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me too
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I have so much anxiety. It’s 3:20 where I am and I woke up at 1:30 and have been up ever since. Can’t sleep.
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Someone told me it sounds like I could be bi and have hocd and that set me off so much .
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@annehatesocd I understand. Who told you that?
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@elleeen Umm i don’t remember the person’s name on here but they have hocd as well and they are trying to accept the fact of uncertainty. I think it was Luna something. I’d you scroll down you can find her, but it really scared me. I’m terrified now :( Do you think im bi? From all you know? Like i want to be with a guy in my head and heart but it just feels like i can’t, do you feel like that?
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@annehatesocd jup i can relate. And i wont answer because only you know, and i don’t think other people should tell u what u are... thats not cool. Espacially when people here have HOCD, its not okey to trigger people. Trust yourself even thought u feel like you don’t know, because im in that stage. Try to remember its only fear, fear of being gay its worse than being gay.
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@elleeen Ya I feel awful cause there is absolutely nothing wrong with being gay. I don’t even know why I’m so distressed. I think it’s cause we are straight but just scared of being gay. Idk.
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@annehatesocd Yes i feel bad too, because i’m not homophobic at all. And ocd doesnt make sense, i want guys, but feel like i’m gay.
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@elleeen I don’t even know if I want guys. Well I mean I know I want guys but it’s like I can’t even become attracted to them anymore and it sucks :(
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@elleeen Do you deal with that to?
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@annehatesocd Jup, its normal. When u have ocd you get so deep down in the thoughts that you don’t know anymore. We have to try to live around the the thoughts and feelings
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@annehatesocd it was me and i just want to say i never said you were bi i said it possibly sounds like you were , you said honestly is it hocd or am i bi and i said from what you've told me i think it might be both but i don't know you in person , please don't twist what i said when i was trying to help you , you asked for my honest opinion and i never once said you were i said you could possibly be bi and suffer with thy hocd still
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@elleeen I’m still so scared....cause like I said I know you were trying to help Lucy but it really triggered me. That I could possibly be bi. And that scared me so much. Cause I could never be with a girl, that terrifies me.
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@annehatesocd i'm in the same boat don't worry , i know i would never get with a girl but i still get the feeling so i have to just deal with the uncertainty and know how i feel in my heart
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You are giving into a compulsion by saying that. You need to accept uncertain by saying “maybe I would be this way, I’ll accept the uncertainty and move on”
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If you challenge the thought you will get worse
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If you can’t find an ERP therapist I’d highly recommend an ERP book. Stop Obsessing by Edna Foa is a great one
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Think logically. Literally. Take me as an example. I have hocd and my obsession is “what if I’m gay”. I’ve liked girls my whole life, I can still get aroused by them and I can’t get the same instinctive reaction from a guy. So I can’t be gay. Sometimes ocd will go to something else once you prove it wrong. Maybe like. “What if I’m bi” again I can only get aroused by girls. Sometimes when I’m not thinking about it I can even get aroused when sitting next to a girl or when I’m sitting next to one or even when I’m touching one in a non sexual way. Something that never happens or has happened with a guy in my life. Don’t start panicking. Just “realise” who you are and who you’ve been.
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Here are some things that make me feel alone and isolated in my journey with sexual orientation OCD: 1. This feels like a complete identity crisis. I think that is what makes it so hard. It seems to go against everything I believe myself to be and who I always have identified as. 2. My compulsions, thoughts, triggers, and everything else that comes along with this disease feels and seems like I’m the only one that struggles with those things. My thoughts and images in my head often seems so real that it can only be me in denial. 3. Because this sub type of OCD is so sexual in nature, it has made my sex life with my husband, a really hard situation. Because I always get afraid and sex that I will think of these thoughts, I subconsciously then think of those thoughts, and if I have any type of feeling associated with those thoughts, it feels like proof that those thoughts are real and that makes it even harder. 4. Because a lot of the pleasure that comes with sex is on hot for me while I’m figuring out in this journey with OCD, my mind has convinced me that it is because I will only feel those things if I were with someone at the same sex (I am a straight female. I have a fear of being homosexual.). Well, all those things have made it really hard for me to function daily, I am doing a lot better at finding ways to combat those. I wanted to offer some of the things that I find that help me move past these thoughts and while it’s not always a perfect fix, it’s really helped. 1. I tried to remind myself daily that while love is a feeling it’s also choice. I have to remind myself to get up every single day and choose my husband not because I always feel like choosing him because that is who I choose. That is who I want. That is who I want to grow a relationship with to have a child with Thus why I always don’t feel that love, I always choose it. And while this can be really hard because just society as a whole has made us have these unrealistic ideas about what love is and made us think that love is just this huge with butterflies and sparks, it’s not always that. 2. I try to remind myself that these are just thoughts. And thoughts are not who I am. I don’t have to become the thoughts. I’m not a bad person for thinking of thoughts, and I don’t have to believe the thoughts. 3. When I get, like I often do, groinal responses to the things that I am thinking or seeing in my mind I just remind myself that those are responses to the anxiety I have. I’m not thinking those because I want to think those, but it’s in a response too The fear that I will think those and that I will get that response and then in turn I get the response. 4. I tried to remind myself that this isn’t a fear of coming out like if I was gay, this is a fear associated with a thought that I would be because that’s not who I am. If I really was gay, I would like the thought I would like the pleasure and I would be afraid of coming out. But in this situation, I don’t want any of the thoughts not because I’m afraid of coming out of this because it’s not who I am. If that makes sense.
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I struggle with HOCD or SOOCD. I’m a married young woman to an amazing husband. I’ve had this since I was 16 but it only came in flair ups. However this round started in October, and it’s been really rough and I would just break down all the time. I went up on my medication and I actually noticed a difference! My thoughts were still very present but I wasn’t really paying attention to them or giving them power. HOWEVER right when I thought I was getting better, my brain started feeling and saying to myself that I just know I am bi but you want to make excuses for it like “oh it’s normal to find someone hot since we as a society have an interpretation of what that looks like” or “I see the girl as myself and that’s what ‘turns’ me on” or “well I mean that girl looks kind of like a man” and it’s it’s making me spiral. I won’t ever come out as Bi as deep in my soul I don’t feel I am. I have always wanted to be with men sexually and romantically and that has not changed but my brain is making me believe I am and I just don’t want to admit it. Please help me, what has helped you?
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