it be? It’s so convincing and scary.

Harm OCD

Username: Neko_Mancer

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 41w ago

I need help I feel like I’m gonna lose control

I’m so scared I don’t even know if this is OCD at this point. I keep having horrible intrusive thoughts on acting upon my worst fear and the feelings and thoughts are so strong and intense I’m genuinely convinced I might lose control and do something horrible. It feels to real and it’s so constant that I don’t trust myself at all. There are times where it even feels relieving to think about doing something horrible even though it’s the opposite of what I want so feeling like that is so confusing and it’s convincing me I’ve become my worst fear. I’ve been trying everything to avoid anything that brings these thoughts and feelings up because I’m just so scared I’m going to snap and do something horrible. I have therapy soon and I’m really glad about that but I’m scared to tell this to my therapist because I don’t know what’s going to happen. I just need to know I’m not the only one who experiences this because I feel like I’ve just gone crazy at this point. I’m so scared that this isn’t OCD.

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