I don’t know how to stop

A couple days ago, I had done something that someone told me once previously not to do. The only reason I had done it again was because I figured she was doing the same thing, so why couldn’t I? Anyway, she blew up at me and told me that I was being incredibly disrespectful, which makes total sense and was in her own right. However, I don’t handle confrontation well as I am on the spectrum (not an excuse, but an explanation) and I had burst into tears and shied away from her whilst repeating over and over how sorry I was and that I hadn’t ever meant to be malicious. I must’ve said sorry about 12 times. She would keep saying, EVERY TIME I APOLOGIZED“it’s okay, i know that you’re sorry. but that was extremely disrespectful.” I could’ve sworn she just wanted to keep seeing how hard I would grovel. I truly was sorry and I still feel horribly guilty, even though my family had told me the thing she got angry about was incredibly minuscule. I’m mortified I had a meltdown. I’m unbelievably embarrassed and wish I had just kept it together. The next day I texted her because I had finally gotten my thoughts together about how I feel about the relationship we have (these thoughts have been happening since we began talking). Keep in mind that this had nothing to do with her getting upset with me in that previously mentioned moment, as I’ve said, it WAS my bad even though it was a misunderstanding. I texted her and told her something along the lines of “I don’t like the way you speak to me, you have hostile undertones and never say please or thank you. I could be incredibly sensitive, but I don’t think this is going to work out.” I said it very respectfully and straight to the point. She lost her mind, telling me that “just because she’s blunt with her boundaries that doesn’t meant she’s mean.” I told her this has nothing to do with the day before, and that she was in her right to be angry with me about that. I told her this has to do with what she is like most of the time, outside of that misunderstanding. She was incredibly insistent that she wasn’t mean, and kept saying quite hypocritical things (i’m guessing as a defense mechanism). I told her numerous times that I was deeply sorry for upsetting her the other day, but this conversation wasn’t about that. It was how rude she was and authoritative, and how she sounded like hostility was boiling under her skin constantly. She, of course, denied everything that I had said, even when I gave examples. At one point I got frustrated and said f*cking, and she told me not to curse at her. I mentioned her cursing at me the day before maybe three times. Her response was “ok sorry abt that but still.” This conversation wasn’t going anywhere. The only reason I had texted her was to let her know I didn’t think we are compatible because I don’t like the way she speaks to me. Anyways, the next morning I told her “delete the pictures of us please. thanks.” and she replied, “your privacy will be respected but I’m not stupid. stop texting me.” I just gave up and blocked her like she wanted. Keep in mind, she has albums in her phone of almost every talking stage she’s ever had. I am 98% certain she didn’t delete those photos of me. I’m positive she will just show her next talking stage her collection (like she did with me) that now I have unfortunately been added to. Now to the OCD part, sorry. I CANNOT STOP THINKING ABOUT THIS. It is one of the worst OCD spirals I have ever had. I am beyond paranoid that I was the wrong person in this situation, and that she’s going to tell all her friends how horrible I am, and I’ll never get to defend myself. I hate being disliked, but what I hate more is when the situation that lead up to being disliked was a grey area where both parties messed up. I cannot handle doing something wrong (as my meltdown so delightfully showed us.) I literally do not know how to stop this. I have distracted myself for three days socializing and going out with my family and playing games but the second there’s a bit of quiet?? There she is again. I’m getting exhausted😞