Has anyone experienced this before

Last night and into today has been one of the hardest episodes I’ve had in a while. It started with me noticing a strange “touching” sensation whenever intrusive thoughts or images came up. It felt like someone was touching me even though nothing was happening. The sensation felt extremely real, but it also felt off and uncomfortable. Even though it didn’t feel right, my mind kept asking, “What if you like it?” That question made me panic. I started testing myself by intentionally bringing up scenarios in my head to see how I would react. The more I replayed them, the more vivid they became. At one point I imagined a girl touching me and kissing me, and the physical sensations became so strong that it felt like I was actually being touched. I wasn’t thinking, “I want this,” but my brain immediately started questioning whether the sensations meant I liked it. I kept asking myself over and over what it meant instead of letting it pass. At another point, I imagined being in what felt like a lesbian love story. I even “played along” with the fantasy out of curiosity to see what would happen. When the feeling started fading, I found myself trying to bring it back just to see if I could recreate it. That confused me even more because it made everything feel very real, and afterward I was left with a lingering dream-like feeling. The best way I can describe it is that it felt like waking up from a very vivid dream where the emotions stay with you after you wake up. Even though I knew it was only in my imagination, I felt like I was still emotionally inside the scenario. The feeling was unfamiliar, almost like it was taking over my attention, and I couldn’t stop wondering what it meant. I also noticed that if I became distracted or focused on something else, the feeling would start fading. But then I would intentionally go back looking for it, replay the scenario, and the sensations would come back again. I realized I was stuck in a cycle of testing, checking, replaying, and trying to figure out what every sensation meant. This morning I woke up already feeling anxious. My mind immediately went back to the scenarios from yesterday, and the touching sensations came back again. I kept asking myself, “Do I like this? Do I want this?” My immediate answer was no, but then I doubted my own answer because the sensations felt so convincing. I felt like I was still stuck in that dream-like fantasy feeling from the night before. Today I’ve also noticed feeling emotionally empty while these thoughts, sensations, and doubts keep happening. It feels like my emotions are drained, but my mind keeps producing intrusive thoughts and making me question everything. I feel overwhelmed, confused, and exhausted from constantly testing myself and trying to understand what every thought and sensation means. I’m sharing this because I want help with the cycle itself. I want to understand why I keep feeling the need to test, replay, and analyze my reactions, why the sensations can feel so vivid and convincing, and how I can stop getting pulled back into them.