Hey everyone I’m really struggling right now I’m not having any intrusive thoughts I’m just ruminating on the possibility of be being a you-know-what and I’m so anxious because I can’t tell my real memories apart from fake ones and I’m feeling a strong urge to self-harm. Sometimes my OCD fluctuates and I feel completely rational and okay and I know I’m not like this but other times my brain is just completely horrible and stupid and I really do convince myself that I’m a you-know-what. I’m just feeling really triggered and terrible right now I don’t need reassurance I just need some tips or suggestions for coping mechanisms to de-escalate all of this. Somebody please help I’m sorry.

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ocdsurvivorem

Date posted: 5y ago

I just acted on my compulsions (research and checking) and I know from what I’m reading that I’m not that way but still my brain just won’t stop it’s scaring me.

ccg

Date posted: 5y ago

I’ve felt the same way and I tried medication because it gave me so much anxiety I started having panic attacks. I somehow got through it. I still get thoughts here and there but I don’t let them take control of me as much. I know who I am. I know I would never do that. My thoughts are there. But they’re just thoughts nothing else. I know they won’t make me act. Trust me you got this. Reading about it always helps me a little. The more you know about it the better you’ll feel just know you’re not alone in this ❤️

ocdsurvivorem

Date posted: 5y ago

Thank you for your comment. I really was having a full-blown panic attack. It’s so weird how I can be absolutely certain I’m not this way and then absolutely certain I am. I’m so scared that I’m just in denial. I’m so scared because I feel like I don’t know who I am. I hope I can be confident that I will never hurt someone someday. This is so exhausting.

ccg

Date posted: 5y ago

I know EXACTLY how you feel. That’s what I struggled with the most was well “what if” but that’s just part of anxiety that comes along with OCD. When I was going through it I was afraid of being around my family. Maybe if you face it head on and just let the thoughts flow everytime they come without immediately letting them control you I think they’ll eventually come less frequently and if they face them you won’t be bothered by them as much. Because it’s just a thought nothing else. That’s what helped me.

ocdsurvivorem

Date posted: 5y ago

Alright I will try that. Thank you for the advice

Stephen Smith

Date posted: 5y ago

I’ve said this in other posts, but it doesn’t seem like you acknowledged what I said. If you want to get better from OCD, you need to do ERP with a trained therapist. Do yourself a favor and research the value of doing ERP with a trained OCD specialist therapist online. Your hell with OCD will most likely stop if you see a good ERP trained therapist, whether through NOCD or another medium. Good luck

carol.xxx

Date posted: 18w ago

flare up please respond

Hey guys, I am having the worst HARM OCD episode I have had in a while. I am having disgusting, awful intrusive thoughts about harming others. It feels so real. It feels as if I am about to get up and just do it. The worst bit about it all Is I know I feel distressed and panicked. But where the thoughts are actually happening ( in my head) doesnt feel this feeling. This is making it feel worse as it really does feel like Im just going to do it. I am crying my eyes out because I know im petrified and dont want to hurt anyone im so scared. I have this terrible intrusive feeling in my that feels like its justifying the thoughts. Please can someone talk as I am scared Im crying I dont want know what to do I want this feeling gone I am so scared. I tell myself Id kill myself before hurting anyone else, but would i ? What if I actually do want to kill Please respond Im so scared

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King silly

Date posted: 16w ago

Not seeking reassurance, just prayers

Lately my OCD has been very horrible, it’s been more convincing than ever to the point where I’m genuinely convinced that I like this stuff, when I get a thought, I’ll hear my intrusive thoughts go “oooh, I like that, I’d do that.” and I just don’t freak out nor feel bad, I just feel like I like it even more, and feel like I would do/act on it and like it, and the feeling is strong and it lingers forever? It genuinely feels like I do, and I’m just lying now, i can’t tell if I make these thoughts worse or anything All I remember mostly just being like confused sometimes when these thoughts happen, but since I’m getting strong emotions that I like it, my brain says that means I did and I’m worried about that being true because I don’t understand nor know It’s like I am resisting to like this stuff now, it’s even tougher now than it was before

Ellen_l

Date posted: 15w ago

Advice?

I’m having a big OCD relapse and would like to hear anyone’s tips on how to be present and healthily deal with these intrusive thoughts and the “need” to preform compulsions. Thank you!!

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